Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 292439)

Sandy....

Why don't they have hair? They look like aliens. xD

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 292440)

And why don't they have clothes on? o_o

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 292444)

XD It's just a meme, guys. Memes don't have a lot of detail.

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 291543)

o_o Feel free to ignore this.

-__- I don't know what's wrong with me.

I WANT to write. But...I just can't focus. At all. I write one sentence, and then my brain just gives up. And I hate it. I hate how I can't think of synonyms and can't organize my ideas and can't get the words to come out right and can't write dialogue.

This whole numbness thing has been hanging over my head for months, but it suddenly got worse about a month ago, right when all this stress piled up on me. I think that's it...this whole huge family issue has made doing anything feel like it's totally useless. I can't seem to cook food right anymore. I don't clean as much as I used to. I can't seem to enjoy my favorite songs. Nothing tastes good. Nothing sounds fun. All I want to do is curl up on the couch with someone I care about (though I don't know exactly who that person would be) and cry for a little bit, then go to sleep for a year. I KNOW if I can just cry it out, I'll feel better, but...I just...can't. I'm too steeled over. Too numb. Too apathetic of everything. And yet, I want it to stop. I've tried everything I can think of, but nothing works. I can't bring myself to be anything but numb or outraged or horribly lonely. And that means I can't write, because I can't describe the emotions my characters are feeling if I don't feel them myself.

...And you know what? Through it all, every time I feel lonely, there's only one person I seem to want to be with. And...it makes no sense to me at all. I want to be with my character Charlie when I'm feeling lonesome. Not my friends, not my family. They really haven't been able to help me. A lot of them just made it worse. All I want is to hang out with Char for a while...vent a little bit, then watch some movies together, maybe go on a bike ride or a walk, then curl up on the couch together and go on a YouTube music spree. I don't know why that's the first thing my brain comes up with when I'm feeling lonely, because I know all of that is totally impossible...but.....I don't know. I just don't know anything anymore...

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 292448)

My mood right now: UBER HAPPY! :'D Like, actually HAPPY happy. O_O Not just hyper. Not on an upswing of a mood change. Actually...happy. No numbness. :'3

Why, you ask, am I happy?

WELL. :D Here it is, in no specific order:

1.) Got to watch the latest Legend of Korra episode! ^_^ XD 'Twas great. O_O CLIFFAHANGER ENDING.
2.) The girl I met at the AIMS testing site finally emailed me back and sent me the story she's writing. o.o It. Is. EPIC.
3.) Pizza for lunch! XD
4.) My birdie and my poochie love me, and I love them, too. :3 *hugs Jojo and Tiger, who are both in a good mood today*
5.) 2NE1 IS AWESOME. *breaks into the chorus of Clap Your Hands right at http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature...UM5Jy4E#t=139s *
6.) My sunflower seedlings are growing nicely, so I decided to plant some safflower, too.
7.) This has been THE coolest summer here I HAVE EVER SEEN. O_O It should be 112 F right now, but it's only 108. :') And it'll be only 74 F later tonight.
8.) DRAGONWRITER POSTED THE EDITED CHAPTER 1 OF VAAREN SALVATION. :D Excuse my fangirlishness, but I freaking luffed that story when I was a guest.

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 292476)

Even though I'm a bit late… Not ignoring it. :B

Don't stress about it. It won't help; just give yourself a break and try to relax. :P

For the numbness… I have that problem too. :P It helps to listen to happyish music, at least for me. Like, Relient K, love songs, stuff like that. Think of your friends, everyone who cares about you, every good memory you can find, and look at the comments on your posts, everything nice that people have said about you. Hopefully it'll help at least a bit.

I think it makes sense: you based Amber off of yourself, at least partially, and Charlie's her best friend and awesome. :P


:'D
*Is very glad you're happy now*
And it's been a bit coolish here the past few days, too. XD

@Sandy: Yeahhhh… that's why I stopped listening to Three Days Grace. XD

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 292476)

@Sandy: Yeahhhh… that's why I stopped listening to Three Days Grace. XD

Originally Posted by nngo (Post 292514)

:eek: You stopped listening to Three Days Grace? D:<