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Arin 01-27-2014 09:19 PM

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 517225)
i'm actually a really stupid mean person but thanks

gOD NO YOU ARE NOT

L.S.Trendom 01-27-2014 09:26 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 517205)
no i last chatted her on gmail two days ago and havent talked to her on tumblr in a week which is really bad because normally we talk on gmail/tumblr every single day she's my girlfriend and she left the last chat two days ago because she hit enter on something she didn't mean to sent and so she left angry and hating herself and im really fucking worried about her i dont care if im being unreasonable i want her to be okay and i want to talk to her so im sure shes ok

i do have circus with her on friday if she comes and hopefully she does so i hope i'll see her then
*sigh*
i am the epitome of overprotective worrywart girlfriend but this is what growing up under my dad's influence did to me

yo tell me if u see her okay?
also u should email me on friday i need to tell u a thing
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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 517167)
(*sheepish*) I was...really hurt and sad and upset when I posted that. I didn't mean to cuss. I don't ever do that...like, my extent of verbally cussing is "what in the name of sanity" and "frapping top hats" and whatnot.

But, yeah...have you ever lost someone, or you're having trouble with someone, and nearly every single song you hear reminds you of them? That's what I've been dealing with the past several days and it's driving me nuts. x_x


(*curls up in the corner*) (*dejected sigh*) Whyyy does this always happen when I find a good friend? Why can't my best friends ever be normal? This is why I have trust issues...

*hugs u tightly*
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Originally Posted by TheMoonWakedWolf (Post 517131)
Why the hell is everything so fucking twisted
This is the reason I don't have faith
When God creates people with disorders and destinies that are just designed to screw them over and condemn them how the hell can He be considered the epitome of light and love
Why the hell does anyone suffer so terribly why do His plans leave so many in tatters why has He given some people happiness and let others to rot why is He supposed to be perfect when in reality He's a fucking hypocrite
Why the hell am I even here if I can't do a fuckin thing about it tho

i feel u fuck that's why i stopped believing in god
yo u can make a difference. you've made my life brighter, and i know you've made a difference in other peoples' lives too. hell you're so fucking rad p sure u will end up saving at least one person's life
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Originally Posted by blossom (Post 517214)
I know I'm normally kind of calm on here. I've never been anorexic or anything but tbh today I just wanted to be thin, and not eat, and just not have these stupid wide thighs or "muscular" calves (they aren't fucking muscular), just to not eat for a long time but not have people ask questions.

yo okay DONT YOU FUCKING DO THAT DONT FUCKING START PROMISE ME
but yo ok im gonna email u

Lena 01-28-2014 09:17 AM

guess who's on her way to a funeral for a woman she never got to meet but she was named after

HannahChen2009 01-28-2014 09:41 AM

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 517305)
guess who's on her way to a funeral for a woman she never got to meet but she was named after

Aww. Who um...?

Lena 01-28-2014 10:03 AM

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Originally Posted by HannahChen2009 (Post 517309)
Aww. Who um...?

Died? It was my great grandmother.

HannahChen2009 01-28-2014 10:09 AM

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 517312)
Died? It was my great grandmother.

Oh, so your great grandma's called Lena too? Cool.
(Oh and tn maybe? I'm so bored and I'm stalking you xD)

TheMoonWakedWolf 01-28-2014 12:47 PM

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 517135)
(*hugs*) I'm so sorry, CT...you don't deserve to go through this kind of stress. D: I'm sure you can help...just being there for them, letting them know you're willing to listen to them, actively doing things to show you care and that you need them...all of that adds up, and really can make a difference for someone. <:^) It takes some effort, but, I know you can do it. You're strong enough to do that. And, if all else fails, you might be able to get them help from someone else, like a therapist or a parent.

That's actually part of what the whole God-made-man-in-his-image subject means. Unlike most animals, we have the capacity to display qualities like love, justice, and have complete free will. ^_^ We're not totally governed by instinct, and God does not force us to do things.

Take a look at what Deuteronomy 30:19, 20 says. "...I have put life and death before you, the blessing and the curse; and you must choose life so that you may live, you and your descendants, by loving Jehovah your God, by listening to his voice, and by sticking to him, for he is your life and by him you will endure a long time." This is just one of many scriptures urging us to CHOOSE a life course that will result in current and future blessings, instead of permanent destruction.

Now, while there are things God DID set up and put into motion, like the ransom sacrifice that would allow our sins to be forgiven, he does not preordain most things. Instead, since he is all-powerful, can see into the future at will, and determine how a person or situation will turn out based on their personality, or circumstances. Like, how we can predict our friend's reaction to something, because we know them so well. But, looking into the future is something God chooses to do at will; he's not constantly looking into the future or predicting things. A good example of this is when God was about to investigate the actions of the people in Sodom and Gomorrah. Genesis 18:20 says that God wanted to "see whether they are acting according to the outcry that has reached me. And if not, I can get to know it."

