Thanks!
I hope it continues.

hEY DAD
I CAN HEAR YOU
WOW
SURPRISIEISEIEEEEEEEEE



ihatemyselfihatemyparentsihatemybodyifuckinghatetu mblrandihatemylifeandihatethatimsuchafuckingstereo typicalteen

hate everything else if you want to but not yourself or your body or your mind because you're fabulous and pretty and brilliant and I know it doesn't mean much but I love you and you're so much more than a stereotypical teen.

What even IS writing??!?!?! I don't think I know anymore. >w> I forgot.

*spastically jams on the keyboard in hopes of somehow regaining my writing ability*

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I just really want it to be a weekend but it's only Tuesday.

This is aaaaaallllllll me.

that actually does mean a lot to me. thank you.

What she said. O_O

You're NOT stereotypical AT ALL. You're beautiful inside and out, despite the problems in your life. No one's perfect, but that doesn't mean you should hate yourself! <:^) In fact, you should be proud of yourself for getting this far despite all the stress and all the issues. *hugs* We all care about you. Please don't hate any part of yourself.

pfffft im still stereotypical tho
i mean, 'depressed white girl teen who hates her parents and herself and her life who judges other people by their clothes'-- what part of that doesnt scream stereotype at you?
but thank you. im guess i'm sort of trying to be proud or something closer to it than this but as usual im not making much progress. *hugs back*

someone pls post something else so that this piece of shit isnt here hangin out as the latest post on this thread
i mean i sort of i am doing that but like

You're NOT a stereotypical teen. <:^) You have issues with your parents that go beyond the shallow level of most problems that teens have with their parents. It's hard NOT to judge people by how they look, nowadays. And there are lots of people who don't like themselves, yes, but that does NOT make you stereotypical. (*hugs again*) The fact that you're aware of the stereotype gives you the means to go against it, and helps to prove that you don't follow it. You're unique and strong and beautiful, despite what you may think. You SHOULD be proud of yourself. \o/ I understand that's hard, but, it's possible to build up your self-esteem, and it sounds like you really need to, also. You'll get there one day...just, don't be so hard on yourself, okay? <:^3

yo dude whether you're stereotypical or not you're still awesome as fuck and i still love you and you're still fab sooooo
and you're so much more than that stereotype.
*sorta has something else to say but can't brain enough right now to say it properly*

YOU GUYS PLEASE comment on the sixth chapter of The Darkling Weak






I am so freaking shameless. :D

Any of you guys hear what's going on in Pennsylvania?
This is my sister's take on it:
Not complaining or anything but I am incredibly done with this day.
So this dude was driving a big truck and the police pull him over got inspection, the dude, for some reason, pulls over, hands them his license, they run it through the computer thingy in the police car and they figure out that this bitch is wanted in like four states. So the police call for backup, one of them "mounts the truck" to talk to the dude and what does he do? This bitch drives away WITH THE COP ON THE TRUCK. So there's this entire friggin chase along a road, the cop's still hanging on the truck, the cops behind them are trying to shoot at the tires, and they figure out that this dreadlocked little bitch ass hoe is armed. Eventually, as I heard, the dude crashes, gets out of the truck, AND BOLTS INTO THE WOODS. People are saying that he's been running for like 4 miles and they still haven't caught the dude.
So our whole school district was in lock down all day. Not like hiding in corners but all the doors were locked and they had to walk us every where.
**AND BY THE WAY THERE'S PICTURES TAKEN OF THE POLICE IN FRONT OF MY GRANDPARENTS HOUSE LIKE WHAT THEY'RE FINE THOUGH**

Well that was beautiful.
MY SISTER LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!

but it's really difficult to NOT be hard on myself.
thank you, though. i appreciate that you care.
thank you honey i love you too
*thats ok*
wait wait w h a t

Yeah this happened today in the town I live in.
They still haven't caught him.
Fun fun fun.

something really similar happened last year...
i was freaking out during the whole lockdown and clinging onto my best friend's arm and she was like "its okay you poor little meerkat theres nothing to be scared of! *pats my head*"
i was such a cute little seventh grader...

