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Lily09 03-21-2013 07:11 PM

I've seen two comments about 'age nine? how can you be sad?' and that's enough to make me need to comment about this.
I was bullied at age 8 and beaten by my dad since I was about fourish.
Tell me again how younger kids can't hate their lives or be depressed.
Not only that, guess what? Depression can sometimes run through the family. And sometimes, kids /can/ get depressed since age nine or younger.
Did you know, that problems can run through at any fucking age? and it's extremely insulting to say, "Oh you're age ___, how can you be sad?" because, well fuck off, you don't know anything about their lives.

Lily09 03-21-2013 07:23 PM

Garance: Can you please? That'd be wonderful, especially since spring break is coming up and things won't have to be extremely awkward between us.

AlgebraAddict 03-21-2013 07:26 PM

WHO THE HELL WAS THIS GUY?

I FREAKING. HATE. BACH.


mneh.

Arin 03-21-2013 07:33 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 442531)
I've seen two comments about 'age nine? how can you be sad?' and that's enough to make me need to comment about this.
I was bullied at age 8 and beaten by my dad since I was about fourish.
Tell me again how younger kids can't hate their lives or be depressed.
Not only that, guess what? Depression can sometimes run through the family. And sometimes, kids /can/ get depressed since age nine or younger.
Did you know, that problems can run through at any fucking age? and it's extremely insulting to say, "Oh you're age ___, how can you be sad?" because well fuck off, you don't know anything about their lives.
And alsooooo, you can act like an oldie without being rude.

:(:( I'm sorry, Lily, for the pain you went through at a young age.

HeatherB 03-21-2013 07:50 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 442407)

I don't do enough good. And I don't think it makes up for who i am.

LST, I honestly cannot change what you think. So I'm not going to try. I'm just going to tell you the truth, which is: whoever you think you are is clearly someone not good enough. But you've done so much good and listened to and helped so many people and it'd be wrong if we didn't at least try to help you too. You are fucking amazing and you deserve the world and very likely more. Considering that the Zogons are going to wipe out the planet eventually anyways. You're one of the best people I have ever have the privilege of knowing (not meeting. because we haven't. yet). I don't know what else to tell you, but it does hurt me to see you hurting. *hugs tightly* ((it's times like these when i really wish that we were much more technologically advanced than we are, because, c'mon: i should be able to walk through my laptop and into your house (((okaaaaaaayyyyyy not in a creeper way))) and give you a really nice hug right now))

L.S.Trendom 03-21-2013 08:04 PM

so.
i hurt the people i cared about most.
and possibly destroyed my life in the process.
if i'm not on kidpub or tumblr, my mom may have taken away my internet and/or phone.
[size=1]i haven't eaten since the day before yesterday. i've cut. i honestly have no idea what i'd do without being able to talk to you guys. but large amounts of self-hate i can't ignore + knowing i've hurt people a lot + having no one to talk to + hopelessness = pretty much the perfect thing to end up making me suicidal.. i'm so tired of fucking up everything
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wcEcmtXmXNU

Lily09 03-21-2013 08:12 PM

i feel so fucking selfish isaac and im fucking sorry goddamit like why the fuck do i care about myself right now
im okay i'll live. if we lose contact, promise me to call me/text me/whatever as soon as you can?

HeatherB 03-21-2013 08:16 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 442575)
so.
i hurt the people i cared about most.
and possibly destroyed my life in the process.
if i'm not on kidpub or tumblr, my mom may have taken away my internet and/or phone.
[size=1]i haven't eaten since the day before yesterday. i've cut. i honestly have no idea what i'd do without being able to talk to you guys. but large amounts of self-hate i can't ignore + knowing i've hurt people a lot + having no one to talk to + hopelessness = pretty much the perfect thing to end up making me suicidal.. i'm so tired of fucking up everything
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wcEcmtXmXNU

isaac. please. just. i don't know what to say.
i'm not good at this.
please
just
live

HeatherB 03-21-2013 08:17 PM

shit fuck i think i'm gonna cry

Lily09 03-21-2013 08:20 PM

self,
you wont cry
and you wont cut
and you wont kill yourself if you dont get to ever talk to him again
fuck i will probably do all of these things

HeatherB 03-21-2013 08:22 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 442583)
self,
you wont cry
and you wont cut
and you wont kill yourself if you dont get to ever talk to him again
fuck i will probably do all of these things

http://24.media.tumblr.com/3be246514...zjx7o1_500.jpg
to everyone on this thread.

