I'm sorry. :/ I can sort of relate… I used to go through mood swings a lot (though not really to joyful-ness, more of spazziness and lack of depression) (and lately I've just been apathetic), but… I wish I could save you from some of the toll it's taking on you. :/
*hugs*

@Heather: *Hugs you too*

*hugs back* Thanks, Tredom. You're a great friend.

But...it's really not mood swings. It's what's happening in my life. ._. I go have fun for the weekend, then come back home on Sunday to find that everything is all screwed up. I enjoy the meeting, and then get reminded of something horrible that happened, and I can't take it. I enjoy reading a story or watching a show I like, and then get wind of something horrible that happened to someone I care about that didn't have to happen.

....On a completely random note, I found that Doctor, Window and Wardrobe GIF you were looking for. X'D ;w;

Heather. No. Please. God, no, please. Just after I stopped. No. Heather, feel love. Please, anything but scratching. My god, please Heather, for all the time I've ever known you, please.

Oh God, my God,
I pray that these things never end,
The sand and the sea,
The rush of the water,
The crash of the heavens,
The prayers of all.

Please Heather.

If you post that, it's obvious that you have. ;-; I was trying to give you indirect advice today, when we were sitting in the v*****, but I just sounded stupid.

Not the slightest problem. (:

Oh… that sucks worse. :/ Things'll get better. It's kind of cheesy and overused, but whatever problems you're going through, they won't last forever and I believe you can beat them.
And I really wish I could help with all of that. Dx

Yeah. xD
I can relate. I felt like that the other day. Which is why I was sort of happy when I thought I was about to start having self-destructive but not apathetic mood swings. Which is why I kind of want to try triggering those mood swings. something other than this apathetic numbness I hardly f***ing notice.
It might not be a big deal now… but please please please don't let it become cutting.

And listen to, like, love songs. Happy songs. Religious songs (like by Skillet and Relient K, not overtly religious but it could be), even if you don't believe in them. At least… that helps me.
And this song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yikzoM4tbfg Usually it makes me cry and feel less depressed.

Exactly. I just need to feel SOMETHING, and if it's hurt, it's better than... whatever the hell I've been NOT feeling for the past week.
It will never become cutting. *laughs bitterly* As much as I want to, I never could.
Glee. Glee is good. /nods

I have this classmate called Katrina whose voice sounds like a three-year old and is friggin' awesome. It's not a lisp, but it's very high-pitched and she doesn't enunciate very clearly, even though it doesn't sound bad. Everyone in the class loves her.
Don't let your parents get you down.

First, don't think of it as your problem. Get your self-esteem high and think, 'That's just me, no matter how you like it or not'. 'Well, your mind is warped, because I don't see any problem with what I just said.'
/throws Pluzzle some ladders and a torch.
I'm so happy for you ^_^

Reminds me of how my dad has been treating me lately... I don't know what I did, dad, but I'm sorry...
He's yelling at me and getting mad at me for the tiniest things, which is really unlike him... I literally have to shut him up with my marks. He'll be doing what your dad does to you but to me, going on and on in this horrible sarcastic voice, and I'll say, "Dad, I have over 95% in all my classes and I just got a math test back, 97%, and then my English test was 96%..." and then he shuts up and stops for a little while, but I have to keep feeding him marks to keep him off my back.
I don't know why he's doing this. :/
I'm just a report card to him. Same with my mom...

My eight year old sister tried to shove me in front of cars at least twice today.
Intentionally.
And I can't do anything because no-one ever believes me.

I feel like I should post on the thread 'cause this isn't dark.
Today has gone fairly well and I feel kind of happyish at the moment and I'm listening to awesome (unhappy, at the moment) music. ^.^

Good for you! :'D


today i just felt really alone and neglected and idk. and then at the end of the day i was happy for a few minutes or so but then at ex-day it just reached a low point and when i got home i tried to stab myself in the palm with my sharpened nail when i was writing but it didn't work and i tried to draw blood but i couldn't even break the skin and i wanted to break the skin. i still want to break the skin and i feel like a big hypocrite because i just helped a friend to try to stop cutting and i'm bringing her candy on Monday as a reward but i'm not cutting, not really, i just want to bleed...

._. Okay, if anything happens, you can tell me. ._.

http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m52dd64Gwb1qh1eug.gif
You're awesome. They're not.
*is proud of you for at least trying*

does like pokey or someone from school have earbuds you can borrow? or would that not help?

Okay. If anything bad happens in school on Monday, I'll tell you and stuff. >_>

XD That gif made me laugh. XD
I know. They could die for all I care. >_>

Sorry for messed up sentences... when you vent for one of the first times in your life, and your anger has been building up for such a long time.. it happens. >_<

Awww, I'm sorry it's been building it up and you haven't been able to let it out. :/
You can email me too if you want.
*will try* *at least sort of* *because right now i guess i sort of don't really give a shit about the apathy*

could you find an excuse to go outside and use an iPod or go to a friend's house?

Dammit, I forgot to give you a lollipop. Heather, you gave me a talk when I needed it, and I will always be here, right behind you, your bright knight. I know you aren't asking for support, but Heather, draw butterflies where you're scratching. I named mine for K, G, you, and E. And Wyatt. Stay you.

*please do try* *i'm only trying if you try*

Nope. Joy oh joy. My parents would have a fit.
And you're my morning bird? xD Oh, so I should draw butterflies everywhere on my chest, torso, and legs. Right... that will happen. (maybe just small ones here and there, idk.) Good. You took my idea. :'D

I think my friends a pathological one-upper. Not even kidding. Everything I say she just says she's done something better even if it's not true. I'm just getting so sick of it.

Yup, I'm your morning bird. Small ones are still good, just places to remind you, to tell you.

Either that or my mind is probably naturally messed up.. maybe even both.
Nah, that's okay, but thanks.

All right. Okay...
Good.

Yeah, well, neither do I. It's a battle I've been fighting for far too long but it's not one I'm going to win.

Okay, that's just not fair. .___. *makes a weird noise that can only be described as a cross between a dejected sigh and a growl* I'm so sorry, Sandy. x_x I don't know what to say or how to help you. I'm sorry. *hugs*

I'm tired of being the quiet, shy freak in the corner.

I don't hate anybody but myself.