The Writer's Block - Your emotional venting thread. I'll explain.

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Originally Posted by strawberry (Post 555581)

Alice honey i'm sorry you feel this way ;-; i know how that is especially the birthday wish thing but please stay safe and be okay we care about you <33
but i do think they should know how you feel about it
and on another note the way you wrote that was very poetic and beautiful i'm sorry i know you probably don't need to hear that /melts into wall

I tried to make it as poetic as I could, since it was kind of a draft I plan to send to my best friend, the only one who keeps emailing and the only one I can trust.
:3
Ugh but I thought my cousin would at least say thanks or even email me. He hasn't at all and I'm just still waiting for a reply.
He probably forgot that my birthday was four months ago and I spent it alone with my family and only got one or two birthday wishes.
I'm scared for September because that's when I plan on telling them.
But I don't want to.
I don't know what to do anymore.
Maybe meeting with Vivien will make me feel better.
She's my best friend, after all.

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Originally Posted by Athenabrain1 (Post 555585)

Ahh I see c: I think you should though it may seem scary and you might have some regrets but it will be better for you and them in the long run.
best friends are a big help <3

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Originally Posted by strawberry (Post 555591)

Ahh I see c: I think you should though it may seem scary and you might have some regrets but it will be better for you and them in the long run.
best friends are a big help <3

Vivien's this really amazing girl who's really fun to be with and you can just tell her anything and she'll help you with everything.
I feel a bit cheered up, because I'm writing a song~

"Painting with rainbows
In the kingdom of creativity

Let your imagination run free
And take a bow (oh-oh-oh-oh)

Push away the negative thoughts
And paint them pink!"

everything actually sucks and im a piece of selfish clingy shit who turns everything unhealthy and about me and yeah

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Originally Posted by MaggieMay (Post 555606)

everything actually sucks and im a piece of selfish clingy shit who turns everything unhealthy and about me and yeah

You are most certainly not. The only unhealthy thing here is how you think of yourself. I don't know you that well, but I've seen your posts and you're a great person who doesn't deserve to feel this bad. No one deserves to feel like that. It's okay to think about yourself, that doesn't make you selfish. You have to take in to count your well-being. I really hope you feel better soon!!

I almost wanted to die today.
I'm setting a one-crying-fit per month limit now because emotions only get in the way of things. It's better to not care at all. I'm not gonna be happy, but at least I won't be sad.
And I'll try not to please anyone else. Because the reason I wanted to kill myself was that I couldn't make everyone happy at the same time.
I'm a crappy sister, a crappy daughter, a crappy friend, and a crappy everything. And from now on, I won't care.
I'm not caring about anything ever again.

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Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 555674)

hey. it's okay not to care about stuff for a while, but at some point you will care. it's gonna be okay meera, you aren't a crappy anything. ok? it'll be fine, i promise (:

@eli: omg im so happy for you!!

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Originally Posted by saphiremoon (Post 555444)

But could boredom be an emotion? I mean, I kinda vented about how happy I was (*points above*), because happiness is an emotion as well. I know this thread is mainly about negative emotions, but other emotions exist, and I think the world needs to be reminded of that. c:

And also I doubt that anyone would get offended... idk though. But anyways. This is not meant to antagonize you (you're one of my best friends on here and i don't tend to antagonize my best friends :P) (well not that much anyway *guilty look at ellie lena arin*). I just wish to say that her post was hardly offensive– to me, at least– and that you don't tell her to leave.

#endofsecondrantythingwhichwasn'treallyarant

It wasn't really that 'Bored' isn't an emotion I sort of just felt like you see suicide notes on here and then you see these. Also ahaha I wasn't telling her to leave, I was asking nicely. Just kidding bahaha I was leaving. (PLOT TWIST!)

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 555500)

Ah...she's not offended any of us...? I agree that that post easily could've gone somewhere else but what's the harm...?

I know I could've phrased that another way, and it wasn't that I was against this post, it was that I was against where she put it. Some people are in mild depression, cutting, wanting (and/or) trying to go suicidal, etc.

Overall, I thought the post could've gone on a spamthread, or chat thread, or a lot more. Just not this specific thread. No, I can't boss her around and tell her around on what she can and cannot post on whatever thread she wants, but I'd rather not this one. You guys are some of my best friends, so I don't really want to fight with you.

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Originally Posted by Arthurboulos (Post 555804)

Iwanting (and/or) trying to go suicidal, etc.

don't mean to get into this when it is finished but i don't? know? what this means???

trying to be suicidal? ?

yeah. this is hard. kind of knew it would be but
seems like the only time I try to cean up my life is when I relapse into self-harm

so i hate doing this but I think it will help unfortunately. I'm staying completely away from kp and the Internet in general for as long as I can
I posted on the goodbye thread; I think I went into more detail there idk

I love you guys, you are all amazing and beautiful and deserve to live (:
if u want to talk to me u can email me or I will sometimes still check Instagram if u want to message me there

okay. goodbye.