No.
They didn't.

I look at the replies they got, and I can't help but feel sorry for them.

There are some sarcastic goodbyes. -_-

Why would they even break up? ;___;

Well them people can just.... I don't know... disappear? ;--;

Their songs......they were not JUST a band. They are the most significant band I can think of. They are not just a band, but an inspiration and life-saver as well.

I think everyone here needs some comfort. :D

http://www.kidpub.com/story/chorus-p...y09-2228136213

*sniffs* No one cares....except some people on here, like you.

Edit: Omigosh I just realized what I was saying and I did NOT mean it that way. I meant to say that no one cares about me, except for people like you. Thanks. *huggles*

and after all i have been told
i still cant help but feel like
i am still scared
and i still blame myself

You shouldn't blame yourself, Lily. Like she said, it's no-one's fault and she's never going to replace you.

Over the past couple weeks, I've been really depressed, and it only gets worse. I feel like I'm about to explode with rage if I don't find out how to stop it. I have one idea, which I have been seriously considering.

I barely manage to drag myself through school. I never talk to anyone anymore. I can't grasp what the point of my life is.

Ending my life appeals to me. All stress, all pain, gone. I won't have to be embarrassed ever again. People have it worse, I tell myself. You're fine. I want to be fine, but the self-hate strengthens with every day. I want this over, one way or another.

Please take a day off school and sit outside and marvel at the world around you. If you don't think your life has a point, live to find out what it is, if there is one at all. You'll never know if there is a point to life to vice versa if you're dead, with all the people who love you crowded around your coffin. You might want to speak to a suicide hotline, or talk to someone you trust/or a professional. They say it gets better, and I really think it does. It doesn't make sense for it (your life) not to.

Dude. What the heck... you shouldn't be embarrassed. You are the best and I am actually jealous of you and your writing and your life. Find your best way to express yourself and try to get the pain out. I feel terrible for you. I don't want you to overcome these actions and think about what you do... You are an amazing person. I don't want you to be this way or this event occurring—DON'T BE THIS WAY I KNOW YOU ARE AMAZING—you are awesome. I just don't want you to go through pain.

I don't think it only gets worse. I'm sure there were a few better moments. Maybe not what you'd call good—maybe just moments where you were a bit more removed from the depression, but… still.

If you aren't doing well in school, that's fine. If you are doing well, that's fine too. What matters is surviving.
And the point of your life is to be awesome duh which you manage quite well.

You really, really shouldn't… no amount of embarrassment is worth ending your life over, ever, no matter what, and the pain and stress will pass eventually.
*hugs*

Thank you so much. I'll try.
I'm just not sure who to trust, or how they'll react, or if they will even care.

Thanks. You're awesome too, and a great friend.

Thank you.
I'm so tired of it, and so far, I haven't had any better moments. Every day is just a blur. I can't grasp anything memorable or important.

I'm not a great friend... take a day off school. You need it.

You are.
I think I will. I need to attempt to clear my head. Thank you.

No. I am not.
yes, you will... and you will enjoy

Dad: So...how do you think you played today?
Me: Horribly.
Dad: How so?
Me: I got....tired easily.
Dad: Yeah, you really need to work on your stamina.
Me: Ok.
Dad: How many times do I have to tell you...
Me: Wut.
Dad: I'm always telling you to improve and practice at home, but you always procrastinate and are on the computer all day and doing yoyo. You need to get your priorities straight. You can improve your stamina by running on the eliptical.
Me: -_- *Has heard this speech countless times.*
Dad: Do you want to quit soccer?
Me: No! Of course not.
Dad: You think you play horribly, then don't practice at home at all, then go back and play another game a week later, and say you played horribly again. How do you expect to get better if you don't even practice at all at home?
Me: *Thinks about the amount of hours I spent on Kidpub and YouTube*
Dad: What did you do that was productive today?
Me:......I played piano. And wrote the Gospel of Luke on paper, for my Lent project.
Dad: Anything else???
Me: No.
Dad: How long did that take?
Me: Two hours.
Dad: You didn't go anywhere today, right?
Me: Yeah. *Sees where conversation is heading.*
Dad: Then what the heck did you spend all the other hours on?
Me: I was screwing around.
Dad:.................*sighs* You had a four day weekend. Did you practice soccer at ALL?
Me: No.
Dad: Did you do anything this weekend that was productive besides your scripture writing and piano?
Me: My SAT workbook.
Dad: You don't have much time! During weekdays, you're really busy. When you have time, during weekends, you have to make the most of your spare time and dedicate it to worthwhile things! If you want to join a yoyo team, fine, join it!
Me:*Thinks KP is worthwhile* *Feels guilty about not doing anything that useful the entire weekend* *hates sarcasm hinted when yoyo team discussed.*

It's like this: I don't do anything productive, my father lectures me about it, and I know it's for my own good. I agree to do something about it, and then I forget about it and DON'T do anything about it. The next week, I get the same lecture, and this cycle repeats for months. And I still don't do anything about it, and I forget about doing 'productive' things, and my father just gets angrier, and angrier, and angrier. This is why I hate myself. I'm stupid. I can't remember things; I'm stupid. I can't believe I go to a school for the gifted. They put me in the wrong place.

