Originally Posted by Jean (Post 291771)

Y'all can ignore this as well, it's just old thoughts that have been lingering.

I miss some of my old friends on here, but no use in whining, it won't change anything. I just left for a while and came back and none of them were on any more, and I'm not very good at making friends on the internet. So.. yeah, those are my emotions at the moment.

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 291989)

I know how you feel. A lot of KPers I knew when I first joined have left.

WELL, not very many people in the world are good at making friends, so don't worry about it. <:^J

I'm Ash, by the way. :) When did you join KP?

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 291991)

You shouldn't be complaining, Miss author-of-the-most-popular-story-on-KidPub. Just pointing it out. :P

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 292010)

:rolleyes:

But anyway, for now, you win the debate with that cute dog. :D

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 291991)

You shouldn't be complaining, Miss author-of-the-most-popular-story-on-KidPub. Just pointing it out. :P

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 291991)

You shouldn't be complaining, Miss author-of-the-most-popular-story-on-KidPub. Just pointing it out. :P

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 291984)

Remember Everything is the only song I've listened to.
You are awesome. Because of you, I have discovered the epikness of Egypt Central :D I mostly listen to Enemy Inside or Liar, if I'm not listening to Sick Puppies.

Originally Posted by Leloo (Post 291913)

Three Days Grace is AWESHUM. >:^D And yes, they're very angst-y. Though I prefer Breaking Benjamin over them most of the time.

http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lf...foyoo1_400.gif

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 291927)

BTW, you haz mail.

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 291984)

Remember Everything is the only song I've listened to.
You are awesome. Because of you, I have discovered the epikness of Egypt Central :D I mostly listen to Enemy Inside or Liar, if I'm not listening to Sick Puppies.

Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 292057)

I have got to stop looking at WolfWriter and Leloo's stories. XD They have at least fifteen comments on each chapter. .-. And two or three fan clubs. :P

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 292058)

You... you...
(*stares*)
WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN FOR MY ENTIRE DURATION AS A KIDPUBBER
BREAKING BENJAMIN IS MY LIFE ASHJDKHSAJKHJKAHJKSDHSKJADAS I DONT EVEN (*explodes*)



(*neighs*)
WONDERFUL!! :D MAIL!!! MAEL!!! MALELLLELLELELNAKLSDKSJA
Argh. -_- I'm going cyber crazy again. -____-



Remember Everything... by Five Finger Death Punch? (*le heart breaks*) That song is so beautiful...
I love Sick Puppies, especially "Going Down" or "One of us is Going Down" or something or other about people going down... 8D
Thank you! :'D

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 292060)

Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 292439)

Sandy....

Why don't they have hair? They look like aliens. xD

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 292440)

And why don't they have clothes on? o_o

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 292444)

XD It's just a meme, guys. Memes don't have a lot of detail.

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 291543)

o_o Feel free to ignore this.

-__- I don't know what's wrong with me.

I WANT to write. But...I just can't focus. At all. I write one sentence, and then my brain just gives up. And I hate it. I hate how I can't think of synonyms and can't organize my ideas and can't get the words to come out right and can't write dialogue.

This whole numbness thing has been hanging over my head for months, but it suddenly got worse about a month ago, right when all this stress piled up on me. I think that's it...this whole huge family issue has made doing anything feel like it's totally useless. I can't seem to cook food right anymore. I don't clean as much as I used to. I can't seem to enjoy my favorite songs. Nothing tastes good. Nothing sounds fun. All I want to do is curl up on the couch with someone I care about (though I don't know exactly who that person would be) and cry for a little bit, then go to sleep for a year. I KNOW if I can just cry it out, I'll feel better, but...I just...can't. I'm too steeled over. Too numb. Too apathetic of everything. And yet, I want it to stop. I've tried everything I can think of, but nothing works. I can't bring myself to be anything but numb or outraged or horribly lonely. And that means I can't write, because I can't describe the emotions my characters are feeling if I don't feel them myself.

...And you know what? Through it all, every time I feel lonely, there's only one person I seem to want to be with. And...it makes no sense to me at all. I want to be with my character Charlie when I'm feeling lonesome. Not my friends, not my family. They really haven't been able to help me. A lot of them just made it worse. All I want is to hang out with Char for a while...vent a little bit, then watch some movies together, maybe go on a bike ride or a walk, then curl up on the couch together and go on a YouTube music spree. I don't know why that's the first thing my brain comes up with when I'm feeling lonely, because I know all of that is totally impossible...but.....I don't know. I just don't know anything anymore...

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 292448)

My mood right now: UBER HAPPY! :'D Like, actually HAPPY happy. O_O Not just hyper. Not on an upswing of a mood change. Actually...happy. No numbness. :'3

Why, you ask, am I happy?

WELL. :D Here it is, in no specific order:

1.) Got to watch the latest Legend of Korra episode! ^_^ XD 'Twas great. O_O CLIFFAHANGER ENDING.
2.) The girl I met at the AIMS testing site finally emailed me back and sent me the story she's writing. o.o It. Is. EPIC.
3.) Pizza for lunch! XD
4.) My birdie and my poochie love me, and I love them, too. :3 *hugs Jojo and Tiger, who are both in a good mood today*
5.) 2NE1 IS AWESOME. *breaks into the chorus of Clap Your Hands right at http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature...UM5Jy4E#t=139s *
6.) My sunflower seedlings are growing nicely, so I decided to plant some safflower, too.
7.) This has been THE coolest summer here I HAVE EVER SEEN. O_O It should be 112 F right now, but it's only 108. :') And it'll be only 74 F later tonight.
8.) DRAGONWRITER POSTED THE EDITED CHAPTER 1 OF VAAREN SALVATION. :D Excuse my fangirlishness, but I freaking luffed that story when I was a guest.

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 292476)

Even though I'm a bit late… Not ignoring it. :B

Don't stress about it. It won't help; just give yourself a break and try to relax. :P

For the numbness… I have that problem too. :P It helps to listen to happyish music, at least for me. Like, Relient K, love songs, stuff like that. Think of your friends, everyone who cares about you, every good memory you can find, and look at the comments on your posts, everything nice that people have said about you. Hopefully it'll help at least a bit.

I think it makes sense: you based Amber off of yourself, at least partially, and Charlie's her best friend and awesome. :P


:'D
*Is very glad you're happy now*
And it's been a bit coolish here the past few days, too. XD

@Sandy: Yeahhhh… that's why I stopped listening to Three Days Grace. XD

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 292476)

@Sandy: Yeahhhh… that's why I stopped listening to Three Days Grace. XD

Originally Posted by nngo (Post 292514)

:eek: You stopped listening to Three Days Grace? D:<

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 292526)

I don't. I entered, too. :P

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 292518)

They were depressing me. XD And I'd only listened to a few songs… World So Cold, Never Too Late, Pain, Break, and a few others…

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 292537)

Mine was weird. There was this girl who was the master of death and turned into the moon so that she could "keep an eye" on him. XD