L.S.Trendom 03-21-2013 08:30 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 442581)
isaac. please. just. i don't know what to say.
i'm not good at this.
please
just
live

i'm sorry for hurting you
why should i
i'm a worthless fucked up piece of shit who hurts people a lot, who's possibly about to lose all his friends

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 442579)
i feel so fucking selfish isaac and im fucking sorry goddamit like why the fuck do i care about myself right now
im okay i'll live. if we lose contact, promise me to call me/text me/whatever as soon as you can?

don't feel selfish.
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 442583)
self,
you wont cry
and you wont cut
and you wont kill yourself if you dont get to ever talk to him again
fuck i will probably do all of these things

you won't. you'll survive.
i'll borrow a friend's phone, if i have to.

Lily09 03-21-2013 08:35 PM

i dont know if i will but thanks
and okay

L.S.Trendom 03-21-2013 08:49 PM

*has to get off the computer and go to bed in an hour and ten minutes*
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 442589)
i dont know if i will but thanks
and okay

you will.

Lily09 03-21-2013 08:54 PM

what why so early?

i really dont fucking know

Arin 03-21-2013 08:56 PM

;-; NO....LST NO......
Probs gonna cry too
You are one of the best fucking authors I know. Get that it your noggin. You. Are. Damn. Good. At. Writing. Don't desert us.

Lily09 03-21-2013 09:00 PM

i don't think you've hurt me, it's not your fault. you're not in control of this. and i'll try to stay alive in hopes that you'll carry out the plan and meet me somehow.
i just... i dunno. i'm upset but i'm not upset at you because i could never be upset at you.

Lily09 03-21-2013 09:03 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 442596)
i don't think you've hurt me, it's not your fault. you're not in control of this. and i'll try to stay alive in hopes that you'll carry out the plan and meet me somehow.
i just... i dunno. i'm upset but i'm not upset at you because i could never be upset at you.

but just before you give up your phone or before they cut off your plan or something, text me something that lets me know you can't text anymore. i don't want to be left wondering where you went.

AlgebraAddict 03-21-2013 09:04 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 442575)
so.
i hurt the people i cared about most.
and possibly destroyed my life in the process.
if i'm not on kidpub or tumblr, my mom may have taken away my internet and/or phone.
[size=1]i haven't eaten since the day before yesterday. i've cut. i honestly have no idea what i'd do without being able to talk to you guys. but large amounts of self-hate i can't ignore + knowing i've hurt people a lot + having no one to talk to + hopelessness = pretty much the perfect thing to end up making me suicidal.. i'm so tired of fucking up everything
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wcEcmtXmXNU


If you, of all people, can fuck something up, that something must have been pretty messed up to begin with. People/Society/The Human Race can suck, it's true. But don't let anything mess you up.

By the way, you should start playing an instrument/singing. It really helps take mind off stuff.

Arin 03-21-2013 09:05 PM

:( LST...No. :(((

L.S.Trendom 03-21-2013 09:30 PM

my mom is so fucking ignorant and blind
she said, "I'm worried you might get depressed and do something stupid."
(like five minutes after I cut, about half an hour after i was muttering stuff like, "i fucking hate you why don't you die like you fucking deserve")
and do you know what she told me?
she told me she doesn't ignore my ideas, even as she was doing it (unfortunately she rejected the idea of sending me to like canada or somewhere else the hell away from here, like everything else)
and she told me i need to have contact with the people important to me
my family
YOU'RE NOT FUCKING IMPORTANT TO ME YOU'RE NOT MY FUCKING FAMILY
you've done nothing at fucking all to help me
and you know what? you have no fucking right at all to think you're more important to me than people i've never met face to face
my mom also basically asked if i'm considering suicide


Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 442598)
If you, of all people, can fuck something up, that something must have been pretty messed up to begin with. People/Society/The Human Race can suck, it's true. But don't let anything mess you up.

By the way, you should start playing an instrument/singing. It really helps take mind off stuff.

my life definitely was. everything i cared about built on a foundation of lies to keep it away from my family, and now it's crumbling down.
and i'm sure the friendship had to be messed up at every point, because i was part of it.

*has no musical talent*
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 442596)
i don't think you've hurt me, it's not your fault. you're not in control of this. and i'll try to stay alive in hopes that you'll carry out the plan and meet me somehow.
i just... i dunno. i'm upset but i'm not upset at you because i could never be upset at you.

*hugs*
I'll definitely keep texting you. I should be able to borrow a friend's phone at least for a bit, each school day…
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 442597)
but just before you give up your phone or before they cut off your plan or something, text me something that lets me know you can't text anymore. i don't want to be left wondering where you went.

I'll try. Or I'll borrow a friend's phone. But, like I said, I'll try my best to keep texting you.

Lily09 03-21-2013 09:34 PM

*hugs* *shall draw a butterfly for you* okay, thanks. I hope things get better for you, Isaackle. And please don't ever give up.

