You did!!! I saw your KP home post and I thought omg. So glad you made up.

well yup my mom woke me up by yelling about the scars???stretch marks??? on my back. 1) I have no fucking idea where these are from.
2) even if they were scars this is not something you yell at your child for
I hate everything and I want to go back to school right now

don't you just love???? when therapy was actually ok???? and then your dad decides to make you sit in the car for 40 minutes while he talks about how hard it is for him to have a child who doesn't fucking like to be touched???? and then he talks about how you should never have to hide anything but should be ok with being deeply uncomfortable and unhappy for the sake of your parents feelings???? and the big thing is I'm perfectly fine with being touched at least half of the time! like yeah I don't like it but its ok and then when I don't want to be touched and they yell and get angry and want to drug me up so that I do then I'm the one who has to convince them that I love them
also my therapist told me that maybe I should cut off all contact with my parents when I turn eighteen so therapy is not going the way they thought it would.

its my birthday and I'm spending the day with my extended family (I love some of them but together its bad) my brother, and his racist and homophobic friends. also if I don't find a friend to have a sleepover with tomorrow night ill have to spend the day in our tiny apartment w/ my brother and even more of his racist, sexist, and homophobic friends.

too bad you live far away from me or I would literally nvite u to my house

I'm not gonna tell you it's not gonna suck because I don't know that but it'll be over soon

lol I'm bad at comfort

i sometimes don't know what happened irl vs in dreams lmao

(also fucuk homeworkk I hate myself)

thanks so much haha I wish I lived closer
but good thing is I can go to a friend's house tomorrow night so that's a relief
but I still have to spend the day w/ brother and his friends

Enaaaaaaa ;_;

hi this is your daily reminder that it is completely okay to not want to be touched and your parents are jerks (if you don't mind me saying so) if they expect you to commit wordlessly to being deeply uncomfortable for their sakes.

also HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! (late?) I hope your bday doesn't suck super bad, but in case it does is there anything I could do to make it suck less?

that was like a billion days ago re get with the times lmao