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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 552552)

I seriously don't understand what the heck homework during break is for. Like??? We're supposed to learn at SCHOOL?? NOT DURING A VACATION? Doesn't that defeat the purpose?!

There are plenty of resources available if you're nervous about how much you understand. YouTube is actually surprisingly helpful, I've found. There are a bunch of different explanation videos (basically mini lessons) on there for practically all math topics. They're paced pretty good, too. Also I'm sure your friend would still help you out even if they're not in your class. Right? ^_^ In any case, I hope everything goes well for you in Math!! (I'm horrible at Algebra but good at Geometry so I totally know how you feel.) Just try not to worry, okay? Focus on what you have to accomplish now and enjoy your last few days of break.

Hey, I'm sorry you're stressed about that, too. I honestly can't think of any advice since I've never been in that situation. (Sorry.) But, again, I hope it works out for you, whatever you decide to do. <:^D

im going into an IB school so yeah thats why i have summer hw. ;-;

ill probably give those videos a shot!! and yeah if i have to, ill ask my friends for help. or we can just be confused together lol.

thank you (:

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 552553)

I really hate my sleep schedule and my inability to go to sleep at a normal hour.

OTL

same i go to bed at like 3 am or later. its almost 1 am here ;-; music helps me sometimes. also idk if this would work in the summer, but if ur house is cold enough, maybe put your blanket in the dryer just to warm it up? idk sorry i dont have any other tips. *hands u warm milk or somethin*

im starting high school today

Ayyyy congrats Maggie
Also even though the sleep schedule sucks it's fun and there are twelve billion opportunities for your young impressionable future
On an unrelated note I'm going to be a sophomore in less than a week and I'm still nervous about it?

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 552545)

hs starts in 15 days and i havent finished my hw yet also i really hope i have E in my geom class. L wont be in there bc shes taking algebra but like last year, the second day was terrible and i couldnt breathe that well bc i kept panicking bc i didnt know shit abt math. im hoping E will be in geom with me this year bc i really dont want to repeat tht. im just scared that ill be super panicky in school again sob

also idk how to come out to teachers and students?? i did it in 8th grade (only students tho) but idk its just major stressing me out but like havig ppl call me elliot and use he/him/his for me is something that will also help alleviate stress. so i mean i guess i just have to get it over with quickly and then it will be better in the end. like i mean i kind of have to. it would be a lil strangee if i went by my birth name and she/her/hers pronouns and then JUNIOr/SENIOR year, deep voice and traditionally masc. face. coming out is just stressful ;-;

ugh someone please tell me that high school isnt as bad as ppl make it out to be. someone say i wont fail my classes and i wont get harassed for being trans and SOMEONE SAY THAT SCHOOL WONT CAUSE ME A LOT OF ANXIETY LIKE IT DID FOR THE PAST THREE YEARS SOB

Hey. Hey, listen. High school isn't as bad as people say. You won't get harassed, because nobody will give a crap. Maybe after school, go around to your teachers and explain to them? Or, you could say when they call you for roll- "I'd appreciate if you call me Eli and use he/his pronouns with me." I can't be in your situation, so no, I can't sympathize with you on the field of being trans. And I do understand that it's not easy, even if I'm not in your situation. Because revealing any big truth makes someone vulnerable, peels away a layer of tough skin to reveal how tender anyone is. You won't fail your classes, you're miles more clever than any other eight graders I know and love.
I can't promise that it won't cause you anxiety, maybe cause it caused me to be anxious, but as you know, I'm hotheaded and easily distracted.
Depending on what kind of anxiety you mean, I'm not sure. I love everything about you, and maybe that's why we're friends? At least I hope we are. I would wish you good luck, but you don't need it.

