O_O

*runs away from my mum's car*

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of...n_U.S._by_year

Either Americans are terrible drivers...or cars are dangerous. I think both are true, actually. O__O

How many vehicle deaths in Australia?

that is absolutely terrifying.

So in other news, a couple weeks ago, my dad got a call from his mother (who by the way is just a little of her rocker) that she got weird phone call from the ex-husband of one of his high school friends. Apparently, there's some issues with their marriage (or was) and he some how got the idea that my dad was having an affair with her ex (his high school friend). It's all very confusing and just mildly scary.
We've been getting these weird anonymous calls that we kind of started to assume is him, and when we weren't picking up I guess he started to call my grandmother and threaten my dad through her.
But the worst part is that my dad's mom kind of believed him and now thinks that my dad is having an affair (wHICH HE WOULD NEVER DO EVER SO I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ANY OF YOU SAYING THAT HE IS). I don't know, I think the whole ordeal is over now, it was just really weird.
So that's a thing that happened.

no i last chatted her on gmail two days ago and havent talked to her on tumblr in a week which is really bad because normally we talk on gmail/tumblr every single day she's my girlfriend and she left the last chat two days ago because she hit enter on something she didn't mean to sent and so she left angry and hating herself and im really fucking worried about her i dont care if im being unreasonable i want her to be okay and i want to talk to her so im sure shes ok

i do have circus with her on friday if she comes and hopefully she does so i hope i'll see her then
*sigh*
i am the epitome of overprotective worrywart girlfriend but this is what growing up under my dad's influence did to me

I know I'm normally kind of calm on here. I've never been anorexic or anything but tbh today I just wanted to be thin, and not eat, and just not have these stupid wide thighs or "muscular" calves (they aren't fucking muscular), just to not eat for a long time but not have people ask questions.

Sometimes I just kind of hate being happy because it makes the moments when I crash back to my normal state even worse.
and I know I should just be glad that I was happy at all but idk it just sucks and i feel really dumb and ungrateful
I just don't like myself much right now I'm sorry.

:c no i get what you mean i kind of feel like that sometimes too.

(*hugs*) you should like yourself you are a good person

i'm actually a really stupid mean person but thanks