Arin 03-21-2013 09:34 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 442604)
my mom is so fucking ignorant and blind
she said, "I'm worried you might get depressed and do something stupid."
(like five minutes after I cut, about half an hour after i was muttering stuff like, "i fucking hate you why don't you die like you fucking deserve")
and do you know what she told me?
she told me she doesn't ignore my ideas, even as she was doing it (unfortunately she rejected the idea of sending me to like canada or somewhere else the hell away from here, like everything else)
and she told me i need to have contact with the people important to me
my family
YOU'RE NOT FUCKING IMPORTANT TO ME YOU'RE NOT MY FUCKING FAMILY
you've done nothing at fucking all to help me
and you know what? you have no fucking right at all to think you're more important to me than people i've never met face to face
my mom also basically asked if i'm considering suicide



my life definitely was. everything i cared about built on a foundation of lies to keep it away from my family, and now it's crumbling down.
and i'm sure the friendship had to be messed up at every point, because i was part of it.

*has no musical talent*

*hugs*
I'll definitely keep texting you. I should be able to borrow a friend's phone at least for a bit, each school day…

I'll try. Or I'll borrow a friend's phone. But, like I said, I'll try my best to keep texting you.

LST, you are too awesome to have to go through this. You don't fucking deserve this...

MaryElizabeth 03-21-2013 09:42 PM

He knows how to smirk and make money to raise a roof above our heads, but not raise us.

MaryElizabeth 03-21-2013 09:44 PM

Something always has to fuck it up when I might have a chance at getting better.

nngo 03-21-2013 09:46 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 442604)
my mom is so fucking ignorant and blind
she said, "I'm worried you might get depressed and do something stupid."
(like five minutes after I cut, about half an hour after i was muttering stuff like, "i fucking hate you why don't you die like you fucking deserve")
and do you know what she told me?
she told me she doesn't ignore my ideas, even as she was doing it (unfortunately she rejected the idea of sending me to like canada or somewhere else the hell away from here, like everything else)
and she told me i need to have contact with the people important to me
my family
YOU'RE NOT FUCKING IMPORTANT TO ME YOU'RE NOT MY FUCKING FAMILY
you've done nothing at fucking all to help me
and you know what? you have no fucking right at all to think you're more important to me than people i've never met face to face
my mom also basically asked if i'm considering suicide



my life definitely was. everything i cared about built on a foundation of lies to keep it away from my family, and now it's crumbling down.
and i'm sure the friendship had to be messed up at every point, because i was part of it.

*has no musical talent*

*hugs*
I'll definitely keep texting you. I should be able to borrow a friend's phone at least for a bit, each school day…

I'll try. Or I'll borrow a friend's phone. But, like I said, I'll try my best to keep texting you.

Maybe you should try a therapist, somehow? Or even tell your parents. I'm not sure if they would understand, but then they could send you to a therapist/find someone to help you, maybe? Just a suggestion, which I'm not sure will work, but could.

SilverMoon 03-21-2013 09:52 PM

I'm not happy. I'm not innocent. And I'm certainly not a good person.
I'm a lie.

My closest friends, do they even know me? Maybe, but I doubt it. Does my family know me? Not likely. Does KP know me? No clue.

Damn it, I can't open up like this. I'm shit at expressing myself.

AlgebraAddict 03-21-2013 10:43 PM

Today was one of those whut the hell days.


I spent five hours on the piano.

I did no homework.

I ate about five nerd ropes.


Yeah.

Arin 03-21-2013 10:45 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 442627)
Today was one of those whut the hell days.


I spent five hours on the piano.

I did no homework.

I ate about five nerd ropes.


Yeah.

>_< I feel sorry that you have to spend six freaking hours a day on piano.

AlgebraAddict 03-21-2013 10:48 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Arin (Post 442629)
>_< I feel sorry that you have to spend six freaking hours a day on piano.

Only on the weekends. I've been mantaining three to four hours on weekdays, but I have study hall tomorrow so I decided to do no homework and get another hour in. I could never do six hours a day on a regular basis. O_O

EmmaR 03-21-2013 10:53 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 442634)
Only on the weekends. I've been mantaining three to four hours on weekdays, but I have study hall tomorrow so I decided to do no homework and get another hour in. I could never do six hours a day on a regular basis. O_O

How...
I don't even have 6 hours of free time a day. Like, seriously. The earliest I get home on a weekday is 5:00. I don't even have 4 hours, or 3, or 2, and I could maybe, MAYBE squeeze in 1 on Mondays, Thursdays, and Fridays. MAYBE.

BearWithAStrawberry 03-21-2013 10:56 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 442528)
BWAS, what? Yeah. We do have our own crap to deal with but that doesn't mean that we don't help others or tell others theirs is less important. That's the vibe I'm getting from your message.

I didn't mean it that way.
I was just saying /well trying to get through/ that we can't all be on the EVT 24/7 and that we all have our own lives.

