he's not gonna take a fuckin hint with this either
i mean come fucking on man every time you're like "i feel fat lol" or "i skipped a meal lol" i stop replying
isn't that pretty fuckin obvious
im sorry but i can't fuckin handle this you're so triggering

i'm so sorry i don't have the right words for this
but you don't deserve any of this. ever. you deserve to have amazing friends that are there for you, to have someone who cares.
you are so talented. art, singing, writing, being someone who can make anyone smile and such a beautiful person.
all i can say is that you don't deserve any of the shit in your life and ily ok

@Calla
dude I'm really sorry for him and all the ppl in his life including you that is really rough
I will pray for him and keep him in my thoughts. best wishes to you and everyone affected

I'm sorry v.v Some people just can't see past their own problems and that just sucks for everyone around them :c but stay strong >.< you should try and tell them about everything and see if they'd stop talking about it if you can. If you can't just please come on here and talk to us when you need too :c

I'm really beginning to hate Kidpub now. -_-

Call me a party pooper, but this wedding shit is just stupid now. It really is. Just. Stop. It's excessive and annoying.

And also half of you guys are ignorant little newbies who don't know how to avoid triggering or immature topics

It might seem like I enjoy it, but I'm starting to get annoyed as well.
Seriously, shipping isn't the whole meaning of life. And most of us (including me) are still in middle school. It doesn't actually mean anything.

(*hugs*) thank you, dearie. really. it means a lot
maybe it is excessive and maybe it is annoying but you can't expect everyone to be a grown up right away
kidpub/the internet in general has a way of getting to people and aging them up pretty quickly, but let them enjoy childhood as long as they can
and if you don't like something, why don't you walk away from it? if people here are annoying you, there is absolutely nothing stopping you from shutting off the computer and doing something else, because complaining about it is just going to make you seem immature as well.
it may not mean anything, but as long as people are having fun, let them enjoy it. like i said before, if you don't like something here, nothing at all is tying you.

from what i've observed in general, people on KP want to teach "newbies" how to act and who to become and it makes me really sad, guys. these kids came to write and to make friends, not to be targeted by people who think they're better than them because they act more maturely. i, personally, feel like a fish out of water around most new members, so i get it, but there's no need to be judgmental.

i'm sorry if any of that came off as offensive, but i see a lot of this irl and i'm sick of being too shy to say anything about it. if you want to complain, do it in a place where people you're complaining about can't see, because it hurts to be talked about publicly. if you're frustrated with something here, take a break, because your personal feelings are not anyone's fault.

i love sam so much
and i'm so fuckin afraid that we'll fall apart too, it'll go the way of my other friendships
and i don't know if i could handle that
she said she'd be my anchor but…i don't know. promises are a broken so often like fuck how can i be sure of anything

and people say you always have your family but
i don't get the fuckin obligation to love your family. i care about them, but i don't feel any love for them. there's no emotional connection between us. and they might think they love me (my parents, at least, i dont even know if my brothers are capable of caring oh my god) but they don't know me.
so if i lose all my friends, i have nothing. i have no family to fall back on. i have no one.

hell tbh i'm probably gonna die alone and i'm so fucking afraid of that

and also p sure i still hate the fUCK out of myself.
just it's a shitton easier to not think about it with antidepressants

idk it was kinda a really bad night and i wanted to cut and i just wanted to start crying??
but then i drove around with sam and she made me feel a shitton better but
idk

It's just frustrating because Kidpub has been a really great supportive community in the past and now idk

hey
(*hugs*)
you always have someone, whether that be sam or your parents or your other friends, or, hell, even me. you have people that care, and i'm sure that you always will.
i can't make a guarantee that everything will work out with sam or your other friends, but i can say that if they walks out of your life, chances are they weren't meant to be there. and i don't think that's the case, from what i've heard. it's hard and sometimes we get hurt, but if someone says they're going to be there for you, you have to do your best to trust them.
and about your family, i'm sorry. but love isn't formed by blood, it's formed by connections between people. and if you ever really need it, i'm sure someone in your family would care enough to form those connections. and if not, screw them.

it is. i agree. but acting out and making snide comments isn't going to help. if anything, it'll only raise tension and get people hurt. all you can do is try to lead them in the right direction and hope that it works.

tbh i agree with you this wedding stuff is like okaaay wat

i agree 100 you aren't alone ( i mean i kind of am an ignorant newbie... it's been two years )

I can really see what you mean. It was fun and all, but now they're making random wedding threads. And then they talk about shipping on every thread they get on. I was thinking like, "Can't we talk about other things?"
You're just going to have to ignore them and talk to the people you know and are friends with. But I can understand what you're saying.