MCR was the first band that got me interested in music at all. It was my favorite before I even knew any other bands. I listened to them when I needed to block out bad thoughts and sounds of shouting. And now they're gone.

At least their music is still here, but they won't be that inspirational now that they're gone.

Of course they will still be inspirational. They made it so far, from nothing. Gerard went from abusing drugs as a teenager to a dozen years of saving kids who were like him. "You only live forever in the lights you make", right?

I guess you're right...

hello
 

._.
 

Things I can't watch anymore:

Action movies, (too much anger, boring storylines)
Historical Fiction movies, (good acting, amazing sets and costumes, interesting storylines, but WAY TOO DEPRESSING)
Foreign Dramas, (way too emotional, often too depressing)
Romance/Drama movies, (either: ugh I feel so alone, or: oh my gosh are you people insane that would never happen in real life)
Dramadies aka Drama-Comedies, (see Romance/Drama movies and Comedy movies)
Comedy movies, (all the characters are either imbeciles or jerks, and most of the movies are totally unrealistic)
Comedy shows, (good grief, the characters are all jerks to each other just to make the audience laugh)
Detective shows, (too depressing, too easy to figure out in the end)
Doctor shows, (darn it, I don't want to watch a ten year old kid die of cancer)
Anything that's based on a true story, (oh gosh please don't tell me anyone was really THAT stupid/greedy/uncaring what is wrong with humanity please someone help me)
Anything with a heroic pet in it, (DARN IT, stop killing the dog off!!!!)
Anything "inspirational", (that means "let's-make-the-main-character-totally-miserable")
Anything with cursing, (self-explanatory)
Anything with gore, (self-explanatory)
Anything that's about family, (there's SO MUCH wrong with this that I could write a ten page essay on it)
aaaaaaand
Anything from the black-and-white days (I'm sorry, Andy Griffith and Dick van Dyke, I loved your shows, but now I can't take the sickly sweet happiness)

:^/

This really only leaves me with Doctor Who, Star Trek stuff, Fringe (ACK DON'T YOU DARE GET CANCELED NOOOOO), Shirokuma Cafe, and also maybe a couple musicals and old cartoon movies and shows I've already seen a million times.


._. As you can see, I'm officially a total downer when it comes to movie night.

Why can't you watch them sort of stuff? D:

Because of the stuff written in the parenthesis. ._. I'm too gosh darn emotional and sensitive, nowadays, that I can't handle hardly anything on TV or at the movies. I feel like I've been...emotionally sunburned or something.

No you're not. <:|

It is not your fault...

Ugh, I can't think of any advice to give you. DX Sorry. D:

Max! Hi!
It isn't about that.... it's other things....

Well I think I am. :/

I cannot be myself anymore...


...why?



I am not leaving KP. I was over-reacting.





You are so stupid, self.

So you are staying then? X3
Thank you, Max!!!! :3
I feel a bit more happy now. ^.^

This song is supposed to be about young love being serious and not infatuation. I listened to it for the first time in I don't know how long, and my brain totally warped the meaning. These lyrics were the only ones my brain could focus on, and, when put all together without the other parts of the song, it comes out...like this...

Oh, I guess they'll never know
How a young heart really feels...
Tell them all, please tell them it isn't fair
To take away my only dream.
I cry each night, my tears for you,
My tears are all in vain.
I'll hope, and I'll pray, that maybe someday
You'll be back in my arms once again.
Someone help me, help me, help me please!
Is the answer up above?
How can I, oh how can I tell them...?
Someone help me, help me please!
Is the answer up above?
How can I, oh how can I tell them...?

._. What, now I can't listen to 70s music, either? *headdesks* What. Is. Wrong. With. Me. Lately?

It's okay, I wasn't wanting advice, I just felt like I needed to get that out of my system. :P

Yay for not leaving KP! :D

...O_O And you're not stupid, Max.

How are you?
insulted blank out of mind disgusting
Fine.

I am stupid. jdigkzjdjcjdjdjxj not cool not happy I am an idiot.

x_x I know exactly how that feels.
"How are you?"
horrible, depressed, tired, hungry, angry at self...
"Fine."