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Originally Posted by Jesse (Post 593930)

If you're an asexual person who dates members of the same sex, then yeah, you'll face discrimination from the people around you--just like a gay person would.

But asexuals don't experience internalized hatred for their sexuality on the same level as a gay person would. It's not even close.

The shittiest part about being gay isn't that people hate you--it's that you hate yourself, and you can't do anything to change it. Asexuals don't deal with that. To call an asexual "LGBT" is to equate their struggles to those of a gay/bi/trans person. That's my reasoning.

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I identified as asexual for a goodly chunk of time. In fact, I'm not 100% sure I still don't. My sexuality and romantic orientations are an ever-evolving mystery, I don't know what feelings I'm even capable of as an autistic person (I don't know if I can have intense romantic connection, and I struggle forming relationships). I've dated a grando total of one person who was pretty terrible tbh. But that aside.

As an asexual, I definitely experienced internalised hatred of myself for it. It's a feeling of being broken or perceived as such. To a degree, I'm still sex-repulsed and this terrifies me because I feel like I'm failing at SOMETHING. That I'm an immature child who'll never grow up and this is just another reminder of things I can't do. Like feeling attraction in terms I can understand. But I definitely felt like crap over being ace, partly because of how my ex treated it. She was very much 'oh, you're not really ace you're gonna come out as bi eventually' (I did, but I question that, whether I was pressured into that label). She was also 'you're just saying that because you've read it online' and 'haha autistic girls always say they're ace' and im like yah thanks ur a wonderful person so glad I dated u.

(some of this is retrospective)

As some others have pointed out, it's not an oppression olympics. We don't want to measure and quantify how much an acespec person experiences self-hate over this.

I've also gone through a lot of self-hatred over my confused attraction (? ish) to women, which is again a fun time. So I've been there too, hating myself over two aspects of my orientations. I'm unsure if I'm ace or aro, if I'm bisexual or biromantic.

So I mean, I'm not sure I'd ever be comfortable in a sexual relationship. I'm 18 now, and still as certain of this fact as I was when I joined KP at like, 13. A tiny little bean back then was I, and much has changed. But to say 'asexuals don't have that' is pretty unempathetic. Like, my relationship devolved because of this, because my ex couldn't accept my lack of sex drive (in part anyway) so I definitely experienced hatred toward that side of myself. And I know a good many other aces who question themselves and go through that self-hatred you argue is a Gay Exclusive Thing (tm)

I also have a lot of very good ace and acespec friends who have their reasons for considering themselves lgbt. At least one is biromantic, and another has a gf. Even if I did fall back on being ace, and identify as that again, I think I'd still refer to myself as bi to my family because it's easier for them to understand than 'oh hey I uh rly dont want sex at all' because that just gets the 'you've not tried it' argument. And I hate that argument. Have I heard that a lot. Yes. yes i have.

As I said, I'm very much uncertain about where I fall. My relationship w my ex ended over my lack of sex drive and the fact she wanted more from it than I did, emotionally and physically. Also she liked edgy racist memes too much. She's not a good person at all these days.

But would I consider myself LGBT? In some respect, probably. I don't know how yet. Still working on that stuff. Regardless, I think romantic orientations do qualify because - well, they're who you date, and people view dating as an inherently sexual thing, and are unlikely to make the distinction between homoromantic and homosexual. Like, if there's a same-sex couple out for a walk holding hands, people will assume and treat a nonsexual couple the same as they would a sexual couple there, because from their frame of reference they assume they are viewing a sexual relationship. Therefore homoromantic aces in same-sex relationships will still experience oppression.

The debate always will be about cishet aces/aros though, people always bring it back to that. And that's a complex one I'm not willing to get into here. But prior rambling aside, these are my thoughts on your above argument.

Sorry about lack of sense made here, I'm trying. And uh...dont expect a reply for like a year bc I never check this site anymore lmao oh yeah hey guys