Oh my gosh, what happened?! D: Talk to me, buddy!! (*glomps*) Hopefully you'll feel better in the morning. But, seriously, what's wrong? O_O

Indeed. Although I do ship, I do not involve weddings, and it is either
A) to tease people or
B) not actually about people that exist in real life
But A is only with people not over the Internet
I don't even ship Lyori that was just for equivalent exchange

I kind of have to...half... agree with you.
I always kind of thought the whole shipping two KPers was kind of cute, and the thing about weddings is that if you want nothing to do with them, don't have anything to do with them. It's your choice whether or not you want to click on a thread and read or take part in it.
I do agree with Lena in that you can't tell people to grow up and expect them to change, but I also agree with you. If they're triggering some of you guys, it really needs to stop. ...I hope I'm not someone you're talking about that does that... if I am, please tell me. I will do my best to stop doing it if I am doing it.
I would definitely not say I hate KP, I'm just getting a bit annoyed with it at times.

*hugs* thanks. just… idk i'm really scared of that. (mreh and it's especially possible considering i'm gonna travel a lot sooo)
the thing is, tbh, i don't even really want to form those connections. maybe with a few people—like my uncle or my cousin—but fuck i don't even know what family is supposed to be like
i don't even know, last night was just a really really bad emotional relapse.
mreh yeah i'm mostly feeling better now. But I feel like if I start thinking about anything again I'm gonna fall back down that whole.

Hey okay. Remember me?
Anyways, I agree with Lena. I guess I should apologize because I'm the one who kind of started up the whole Salice thing (although the wedding wasn't my idea) but they're just kids trying to have a bit of fun. It's playful, and the people involved think it's fun as well. We're not stepping over the line.

Whoa. Lena, well phrased. Really well phrased.

I know there are a lot of newbies. I thought about leaving KP after a wave of newbies suddenly joined in January too, and like Lena said, I felt like a fish out of the water around them.
But hey I talked to one of my friends about it, and she said if I really love something then I shouldn't give it up. Don't give up on a rose because of its thorns.
Hey kidpub is still a beautiful place like a rose and the newbies or certain topics will seem like thorns to you but you know don't give up on us. Go to the ecc forum, actually. Maybe you'll feel better there. And talk to Rebecca. /nods/

I guess. Let them have their fun. It'll fade in a week or so. The wedding probably won't even happen. c: That's what usually happens in my experience.

I didn't expect them to make a wedding thread. I really didn't. o.o

OH WAIT YOU REMEMBER LYORI AHAHA
so do i actually
and lydia and I ended up shipping Jydia anyways. xD

im actually rly fuckin done with this website

i have everyone's contacts that i need to (except bwas. regret) or tumblrs or whatever

i had fun once, so thanks for that guys

nooo you're so cool and I like just met you
but I respect that everybody grows out of kp so
good luck with everything you do and I really hope everything works out for you and you're happy (*hugs*)
i'll miss you. bye hon c:

Aww...
What's wrong?
Bye, I guess.
I'll really miss you.

what's wrong? We'll miss you, if you do go

(*hugs*) I'm sorry, man. <:^/ I hope that doesn't happen to you again. I'm really really glad you're feeling better, though! <:^3 Just try not to think about stuff like that, okay? Keep your mind occupied. Everything's alright, regardless of how everything seems.

LST if you ever need anyone to vent at and you catch me on Skype, I don't mind lending an ear. I went through similar stuff(and still fighting it at times) so I'm here for you too. I'm sorry I don't talk much on there. I fail miserably at conversations.

I understand all of this, but it was an emotional vent. I don't really care if you do it or not, it just gets on my nerves how much Kidpub has changed *shrugs*. I'm still getting used to it.

