My parents would never let me skip. Ever.
*sigh* I understand it, but it's just so... boring.
And the kids are mean to me.
I feel uninspired. I just don't give a sh!t anymore.

Start giving a sh*t, then. You can't give up on something simply because others are putting you down. Do you really want to start letting your grades slip, then look back and realize that you're an awesome person who's smart and knows she can do better than that?
Yeah, school can be boring. But it isn't going to get less boring if you stop trying. That will cause it to get worse, and you might be placed in lower-level classes, which will be even more boring. School will get more difficult in high school.
You are smart, but that's useless if you don't work hard for your keep in life.

"Be yourself, don't take anyone's sh*t, and never let them take you alive."

~Gerard Way


That's all you can do. Just know that you're probably the smartest kid in your grade and several grades above and that you can kick butt at whatever you try to do if you put your mind to it.

That's horrible :O You need to tell them how you feel about it, even though it's easier said then done. Way easier. It's just not right.

Oh my gosh O_O That. Is. Scary.

To P: I want to be mad at you for hating me, but then I wonder if you have a point. Either way, please go kill yourself.

High five. I know the feeling.

I know this feel.

I know it way too well for my liking.

...thing I found on a website LST gaveth to me. I've bolded the ones that I have.

Symptoms of depression


Everyone experiences depression in different ways, but there are feelings and behaviours that are common to depression. Some of the symptoms a person may experience include:

marks dropping
acting aggressive or disruptive (according to my teacher, but... he's being an asshole lately, so IDK)
having negative thoughts or feelings about themselves
taking more risks than they used to
withdrawing from friends and family
losing interest in things they previously enjoyed
having difficulty making decisions
having trouble concentrating
feeling irritable or angry
feeling helpless or hopeless
feeling anxious, nervous or restless
feeling sad or "down"
feeling guilty
changes in sleep patterns (e.g. having trouble falling asleep or staying asleep or wanting to sleep all the time)
changes in appetite (e.g. not wanting to eat much or wanting to eat all the time)
feeling more fatigued or tired
using drugs or alcohol to cope with moods
having thoughts about death or suicide

If I have four or five or more of these symptoms, I *may* have depression. So, um, joy.

Almost everybody feels like this at some point.
It's frustrating, isn't it?
Depression is internalized anger. My suggestion would be to write, draw, talk to a friend (or us) about your feelings often to get it off your chest. Externalize that anger in a safe place, like a notebook.

marks dropping
acting aggressive or disruptive
having negative thoughts or feelings about themselves
taking more risks than they used to
withdrawing from friends and family
losing interest in things they previously enjoyed
having difficulty making decisions
having trouble concentrating
feeling irritable or angry
feeling helpless or hopeless
feeling anxious, nervous or restless
feeling sad or "down"
feeling guilty
changes in sleep patterns (e.g. having trouble falling asleep or staying asleep or wanting to sleep all the time)
changes in appetite (e.g. not wanting to eat much or wanting to eat all the time)
feeling more fatigued or tired
using drugs or alcohol to cope with moods
having thoughts about death or suicide

Yeah, got this from Heather.

I'm going to act like it's nothing big.

I feel like I have this like...emptiness in me. Like, for some reason I can't be happy. I can laugh at jokes and smile and truly mean it, but then there's this one thing tugging on my heart. It's like....I don't even know. I mean, I have wonderful friends and family (even if they get on my nerves sometimes), I'm trying out for the dance team next year, I kind of know what I want to be when I grow up, I'm doing pretty good in school.

CALEIGH, Y U NO BE HAPPY?!?!?!

marks dropping
acting aggressive or disruptive
having negative thoughts or feelings about themselves
taking more risks than they used to
withdrawing from friends and family
losing interest in things they previously enjoyed
having difficulty making decisions
having trouble concentrating
feeling irritable or angry
feeling helpless or hopeless
feeling anxious, nervous or restless
feeling sad or "down"
feeling guilty
changes in sleep patterns (e.g. having trouble falling asleep or staying asleep or wanting to sleep all the time)
changes in appetite (e.g. not wanting to eat much or wanting to eat all the time)
feeling more fatigued or tired
using drugs or alcohol to cope with moods
having thoughts about death or suicide

...

*looks at last one*
O__________________________________________O NO. >__>

I still can't believe I've got all but one symptom.

marks dropping Slightly? I think so.
acting aggressive or disruptive Slightly
having negative thoughts or feelings about themselves
taking more risks than they used to
withdrawing from friends and family
losing interest in things they previously enjoyed
having difficulty making decisions
having trouble concentrating
feeling irritable or angry Slightly
feeling helpless or hopeless
feeling anxious, nervous or restless
feeling sad or "down" Slightly
feeling guilty
changes in sleep patterns (e.g. having trouble falling asleep or staying asleep or wanting to sleep all the time)changes in appetite (e.g. not wanting to eat much or wanting to eat all the time) Sort of
feeling more fatigued or tired Sort of
using drugs or alcohol to cope with moods
having thoughts about death or suicide

wow, we're pretty fked up.

We're writers, what can we say?

Guess so .