I know it hurts to see someone in so much pain because of their mental and/or emotional health. ;_; I know a LOT of people with severe depression, and I struggle with a mild form of it, too. But, notice that 2 Corinthians 1:3, 4 calls God, "the Father of tender mercies and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our trials." Also, Psalms 34:18 says, "Jehovah [God] is close to the brokenhearted; He saves those who are crushed in spirit." And 1 Thessalonians 5:14 says, "On the other hand, we exhort YOU, brothers...speak consolingly to the depressed souls, support the weak, be long-suffering toward all." See, God does not want people to be sad! He encourages his followers to take care of each other, and to give special care to those who are depressed and weak. ^_^

The best part, though, is a promise directly from God found at Revelation 21:4. "And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore." Although God is allowing suffering to continue for the moment, he will soon permanently get rid of the causes, memory, and the experience of suffering! (Why he allows it is another subject entirely, but, there IS a good reason for it. The point is, he does not cause it, but allows it for now, and will get rid of it soon. But, in case you're wondering why there's so much suffering to begin with and what its source is, here's a link to an explanation of that: http://www.jw.org/en/publications/ma...uch-suffering/ )

So, why are some people born with mental health issues, or are born into stressful circumstances? Simply put, it's the result of sin, which makes us imperfect physically and emotionally. Adam and Eve were perfect, and did not have to deal with things like that until they sinned, and introduced imperfection to all mankind...kind of like a dented bread pan. No matter how many loaves are made with it, each loaf will have that same big dent in it. Over time and use, that dent in the pan can get bigger, and effect the bread it produces, although it was once flawless.


TL;DR:
The Bible doesn't teach that fate exists.
We have free will and can change the course of our lives.
God WANTS us to be happy, and we'll be happy if we obey him and ask for help.
God can see into the future, but does not preordain the course of everyone's life, nor does he constantly look into the future. He has planned things out before, but does not do this for everything all the time.
Instead, God accurately predicts how someone will act based on their personality, heart, and circumstances.
God loves us and will gladly help us out.
He will soon remove the effects of sin, and thus get rid of death and all kinds of suffering. In the meantime, though, he makes it clear how to be the safest and happiest in life. Seriously...God's plan for us ISN'T to be unhappy, it's for us to be happy and enjoy life.
Instead of being given imperfect things like mental/emotional health issues by God, we were given those things by Adam, Eve, and Satan. These things are part of what sin and imperfection brings us.



I TOTALLY respect your right to choose to have faith or not, CT. <:^3 And I don't know if your friends trust what the Bible says or not. But, I sincerely hope you're okay, and that things turn out well for you AND your friends. (*hugs and gives cookies*) Let me know if there's anything I can do, or if you want/need to vent about it. Remember, you are awesome and stronger than you think!

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Originally Posted by bookworm1999 (Post 517158)
As much as it hurt to read, I'm sorry you feel that way. I really really am.

Just putting this out there, um, because it relates to what you says, but I found this quote by a man named David Platt. He wrote this book called Radical. My parents tell me it's what helped transformed their perspective on missions. It made them more passionate about their mission here in Romania. I haven't read it. Unfortunetly, I think I'm a little scared too. I think that if I do... I'll be disappointed by what I read bc it WILL change the way I think... but anywas, not getting into that.

“Radical obedience to Christ is not easy... It's not comfort, not health, not wealth, and not prosperity in this world. Radical obedience to Christ risks losing all these things. But in the end, such risk finds its reward in Christ. And he is more than enough for us.”

I can't describe how unbelievably true this is. I know it doesn't relate to nonbelievers, and I'm sorry I'm at such a lack of that information right now. But I mean, gee, I'd really like to list off all the crap I've been through just... in the last year and half. It doens't get easier when you're in Christ. You think we hide behind Him like He's some shield? I'm sure a lot do. Treat their religion like it's a mask and no one can hurt them because they wear it. Really, though, God's trying to push them out there on the sidelines where tons of crap, verbal abuses, and pain awaits them. Sometimes, I literally cry in my bad at night thinking of how unfair life is, how unfair GOD is. Really, I have to realize sometimes that God delights in exalting our inabilities. He intentionally puts people in situations where we come face to face with our need for him.

I hadn't realized how much I lacked in my trust for Him.

I await the happiness that lies before me when I see Him. One of my deepest fears is that when I approach God on judgement day, He'd tell me 'I wish you would have given up more'. I can't imagine a world without him.


Honestly, for you, I believe the answer is sin. I know you don't believe it, but that's my opinion for you. We're only beginning to face the consequences.

Ok, to both of you, I apologise if I insulted you in any way. I didn't mean it as a direct bit to general faith in god. I was just frustrated and had had an argument with my parents about religion that morning.
Ash, i completely get what your saying about the bread pan and stuff. I've just grown with the lesson that god creates us all individually and sets a general path for us to take, the little detours and sightseeing pitstops being of our own accord. So from my faith, there isn't just one bread pan that got dented. God carves out own little cookie cutter, just for us. I just don't understand why he would make someone with a mental disability, or with autism, or with a sexuality other than heterosexuality, if anything besides is a sin. It doesn't make sense to me.
And Kenny, I completely respect your faith and decisions, and I get what your saying, but religion hasn't worked out for me. The morals of the church, yes, all the way, but I just simply don't believe. Again, I'm sorry if I insulted you.
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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 517242)
i feel u fuck that's why i stopped believing in god
yo u can make a difference. you've made my life brighter, and i know you've made a difference in other peoples' lives too. hell you're so fucking rad p sure u will end up saving at least one person's life

I really hope ur right man it would be awesome to know that I matter tho
Thank you tho that actually helped me dude thank u *hug*

TheMoonWakedWolf 01-28-2014 01:07 PM

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 517167)
(*sheepish*) I was...really hurt and sad and upset when I posted that. I didn't mean to cuss. I don't ever do that...like, my extent of verbally cussing is "what in the name of sanity" and "frapping top hats" and whatnot.