On a better (or possibly worse) note, imma teenager as of today so yeah :3

o whoa hold the phone- is it your birthday?
if so, congraaatttssss and happy birthday dear!
aha I think being a teenager is one of the best and worst times of one's life

Dear Grandmother,
Seriously. I'm sick of this. For the millionth time, don't force feed me just because there's leftover food and my darling angel of a sissypoop won't eat it because she's too high and holy. I'm not cattle for you to fatten up and then dissect later or something like that. I'm a person (GASP), and I know when I'm hungry and when I'm not. You claim to know my body better than I do, and you've even said so yourself. But you've never seen through my eyes and listened through my almost-deaf ears, have you? If you did, you'd be appalled at what I have to go through because of you. And is that mushy conglomerate of vegetables, which I call "pig slop" for the stink, your sorry excuse for food? No wonder I hate eating so much, if that's what I've been reared on for fourteen torturous years. Maybe if you fed me something else, and not just as "leftovers," I might enjoy that awful act I call "eating". Also, stop controlling my religion and making me pray each morning. You're denying me one of my most basic freedoms. You may hate it that American schools are teaching us this "nonsense," but I'm entitled to my own life, separate from yours. I hate eating. I hate your food. I hate religion. I hate not being entitled to my rights as an American citizen, no matter how small the infractions. And I know I'm supposed to respect my elders, but I sometimes can't stand you either. No, make that all the time. After a conversation with you, I go from loving the world to hating everything, including myself. And especially you. Basically we can never get along, so just leave me alone and let me enjoy my basic freedoms.
Yours truly,
the most disrespectful, annoying, and contemptuous granddaughter in the world.

I'm such a loner X3 it's embarassing sometimes. I get bullied for it but you know what, it's worth it. Sort of. I don't know. It's better to be alone than around people. I don't know how not to be a loner but i'm at at the point of time where it's necessary. It's physically draining to actually talk to people. Sorry for my random ranting. I have more to say but I'm currently paranoid someone will look over my shoulder. Bleh.

thanks *hugs back* idk i feel like it's kinda bad i can't get by without ignoring everything?? and it feels like a dishonest way to live
thanks man *tackle hugs*

I just want to say you are all so bloody beautiful.
All of you.
You are fantastic and deserve the very best the world has to offer you.
If your friends treat you badly, leave them.
Because you are worth so much and you shouldn't waste your time on them.
If you feel upset or depressed or worried or stressed remember how amazing you are.
And I know that you can't be happy all the time but you must know this.
Everything about you is unique and excellent and wonderful.
I love you all. So much


Sorry for going on like this

Ohhh, you're amazing. You should have encouraging be your job.

Hey. thank you so much for that.

block him.
maybe you can't do that offline, but block him online at least. it's not your fault you're triggered by this and you shouldn't have to put up with it. if he asks you about it, if you feel comfortable discussing it with him, you can tell him about it. if you don't, just say that he was making some disturbing comments and that you didn't want to deal with them.
or maybe you should talk it out, if you're comfortable with that. this is all about making you more comfortable around him, so it's really your call on this.
you're my fav
you are not alone. i am here. i will always be your friend. all of us, though we may screw up sometimes and say the wrong thing and accidentally make things worse, we will be here for you. i love you so much, and i'm glad you're feeling better. being with sam is important to you, and you need to protect what is precious. i'm really glad she happened to you, ngl. with her you get into some of the best mood i've ever seen you in, and you feeling better makes me feel better too.
i'll miss you. you have my tumblr, right?
don't apologize, really.
i needed that. thank you.

i doubt. but yeah, i do.
i don't think im stable enough to be here anymore, too, tbh

i hope you decide not to leave in the end

omg i'm so late for all of this i haven't been on here in ages
<3 i really hope he survives and knows that things will get better
talk to him about him/block him

wait what happened don't
same but meh not officially leaving. don't really see the point of doing that. yet.
HAOPY BELATED BIRDAY

oops so i kinda relapsed again
while sam and thomas were in the back of the car
i was torn between wanting to cut a lot and get really drunk with a friend
except i didn't feel at all comfortable having an emotional breakdown around that friend
sooo thank god i ended up going to thomas's that made the night like five times better for me
hng ignoring him seems to work kinda well, he hasn't been bringing it up as much. but yeah fuck i should talk to him about it

thank you. but… fuck i just have a hard time believing anyone will actually stay with me. at the very least you guys will probably drift away. *shrugs*
thank you

D: it's okay. you can go even longer this time I know you can!!

commenting on the otp 'story' was the worst decision of my life. 1) should i leave kp or should i leave the world in general? 2) who is imnotalamo

i hate myself i should die GOODbYE