My school had a lock down once .-. It lasted all day. There was a guy outside with a gun.
Of course, it was one of those realistic looking airsoft guns with the orange tip taken off so it looked real.
Or maybe that's just what our teachers told us since we were really young.....

ahhahaha and now im crying
bc i cant watch my stupid fucking tv show bc i didnt do my stupid fuckign essay for latin and my mom will murder me
and ive just
given up

hey honey

grades don't matter

what your mom thinks doesn't matter

and it's okay

just do what you can

and don't push yourself

and it's okay to give up on stupid things

but not life

and not you

thank you sweetheart
i really dont deserve that

because hey guess what
i blew off the essay in favor of watching glee
and now im gonna do it tomorrow morning
and during my lunch period at school
and ill have no sources
and no nothing to help me
im really fuckin dumb
now off to pretend like im printing something and then finally i get to go to bed

lmao i can already see it all my grades are dropping slowly but steadily my report cards will get lower and lower and eventually my parents will confront me and i will have nowhere to go nowhere to run nowhere to hide and no more excuses to make and will be confronted by myself with what a shitty person i am

oh my fug nanowrimos already

i haven't written in over three months i am ashamed

*whispers* if youre such a shitty person then why do i think you're so great and why do i love you so much
*hugs* school sucks

Whelp.
I was just talking to my counselor today about how I haven't really been "feeling the heat" for volleyball tryouts and then BAM THERE IT IS. RIGHT HERE. I feel like I'm going to vomit and cry at the same time.

But you're not a shitty person

And i know it doesn't feel like it

but no one gives a shit about grades

i mean

they're numbers and letters that you get in high school when you write down crap on paper

I felt the same way at the beginning of the month. xD

idk man love is weird thoughts are weird
*hugs back* indeed it does
but my parents give a shit about grades very much
and i want my grades to be good for them
so that theyre not mad at me
bc theres nothing worse than people being mad at me
so

yes there is something worse than people being mad at you

you being mad at you

just don't let that ever happen



oh my god I'm so sorry *hugs* yes people are bitchy and sexist to everyone who doesn't conform. but if you don't, that doesn't mean that you are a waste of space. in your case it means you're freaking awesome. but as I know, when you're awesome, people will give you crap because they're afraid of you and how much you can accomplish. Don't take it personally.

So this isn't that big of a deal but I'm pissed about it so here is an unnecessarily long chunk of text.
My aunt, uncle and two cousins are coming over on Thanksgiving to eat with us. I love them, but to be honest, I don't want them here on Thanksgiving.
First of all, I'm mad at my mom about it. She didn't even ask us if it was okay! I didn't even know about it until like 2 weeks after she said yes. She knows I'm pissed about it but is pretending like I'm not because there's nothing she can do about it now.
One of their sons that's coming is adopted and he doesn't even live with them anymore. He's been a lot of fun to hang out with in the past but he's gotten worse. I don't want to dive in to it too much, but the point is that we're not allowed to be alone with him because, honestly, he's dangerous. Before they moved him to foster care, he tried to choke his brother and was a huge threat to my aunt. I just don't want to have to be scared on Thanksgiving.
My other cousin that's coming over, is a 7 year old boy. Not that long ago he came over to our house and slept over (he started crying in the middle of the night though), and he was hanging all over me and running all over the house to play in different places. I just know, that I'm going to sit down to eat, he's going to eat two bites and say he's done and then he's going to spend the rest of the time bugging me to play with him. I barely get to see my aunt and uncle when they come over because he always makes me come with him. I just want to be part of the dinner conversation for once when they come over.
If they want to come over on Christmas or New Years, that's where I tear it. I know this sounds terrible, but I love them all a lot. The holidays are just times where I want to be alone with my family. The thing is, is that they're on my dad's side of the family and they are the only one's from that side that we keep in touch with, and that only just started about a year ago. We weren't in touch with any of them for a long time. It's great that we're close now, but they don't know me. We are really, really close to my mom's family and I love them so much. We spend all the holiday's together. They include me in their conversations at dinner because they know me, and the know I'm not typical for an 11 year old.
If you've read up until this point, then bless you. I'm sorry you had to go through that.

i'll try but things happen
im sorry

I don't know where to write this.

I'm so confused. How do I write a scene with zombies in it?

that was nice to read thank you
i guess im just sick of people not accepting me for who i am and giving me shit about my various problems ugh

haha they obviously have serious problems if they aren't accepting of you

AHA yup awkward family moments. Just relax. It's the holidays and you can pretty much do whatever the hell you want and hang out with adults. No one's going to blame you for not wanting to spend time with annoying children.

I know I just feel bad saying no to the kid.
He's annoying as hell but he's a cute 7 year old.

*uses a whole bunch of sarcasm when friend asks if im depressed when he asked if i was being sarcastic when I said no and layers it on so that my answer is completely sarcastic and im not really lying*

Motivation? I don't have any. Actually, I'm pretty depressed.



...yup, pretty much

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