;w; Camiiiiiiiiilllllllllle! *glomps*

Everybodeh's so sad. ._. My brain cannot take the sadness. And I have no idea how to help, other than this: I love all of you guys, and I know we all love each other. No matter what happens, we'll always be here for each other. *sickly-sweet Disney-esque music starts to play* e_e SHUT UP I'M BEING SERIOUS. *throws a rock at a random radio, killing the music* Anyway. ._. Yeah.

Even if you feel depressed, just try to be happy about the things you DO have. I'm not saying you should focus on all the starving children in Whereevertheheck-stan, since that typically just makes people feel worse. I mean....take a moment to just sit down in a place you like to be (your room, the library, a park, etc.), close your eyes for a moment, open them, and name off the colors you can see. Imagine what it'd be like if all you saw was black and white. That would make life SO much more depressing. Now imagine not being able to see. Try to focus on sounds. Play music you like but haven't heard in a while. Focus on the instruments being played. Try to identify each one. Go get some food, maybe something with a lot of ingredients like soup. Without looking at the label, smell it and try to guess each ingredient. Then taste it and guess again.

Just do anything that helps you to appreciate your senses. (That's not illegal of course. XD No drugs, no alcohol.)

Life is hard, sometimes. But it's not as bad as it seems if you just slow down for a bit and enjoy being alive. Keep in mind that cats and most other carnivores can't taste sweet. Know that dogs can't see green. Remember that moles are practically blind. Know that scientists can track a comet throughout the universe, and know where its going to be 5, 10, 15, 100 years from now, but...you probably had a dream last night. And scientists still aren't totally sure how or why you had that dream. And yet, it happened anyway. ;)

That's what I try. It generally works.. but a sad fact is that during serious depression, music cannot be appreciated and neither can movies. I am avidly frightened of depression, because I believe that is where I am going wrong in my writing productivity. Depression usually reduces creativity and more angry venting poems. Angry venting poems usually suck. So.
Studies have linked creativity to depression and bipolar disorder. So that is possibly why writers are often caught with this plague.

True. :^| Chronic depression IS caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain, so, no matter what you do, the depression is still going to be there. *le has been living with people with chronic depression all my life* Temporary depression can be just as tricky, too. And yes, depression sometimes equals either Bipolar I or Bipolar II, which goes hand in hand in all kinds of emotions, and writers are typically very emotional people...so... x_x Yup.

That's the thing, Max. ._. They don't REALLY love each other. Yes, they might love each other as friends, but they're still just children, and their brain chemistry is still changing, so it's next to impossible that they're ACTUALLY in love.

I feel your pain, buddy. x_x Today's world is downright insane. The media keeps telling younger and younger kids that dating is great and to follow your heart no matter what anyone else says, no matter how old you are. But that just isn't true. Dating is complicated. It's not recreation. Dating is SUPPOSED to be about trying to find someone you want to spend the rest of your life with. It's not some kind of selfish game. Following your heart is great, but if people who are more experienced than you tells you what you're doing is wrong, THEN YOU'RE MOST LIKELY WRONG, SO STOP WHATEVER IT IS YOU'RE DOING. e_e

I'm glad to know that you at least have the sense to recognize that all this kid dating nonsense is what it is, Max. <:^/ I know I don't have to tell you this, but, try not to ever give into the peer pressure of dating so early. They might LOOK happy, but they're not. They're confused and upset, even more so than you might be. That behavior is not normal, even though the media makes it look like it is.

Ash, they just need to stop. e_e

O_e They do. But they won't, since they're all nothing but little monkeys that do what they see all the other little monkeys are doing. ._.

Flix: Monkey see monkey do, I suppose.
Me: Get out, this is my annoyance time! :mad:

I know how you feel. It's just hormones. It'll go away.

CRAP.
Amayzing Mayzie hurts my voice.
POOPIE POOPIE POOP POOP.

marks dropping (ish)
acting aggressive or disruptive (I feel it)
having negative thoughts or feelings about themselves
taking more risks than they used to (I always take risks..so)
withdrawing from friends and family (mostly family)
losing interest in things they previously enjoyed (occasionally, though it hasn't completely recovered)
having difficulty making decisions
having trouble concentrating (Yes, even with Game of Thrones)
feeling irritable or angry
feeling helpless or hopeless
feeling anxious, nervous or restless (sometimes)
feeling sad or "down
feeling guilty
changes in sleep patterns (e.g. having trouble falling asleep or staying asleep or wanting to sleep all the time) (The last one)
changes in appetite (e.g. not wanting to eat much or wanting to eat all the time)
feeling more fatigued or tired
using drugs or alcohol to cope with moods
having thoughts about death or suicide

I have more than I thought I would have.

Me too.
10ch

Apparently I seem "always happy".
Yeah… I'm usually really hyper and cheerful. How I feel doesn't really affect how I act… except sometimes when I start crying and hide in the bathroom and I can't stop and then after that I start crying again at every tiny thing. But other than that… I'm random and hyper and I don't take things seriously and I act happy and yeah.
And that's what I want people to see and think, right? Besides, that's who I am. So no problem, it's all good.

I am kind of creeped out by my classmate Katrina, who thinks I'm amazing because I will soon publish. It's aggravating as well.

You're publishing? It's really anxious, waiting. How long until it will be in stores and is this Falling Maple leaves?

No, I just bought the publishing package because the price's going up. It will be Falling Maple Leaves.