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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 453286)

First of all, and I hate to say it, but good for you (for punching him, I mean).

;_; get away from them, as soon as possible, please. it'll be good for you.
i don't know what to say, other than you're amazing and don't forget it.

Thanks. I'm tired of people saying that I should get over it.

I'm trying to. The year's almost over, and I'll try and find better people.

Again, I can't thank you enough.

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Originally Posted by rebecca (Post 453280)

You have a crush...a real one?

What my classmates call a 'goddess'. Ish.
YES I DON'T WANT ONE.

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Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 453285)

I cracked and just threw a punch in his spine. Of course the people around me broke out in "If she punched me I would've..."s and "Oh my god what is wrong with her..."s. The art teacher went nuts and tried to have justice or whatever and told the principal, but no, I'm just a sad, sad lesbian to the principal, so he just had a talk with the asshole.

Later in the day, someone directly asked me why I did it, so I explained how I was tired of his shit.

"Why didn't you just say 'stop it'?"

--asked my friend in an incredulous and patronizing tone. Words full of shit have been thrown at me for nine years. "Stop it" has never worked. She kind of rolled her eyes and made a face, saying that she doubted it and I wouldn't have understood what they were saying.

Of course I knew that they were making fun of me, any fool can tell when you're made to look like you're lower than everyone else. This shit has been going on for the majority of my life, and just because you've never had to cut to assure yourself that you're not going insane, or escape from rality with music, or watch your family fall apart, or think such self-destructive thoughts, does not make you better than me. I'm so fucking sick of all of this. I just feel so terrible now. Unnoticed, unremarkable, freakish, repulsive. I can't stand it. I need to get out of here. They can't call themselves my friends. They're horrid morons. I need to get out of here. None of it's right. I am forced to handle coexisting with them while I have to battle my own, irrelevant thoughts and look away from the blades. I don't know what to do.

You'll be goin to a new school, yes?

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Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 453318)

You'll be goin to a new school, yes?

Yes, I will.

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Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 453319)

Yes, I will.

luCKY.
YOU Get to STArt ALL OVeR!

I killed my butterflies.

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Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 453362)

I killed my butterflies.

don't worry.
so have i.
take a cold shower and redraw them

I dunno.
I find it kind of strange, I would never change my life? If I could, I wouldn't change anything, because if I changed something... would I even be on this site? Would I be listening to rock and metal music? And now, I wouldn't change my life because I'm starting to see the good out of all the shit, and it's meeting friends here. The good is Isaac and Garance and Cheeze and MaryElizabeth and I wouldn't change the way my parents treat me or the bullshit my brother gives me or my awful grades or my depression or anything. Because if I changed any of that, I might not have friends on here.
(:

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 453366)

I'm so happy that you're feeling happy again (and that I was on that list). I swear, it will get even better. You'll have great friends like us and the depression will be nonexistent.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 453366)

*huggles*
I can totes relate. Pretty much the only thing I like about my childhood is that I read. But I wouldn't change it, 'cause I ended up with you guys, and that's worth all of it.

yep it was just my friends who had fun drawing these butterflies on my hand that's all haha