Curse hospital rules. No children allowed.

Thank goodness. Praying for safe recovery

I'm so sorry, I know how it's like being ignored :| i hope things become better.
jesus
(but the ash)

sorry I'm late. But I hope your grandmother is getting better yeah? I hope she's not too injured :( I'd pray for her and you but I'm not religious and stuff but yeah. Sending hugs

also what?? No children allowed??? what if there's a child in the ER??? like dude we don't have those rules here I was allowed in a mental ward to visit a relative (which wasn't the acutely psychotic one I'll give u that) yeah but like. wow that's a dumb rule

why am I so freaking fat? I've freaking starved myself and I still look like a fat ugly pig. I'm sick of this crap. I am over feeling weak and tired because I haven't eaten enough. Because no calories is better than too many calories, right?
Society has gone to crap I'm sick of looking in the mirror and not feeling good enough. This freaking Barbie complex is crap. I don't want people to look at me and just see fat. But I don't want hem to look at me and just see breasts and skin either. And yet that seems that that is all anyone thinks about. Why can't we just freaking look at other people and see humans instead of meat or sex or whatever. Society has pinned us against ourselves to the point where I'm freaking crying because I'm fifteen pounds away from skinny. And I never thought it would happen to me but you got me society. I hate myself. Congrats. I freaking hate my reflection.
I used to be one of the strong ones who didn't give a crap about society. But they got me. And now I'm crying for myself and every other girl who has ever felt like they weren't good enough. Because guess what? We are good enough and anyone who tells you otherwise is an a--. I'm sick of trying to play Barbie. Because I'm not Barbie. I'm flawed and imperfect and maybe I'm not even beautiful. But I'll be darned if I say I'm not good enough.
Go to heck, society. I'll rot before I sell my soul to you for a second time.


oops that felt really good.

Hi so I found this awesome website that y'all should definitely check out because... just... do it. I swear.
I think the one in the link leads to a "comfort spot" where you can vent on anon and a bunch of people reply to you and help you feel better and offer hugs. I just got it a couple days ago but so far it's been really cool ^.^
Also the main site has some really awesome... stuff, I guess haha, that you can use.
I like the Thoughts Room and The Dawn Room the best, but they're all really cool and really helpful.
and ya. That's all >.<


http://thequietplaceproject.com/thed...om/comfortspot

Last time I tried to go see her in a less-emergency part of the hospital, *not this time* the people were like, "No children under ___ allowed."
And thanks, she's better, my dad says, like awake and fresh. But her face's swollen and she lost a few teeth.

i know what you mean

i wish i had some words of comfort but i cant think of anything good to say in the state of mind im currently in im sorry

Oh, now she's insulting me even more.
"Alice est stupide. Stupido. Dummy. Ugly. Fat. Stupid."