What. What is this.

C attacked me because I wouldn't give her a crisp. She started kicking me on the shins and in the stomach, and tried to kick my head a couple of times.
The day after, she started hitting me with a chair, then tried to squish my face against a cupboard with it.
C told Mrs Barry I refused her a crisp and said 'because you are too fat to need any crisps'. She also says I was hitting her. And that I attacked her with the chair.
You can't tell anyone I told you, cheeze. I'm not allowed to tell anyone.
THAT is why my mum now wants to homeschool me. She thinks C is too dangerous, especially when she strangled me last year.

Her again?!

My god. Oh my god.

I was bullied for first-third grade because of my teeth. I was kinda a chubby little kid, too. Well, my teeth are like...really gapped out (but I'm going to the orthodontist in January!), and everyone in the entire school called me "Gappy". Maybe that's why I have so much self esteem issues now, I don't know. Just thought I'd throw that in there.

I'm putting a picture of myself on the back of my novel that I'm publishing. I mean, I really don't see any harm in it. Hundreds of thousands of people put their faces on the Internet every day, and it's not like they'll know where I live, or my social security number, or all of that junk so that they can steal my identity or stalk me or whatnot.

If that comment was directed to me:
Yup.
She'll never stop.
And the school believes her. Even after a major bullying incident between her and another girl. That went on for a term.

Indeed.

This week is anti-bullying week, as well.

On Friday, I requested to see the anti-bullying policy. They said they would email it to me. I've reminded them several times, and it's Wednesday now... Still no sign of it.
Anyway, according to Kidscape, these are things to watch out for in anti-bullying policies - and what they actually mean...

We don't have bullying at this school (we don't acknowledge it)
Bullying is not tolerated here (it is ignored)
It's not bullying, it's just rough and tumble
Your child is not bullied, he/she is popular in the class
Boys/girls will be boys/girls
Your child brings it on him/herself
Your child is attention-seeking
*Your child needs anger management/ counselling/ therapy
Your child is over-sensitive
*You are going through a divorce aren't you?
Your child is upset because you're pregnant.
Your child is stressed because of trouble at home (with or without threat to contact Social Services)
We cannot reveal how the bully will be dealt with because of student confidentiality
Only the headteacher has the anti-bullying policy
Our anti-bullying policy is being re-written
We'll post you the anti-bullying policy (never arrives)
We haven't got a spare copy of the anti-bullying policy
Unfortunately there were no witnesses, so there is nothing we can do
You are an over-anxious parent
We have talked to the bullies and they were only playing/joking
*The bully said it was your child who bullied them (no system for finding truth)

*What was said to me and my mum.

Wow, that's depressing. o_O

Still crying...
It's been around eight hours crying on and off.

I just saw a picture of some girls in my class on Facebook... They were smiling and laughing.
I burst into tears... They looked so happy. Why can't I have a simple and uncomplicated life. Why does my life need to be so messed up...

I'm sorry if I'm posting too much on this thread. Just ignore my numerous whining posts.

Nope.
/hugs
You can still be happy, despite whatever's going on.
And what other people think doesn't matter—what matters is you're awesome and you didn't do it.

Thanks.
But the problem is that C is never going to stop.
So basically, for the rest of my secondary education, I'll be living in fear of being attacked.
She knows EXACTLY how to target and hurt people the most, and then EXACTLY how to shift the blame.

Oh dear lord not this.

We'll look after you. I know it seems like it's going to be hard, but don't worry. Don't let her affect your life any more than it has to. Don't let her ruin something that you worked so hard for, and something that matters to you more than she does. You deserve to be here, and her opinion doesn't matter.

You know how C made all that fuss about her diary last year? She brought it into school was showing everyone. Not like that's attention-seeking or anything. Also, did you tell Katie? She's saying that she knows why you were off school, but that she's not allowed to say. She's clearly trying to get someone to ask her.

Mrs B questioned Hiba and Chandani, who gave a list of witnesses. Katie was probably one witness that Mrs B then questioned.
I've recieved TWO messages in total today asking why I wasn't in school. TWO.

What the FU** was that for!?
"Oh, I'll just take away your iPod and dock it in the living room so you won't play on it all day."
PLAY ON IT?
Do you not realize I talk myself and others out of suicide daily, vent to keep myself sane, write things that delve so deep inside of me I would kill someone before I let them read it, on it?
God DAMN you. You assume things about me. You don't know the last thing about me.
I'm crying so hard right now, YOU'RE DESTROYING ME.

i think i want a therapist

I know what you mean. There's someone in my life who has almost killed my brother, tried to strangle my sister, kicked me in the mouth, knocked me out with a pogo stick, and does everything possible to mess up my life, and yet is classified as a "sweet and intelligent child". :/

Name.
Address.

The two things cheeze and I need to avenge you.
NAME.
ADDRESS.
NOW.
OR AT LEAST THE NAME.

Michael. I can't pronounce or spell his last name. And I don't know where the heck he lives.

We should team up. Take our revenge on all the people who have messed up our lives. :D

*le comforting hug of never letting go*
You should. School counseller?

*le hug*
*sobs* Thank you.

YES. WE SHOULD.
You, cheeze, and MOI.
*evil grin* THEY SHALL REGRET THE PAIN THEY CAUSED US.

Sorry, more vagueness.

What is it? Is it the thing about your crush?

Then why'd you bring it up? :confused:

Because I wanted to say something or let something out about it.

Oh. Alright. o__o

The world.... It's a depressing place to live. I will now go drown myself in the notes of Bleeding Out. Pull me out when it ends.

The vagueness. It's blinding me.

I don't care. o__o It's not blinding me since I know what it is! :P

True. XD That's one way of looking at it.

This video cheered me up a lot. :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bGDIi...feature=relmfu

I shall help you. /nods

Just keep working. It's rubbish but whatever.

I hate parents.
So.
Much.
Because I made ONE sarcastic comment at dinner, ONE, she says 'You need help'. She then started shouting at me about how it was no wonder I was bullied if I'm constantly sarcastic. And that I'M the bully.
You have no idea, mum. I thought you were on my side.

Oh God, Oh God, Oh God.

I nearly died today. I'm not joking. My skirt literally touched the car as I ran across the road.
I told them I didn't want to go to the shop, but they kept on nagging me, and look what happened.
The driver got out of the car and shouted at me. Sad, right?

That was me last year. I skipped a good third of the year and somehow passed with flying colours.
I'm not going to say you have to do good in school this year (you're in grade eight as I recall...?) since your marks aren't recorded for post secondary. Heck, by all means, as soon as you understand what they're talking about in class, skip, and then come back when they're talking about something new, if your parents let you. ._. Grade eight is horrible. It gets sooooo much better in highs school, especially in Pre-IB and IB, trust me. :/