What do the voices say?


Anyhow, am I the only one who has never debated cutting myself at all?

Technically, I am scared it would hurt, and besides, I do not want to get it wrong, no one has told me procedures for this...oh, and I cannot be bothered.

Yes, I am too lazy to self-harm - oh, and it's irrational and illogical.

They say I'm worthless, and they are going to take over my life. They say that when I grow up and have children they will disgnose them with desieases (I've spelt that word wrong, I know. >.>)....they also say that I am too beautiful for words and they will take over me and control me to do bad things. They bribe me with all the things that I want/need badly for me to join their side. The day when they went was when I said: "Leave me alone in Jesus name--you will never take over me."

Never. Never. You know that song by Justin Bieber called Never Say Never? I freaking hate it--we need to say never in bad situations. It's a stupid, stupid song, and I hate it, hate it, hate it. Never say Never...hmm, what if someone offered you drugs and you listened to that song saying "Never Say Never"? That'd be the end of your life. -_-'

I've never thought about it either, thank goodness.

I really wish I could help, but honestly, I have no idea what to say. Have you talked to anyone else, a professional, about this?

Yes--I have talked to God. I have told him everything--all my secrets and what I felt like--everything. He knows everything about me already, but I just want to let everything out.

When I pray to Him, everything feels better. :^D

I don't know if you guys care to be updated on the divorce situation, but here goes anyway. I have to get this off my chest. You guys can ignore it if you want. :3

My mom came back to me later that night and said that my grandma told her to not file for separation. Or divorce. Then the issue was dropped. For about 24 hours, nothing serious happened. We had a family dinner with our grandparents and my sister's boyfriend, and though my dad was feeling a bit sick afterwards, everything seemed okay.

Then last night, my grandparents came over right around bedtime and said that my dad had gone to their house in tears, asking for help and contemplating suicide. My grandma was shouting, "I don't care if I say this in front of the kids! There is something wrong in this household, and it ends tonight. He is actually thinking of ending his life over this!" My mom had convinced her that it was all my dad's fault, but now she was thinking that it was the other way around. Or they were both to blame equally. I left the room then, so I don't know what happened next, but I do remember my grandma also saying to my parents, "This isn't fair to the kids, you two doing this." So at least she understands what us kids have been going through.

When it was over, they played the Happy Family Card and everyone went to sleep. I have no idea what conclusion they came to, or how they came to it, or what's going to happen next. I'm just as much in the dark as I was before.

"There is something wrong in this household, and it ends tonight." Yeah, right. Maybe that's true, but they'll just start this game over again.

Oh, thank goodness. I'm glad! :^D

X^D Thank you for your care!! :D He only knows about the voices, and no one else. A_A

Well, I'm glad He's helping you. :3 Have you considered telling anyone else before? What do you think is keeping you from telling anyone?

I really don't know...o_O Maybe the fact that the voices were threatening me with bad things to come and saying stuff that keeps my spirtis low...P_P