I really didn't mean to be harsh.
Um , yeah.
I'm sorry, Confuzzled

EmmaR 03-21-2013 10:57 PM

I'M SORRY BUT THIS IS AN EMOTIONAL VENTING THREAD SO I'M GOING TO EMOTIONALLY VENT.
I HAVE AXEL F STUCK IN MY HEAD AND I CAN'T GET IT OUT. I CAN'T. GET. IT. OUT. IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE.

That is all. I don't have very many problems so this is the extent of my emotional depth.

Lily09 03-21-2013 11:13 PM

BearWithAStrawberry
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 442531)
I've seen two comments about 'age nine? how can you be sad?' and that's enough to make me need to comment about this.
I was bullied at age 8 and beaten by my dad since I was about fourish.
Tell me again how younger kids can't hate their lives or be depressed.
Not only that, guess what? Depression can sometimes run through the family. And sometimes, kids /can/ get depressed since age nine or younger.
Did you know, that problems can run through at any fucking age? and it's extremely insulting to say, "Oh you're age ___, how can you be sad?" because well fuck off, you don't know anything about their lives.

also...........

BearWithAStrawberry 03-21-2013 11:30 PM

cant one state their opinion without being bashed?
no.
no they cant.

well, at least for me.

please dont just whip out at power-level-100 at me.
i was merely saying that, because it sounded like it wasnt right for someone so young.

besides, your case, that is extreme.
a happy, healthy, young girl should not be feeling so.

please respect my opinion.

im saying please because i was taught to be considerate.

Read_Write 03-21-2013 11:36 PM

Blergh bleh sfjqioevhoegr
 
It's one of my moods again.

Grr... I just... like... MY SIS IS SO ANNOYING! >:(
Then my dad yells at me because we fought, I get into a bad mood, I sass everybody, and I just can't get out of it. I just want to, like, punch something. aefkjojaioerbvhiq;POFHVOAEFJ IT WOULD FEEL SO GOOD RIGHT NOW!!! loafjoevhpajfhaogf;aewprgv
Why can't I just accept C*****? SHE IS MY FREAKING SISTER! I just... argh.
afiojoeirghero
There. I think I'm done. But I still feel afjklsfk0ofkjieogvi. >:( (x 10,000,000)

Lily09 03-21-2013 11:45 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by BearWithAStrawberry (Post 442660)
cant one state their opinion without being bashed?
no.
no they cant.

well, at least for me.

please dont just whip out at power-level-100 at me.
i was merely saying that, because it sounded like it wasnt right for someone so young.

besides, your case, that is extreme.
a happy, healthy, young girl should not be feeling so.

please respect my opinion.

im saying please because i was taught to be considerate.

Sorry for my outburst. I've taken a shower now, and I'm a bit calmer... Sorry, really. Genuinely sorry.

BearWithAStrawberry 03-21-2013 11:47 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 442662)
Sorry for my outburst. I've taken a shower now, and I'm a bit calmer... Sorry, really. Genuinely sorry.

so am i.

its in my grades /thinking before i speak/
and yeah.

but really, i thought cammy was very happy?

/ignorethat/

Lily09 03-21-2013 11:49 PM

Meh, when its online, it's usually hard to tell about their lives. *shrugs*

Lily09 03-21-2013 11:53 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 442604)
my mom is so fucking ignorant and blind
she said, "I'm worried you might get depressed and do something stupid."
(like five minutes after I cut, about half an hour after i was muttering stuff like, "i fucking hate you why don't you die like you fucking deserve")
and do you know what she told me?
she told me she doesn't ignore my ideas, even as she was doing it (unfortunately she rejected the idea of sending me to like canada or somewhere else the hell away from here, like everything else)
and she told me i need to have contact with the people important to me
my family
YOU'RE NOT FUCKING IMPORTANT TO ME YOU'RE NOT MY FUCKING FAMILY
you've done nothing at fucking all to help me
and you know what? you have no fucking right at all to think you're more important to me than people i've never met face to face
my mom also basically asked if i'm considering suicide


my life definitely was. everything i cared about built on a foundation of lies to keep it away from my family, and now it's crumbling down.
and i'm sure the friendship had to be messed up at every point, because i was part of it.

*has no musical talent*

*hugs*
I'll definitely keep texting you. I should be able to borrow a friend's phone at least for a bit, each school day…

I'll try. Or I'll borrow a friend's phone. But, like I said, I'll try my best to keep texting you.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 442607)
*hugs* *shall draw a butterfly for you* okay, thanks. I hope things get better for you, Isaackle. And please don't ever give up.

http://www.kidpub.com/forum3/picture...pictureid=5957
I hope you don't mind, I drew this instead...pie with angel wings


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