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 552496)

omg I am such a shitty writer

but seriously you guys

if I do pull my shit together and publish this stupidass book

then you guys have to buy it and read it and love it ok

and then give it to all ur friends to buy it and read it and love it

I will.
Have fun pulling your shit together.
(IT'S SO HARD I'VE BEEN EDITING FOR A WHOLE YEAR)

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 552538)

fcuk idk i was with sam and austin and i still ended up feeling bad and i cried in front of them and fucked up the night kinda
and then like i had to leave and the only reason i didn't scratch the fuck out of myself was bc i made sam promise she wouldn't scratch if i didn't
but fuck i start sobbing on the drive home and nearly hyperventilating i almost had to pull over jfc
what if ican' get better

You will. Things change if you wait. Hang in there joan sry not sry

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 552540)

i hope you publish it u can do this!!!

please don't scratch, do it for us, do it for sam, please? you can get better

(hypocritical)

i started crying in rave, maths, homeroom and science today! yay me

i dont know i sat down with my friends before school and i felt more alone than ever they were all laughing and i was just there.

kkkill me

hey it's ok we all cry sometimes i'm shit at telling you it's ok aren't i

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 552545)

I don't know we don't have high school over here I guess you just have to get on with it asap good luck *hugs*

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 552553)

I really hate my sleep schedule and my inability to go to sleep at a normal hour.

OTL

Me too. I sleep at four every morning and wake up at twelve :'(

I was playing basketball with my cousin, who loves basketball. Eventually we started talking about my basketball team. He said that he could easily beat all of them. I asked why because all of my team girls are amazing at playing, and a year older then my cousin, as well as taller. He kept on giving vague reasons like "I've been playing for seven years" (of which I responded that my friend Z had been playing for 8 years) and "Basketball is my passion" ("It's also my friend's passions") Finally, he stopped playing and said, "No offense, but I think that boys are better at sports then girls." I stopped playing, picked up my shoes and my hat, which I had taken off, and walked away. He still hasn't apologized or anything. And seriously, that kid! He made a similar comment to that one day right before a big game of mine.

And this other boy that we do conditioning with, he was ref-fing for us and his friends were laughing at him abd saying that this is what he would be doing for the rest of his life "Ref-fing girl's basketball," Har har har. It just is so stupidly SEXIST and it just.. Urgh

shitshitshitshit
school starts on wednesday i'm not ready i'm so scared i don't think i feel any more confident than when i left which is bad i was going to get better this summer i was going to be able to handle this but i can't i'm so scared

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 552611)

No don't worry it will be okay *hugs* you are wonderful and everyone will love you I promise

i couldn't help it, oh well

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Originally Posted by Athenabrain1 (Post 552410)

We were so close, though.
Best friends.
Standing up for each other.
Sharing lunches occasionally.
I acted like a sisterly figure.
You were like my 'lil brother four months younger.
But did you have to shut me out, ignore my texts, not even call me?
I know when I moved you never told me today was your birthday.
I texted you a happy birthday and an apology for not knowing and being unsure if it was your birthday.
People forget.
But are you sure you didn't forget me?
Plenty of people never emailed me.
It took one pair of twins to email me and tell me to wish you a happy birthday in place of them.
Seriously, though.
I keep feeling like it's my fault.
Forgetting your birthday.
But you've always been in my head.
I tried.
I tried to be one of the best cousins anyone could ever be.
I feel like I'm failing already.
You forgot my twelfth birthday.
You forgot to say goodbye.
You forgot to text me.
I'm failing.
Because you forgot me already.

Never mind what I said about you ignoring my text for a day.
You ignored it for, what, three whole days?
I still remember the Jolly Ranchers I gave you on the last day of school I had with you before I moved.
I only gave them to you. Snuck them in, because no candy was allowed in school.
What did I get in return?
Seeing you give one to your best friend.
You've changed so much.
You started to curse, which I never expected from someone like you.
I see your messages in the public chatroom for our friends.
You keep cursing like it's fun.
I remember the day you wouldn't speak to me because I didn't give you a cupcake.
That was in first grade.
I remember how you would go around telling teachers we were related.
You never cursed in front of me.
And I'm scared now.
If someone like you can change so much,
How much will I change?