But, yeah...have you ever lost someone, or you're having trouble with someone, and nearly every single song you hear reminds you of them? That's what I've been dealing with the past several days and it's driving me nuts. x_x


(*curls up in the corner*) (*dejected sigh*) Whyyy does this always happen when I find a good friend? Why can't my best friends ever be normal? This is why I have trust issues...

I'm sorry you've been going through this dude ;-; I completely get "why can't my best friends be normal". It gets really tough, no matter what differentiates them from the norm. Whatever happened, I hope you can find closure. You're an amazing person, and I just hope you know what we care about you here. I'm so sorry I don't know what to say here I'm rly awkward *flailing*
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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 517205)
no i last chatted her on gmail two days ago and havent talked to her on tumblr in a week which is really bad because normally we talk on gmail/tumblr every single day she's my girlfriend and she left the last chat two days ago because she hit enter on something she didn't mean to sent and so she left angry and hating herself and im really fucking worried about her i dont care if im being unreasonable i want her to be okay and i want to talk to her so im sure shes ok

i do have circus with her on friday if she comes and hopefully she does so i hope i'll see her then
*sigh*
i am the epitome of overprotective worrywart girlfriend but this is what growing up under my dad's influence did to me

That's not unreasonable dude, that's the normal reaction. (Or I'm unreasonable too hahwhat)
she'll be fine c: I know it's really difficult to stop worrying, but I'm sure she'll be more than happy to see you on Friday. You two will hug and kiss or whatever it is you do and then run away together off into the sunset or something idk is that what couples do these days
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Originally Posted by blossom (Post 517214)
I know I'm normally kind of calm on here. I've never been anorexic or anything but tbh today I just wanted to be thin, and not eat, and just not have these stupid wide thighs or "muscular" calves (they aren't fucking muscular), just to not eat for a long time but not have people ask questions.

I completely get this, but please, don't not eat. Eat only if your stomach is growling, go on a diet, whatever but please don't starve yourself. I know what it's like to feel like this bc ugh I hate my skin and just ugh I feel gross, but not eating won't do anything for you. You won't ever feel satisfied, and your family and friends will worry and chastise you and practically force food into your mouth. It won't do anything for you.
tbh thicker legs are attractive at least to me ok what
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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 517221)
Sometimes I just kind of hate being happy because it makes the moments when I crash back to my normal state even worse.
and I know I should just be glad that I was happy at all but idk it just sucks and i feel really dumb and ungrateful
I just don't like myself much right now I'm sorry.

No dude don't be sorry
It's really hard to remain happy when you constantly see that sadness lingering beneath you, waiting for you to fall
It is super difficult, and even though I don't know you all that well, just know that you're a great person who I know for an awesome artist, an amazing writer, and just a generally wonderful person
Even when you're sad
So even tho you may not be happy a lot, you're not dumb
You're fantastic
also it may be good for you to get some help if you're not already! I'm sorry but it seems what's healthiest dude we want you to be happy all the time

bookworm1999 01-28-2014 03:17 PM

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Originally Posted by TheMoonWakedWolf (Post 517325)
Ok, to both of you, I apologise if I insulted you in any way. I didn't mean it as a direct bit to general faith in god. I was just frustrated and had had an argument with my parents about religion that morning.
Ash, i completely get what your saying about the bread pan and stuff. I've just grown with the lesson that god creates us all individually and sets a general path for us to take, the little detours and sightseeing pitstops being of our own accord. So from my faith, there isn't just one bread pan that got dented. God carves out own little cookie cutter, just for us. I just don't understand why he would make someone with a mental disability, or with autism, or with a sexuality other than heterosexuality, if anything besides is a sin. It doesn't make sense to me.
And Kenny, I completely respect your faith and decisions, and I get what your saying, but religion hasn't worked out for me. The morals of the church, yes, all the way, but I just simply don't believe. Again, I'm sorry if I insulted you.


I really hope ur right man it would be awesome to know that I matter tho
Thank you tho that actually helped me dude thank u *hug*

Naw, you're forgiven. It's just difficult for me to read or listen to that type of stuff because of the relationship I have with Him. But thank you, I hope you know I respect yours, too. c:

Virtually hug it out, man?

bookworm1999 01-28-2014 03:19 PM

don't normally post here bc idk, it always saddens me

but i'm simply having one of those days where you mess up big time and all that runs through your brain is 'stupid stupid stupid'.


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