The Way I Feel- ***** ***
 

He... can always... could always... make me smile, even on my worst days. I don't know what it is about him... but he just seems to understand. Even when he's not trying to... he always made me feel better. And now... he's gone.

We knew we'd been rowing our boat towards a waterfall. We knew we were doomed. We knew it couldn't last. And there was nothing we could do about it... Life would go on, the Time would come... and tear us apart. We (at least tried to) enjoy our time while we could.

But now, he's gone, and while I have other friends, he was the one that could, no matter what, keep me on my feet. Without him... I'm going deeper and deeper. There's no one to make me feel better... my internal wars wage, and without him to balance me, it's just getting worse and worse. I'm afraid of what's in my head, afraid of it starting to drown me and him not being there to save me.

And on top of that... there's an emotion towards him burning inside me that I don't even recognize. I can't identify it... I don't know if I've ever felt this before. It's difficult to describe... it's like... this fierce, passionate flame of... I dunno... he's just... do any of you get what I'm saying/trying to say? Do you know what this is?

(By the way, this is the short version)

:| These kinds of things really suck.

They do.

none of my friends (that I see every day) realize how much it sucks for me right now. Except ***** *******. Thank the universe HE understands.

On a (sort of) different note, I'm listening to Confession (What's Inside My Head) right now. :I

Ugh. That sucks. Anyone who believes that sucks.

XD The same thing happened for an RS assignment I had to do on Anne Frank.

What I like to do when I feel really angry is just lie on my bed and punch it and kick it.

Gahhhhhh... please, someone help me... ah...

*is about to start screaming Confession or Fight Inside at the top of my lungs*

I'm fighting it.

I'm trying to get it off me.

Please.

Help... stop... just stop...


don't quote this just a short vent

Maybe play Happy Wheels? and you can rant about it to me if you want.

oH, you already know what it is. :P

That's a good idea. c: And pretend the person is the character.

Mini-rant that doesn't matter because I can't do anything about it...
WHAT THE EFFING HECK! Why do 5... FIVE people get to determine that the gifted program doesn't expand!? What's the good in that? You all are effing hypocrites... seeing that last year, you pledged that you would expand it this year... Those poor 4th grade families... those poor 3 grade families...

Someonegetmeoutofhere

Elaborate. This was vague.

Why would you care?


Why would it matter?


Why would I matter? (nopenopenope don't think that way Ena gahhhhhhhhhhh)


Ugh.


Nopenopenope.

Preach it, sistah.

I do care. A lot.

*virtual hug*
Because you're worth caring about.
And you do matter, a hell of a lot.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2HKZyIDFKk


wow

so my only comfort is in music like this

i am not normal

Ehhhh...
._.

Gah.


Life.


Gah.



So much stress.


I'm so fucking busy and yet I still drag myself onto KP everyday.


I'm going through shitty emotional issues.



Life really, really sucks sometimes.



There are the good parts.


And then there are the parts where you scream that life is a bitch because it sucks so bad.


Ugh.

*cries*
*does water areobics in tears*

stop
pills
now

Two things.

#1: I'm staring at your sig. Never in my entire life have I heard of THAT as a bagel topping. XD

#2: No offense, but there is something seriously wrong with your reasoning, AA. <:^J "Music like this"? Music is music. I don't care WHAT genre, artist, or quality of the music in question. Music is music. All songs with lyrics have a singer, some sort of instrument(s) backing up the singer, and there is some kind of an intended meaning, message and/or emotion behind the song that its listeners must interpret. There is nothing wrong with you finding solace in music. You are perfectly normal. And contrary to what most people think, it's NOT always a bad thing to be normal.

D: *glomps* *gives a happie* What happened, Tredom?

Oh my God. That is ridiculous. Even with C's violent, people-attacking tendencies?

/hugs
What happened, Lazty?

WOW.
I've found a song for my character.
It's perfectly normal. If you think you're abnormal because you want to do the same or something along those lines, it's not true. Everyone's had the moment when they want to kill somebody.

Nice time to talk about hormones, dad. And at the same time, I needed to concentrate. Quickly.
Should I really start doing a butterfly project?

Yes.
Yes.
Yes.
Yes.
(Yes.)

Okay.
I should really stop venting here. It would make me feel like an attention-seeking brat.
Don't tell me I'm not. I'll be okay if I don't.
.

You're not. :)

TYPING OUT OR TALKING ABOUT YOUR PROBLEMS OR ASKING FOR HELP IS NOT ATTENTION SEEKING.
You should never feel bad about doing these things. If it helps, then vent and rant for all you need.

*hugs* What happened?

She cares. Your mom cares. She loves you Pluzzle, and so do we.

http://www.kidpub.com/book-page-or-c...-name-baby-ddd

^ That. Basically. HELP ME BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE SUCH A FREAKING SLUT.

Yup. I am currently aware of around seven incidents involving C, but she has always managed to worm out of being punished.

Dx What happened?

Your mum loves you and doesn't want you to hurt. Neither do any of us. We all care.
Maybe your mum is a bit busy or need a reminder? You can ask her to get you help.

^ THIS

What kind of incidents? Were the others reported?

You're not a slut. You were placed in disorientating circumstances, and you reacted in a relatively sensible way. You are not to blame.

Thanks :) it's just that... Life is complicated. -___-

There are six definite ones - she threw Propsicles or something (not reported), the strangling was reported, as was going through Lenna's bag and throwing the stuff around the room. Then the whole Brenscombe and Lidita thing... And of course, THAT incident.

It is. *hugs* But don't stress about it too much, or you'll over-complicate the problem.

Oh wow. Well obviously Brenscombe, what with swearing at a teacher and all.
Do you know what happened with the other things?