Originally Posted by rebecca (Post 288908)

What do the voices say?

Originally Posted by rebecca (Post 288908)

Anyhow, am I the only one who has never debated cutting myself at all?

Technically, I am scared it would hurt, and besides, I do not want to get it wrong, no one has told me procedures for this...oh, and I cannot be bothered.

Yes, I am too lazy to self-harm - oh, and it's irrational and illogical.

Originally Posted by chelseki3 (Post 288910)

They say I'm worthless, and they are going to take over my life. They say that when I grow up and have children they will disgnose them with desieases (I've spelt that word wrong, I know. >.>)....they also say that I am too beautiful for words and they will take over me and control me to do bad things. They bribe me with all the things that I want/need badly for me to join their side. The day when they went was when I said: "Leave me alone in Jesus name--you will never take over me."

Originally Posted by Leloo (Post 288914)

I really wish I could help, but honestly, I have no idea what to say. Have you talked to anyone else, a professional, about this?

Originally Posted by chelseki3 (Post 288916)

Yes--I have talked to God. I have told him everything--all my secrets and what I felt like--everything. He knows everything about me already, but I just want to let everything out.

When I pray to Him, everything feels better. :^D

Originally Posted by Leloo (Post 288934)

Oh, thank goodness. I'm glad! :^D

Originally Posted by chelseki3 (Post 288960)

X^D Thank you for your care!! :D He only knows about the voices, and no one else. A_A

Originally Posted by Leloo (Post 288967)

Well, I'm glad He's helping you. :3 Have you considered telling anyone else before? What do you think is keeping you from telling anyone?

Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 288892)

My mum found out I was cutting. Like really mildly. I feel...really weird, but uncannily happy now.
SANDY, YOU STOPPED CUTTING?! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Originally Posted by chelseki3 (Post 288916)

Yes--I have talked to God. I have told him everything--all my secrets and what I felt like--everything. He knows everything about me already, but I just want to let everything out.

When I pray to Him, everything feels better. :^D

Originally Posted by rebecca (Post 288825)

Like what, the game of thrones?

Originally Posted by chelseki3 (Post 288978)

I really don't know...o_O Maybe the fact that the voices were threatening me with bad things to come and saying stuff that keeps my spirtis low...P_P

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 288984)

If they're the other voices, then I can relate. I can relate to both, actually...
I read a graphic novel (the second Finder book) that had a character named Magri, and he was a genius... but he was so sad. And he had this voice in his head, supposed to be the voice of his baby brother who died in the womb, that told him he was nothing, and told him to kill himself ever since he was a child. He accidentally fell off a building and the voices all cheered, but some guy grabbed him... when Magri finally died of exhaustion from being used by companies and stuff for his genius, I read this part that said, "Every living creature has a voice inside them that tells them to lay down and die..."
That's when my own voices really died.

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 288979)

Yeah... <:^J I'm so glad I did.
After a while... the pain and desperation just went away and the need wasn't there anymore. Everything, life... it's so much sweeter now.
How are you doing now?

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 288891)

(I'm sorry if I seem blunt... I just want to help. If I can spare at least one person from self-harm, I can die happy... but I know that my advice is much more blunt than it is sweet... I'm sorry if I offend you. :( )

...

Ash is so amazing at giving advice...
I know next to nothing about divorce apart from the fact that it terrified me as a kid... I was always checking that my mom wasn't cheating on my dad, asking her, watching where she was going...
All I can say is... listen to Ash. :) She knows her stuff.


...


I try to avoid hugs, but apparently I'm a really good hugger...


....


To all "cutters" or anyone who this may seem relevant to...
I don't want to be yelled at for this, but am I really the only one who thinks that we are all being far too open about these issues? I know that this is the emotional venting thread, but has anyone else noticed that these vents are becoming darker and darker as the thread goes on? Self-harm and suicide is omitted from normal day to day conversation for a reason. You guys may not think about it as you type out these things about knives and blood and cutting and as you romanticize with suicide, but this is the internet. On top of that, it's a kid's writing site. There are eyes reading these words that are younger and littler than yours, and everything they see is directly absorbed into the subconscious. Monkey see, monkey do. I know I personally would never have even considered self harm as an answer to my problems if it had not been made so painfully obvious by others on the internet, and although it's over for now, a part of me left with that knife and I'm still waiting for it to come back.
And who here has ever showed KidPub off to a friend?
OR TO A PARENT?
What do you think will happen if said parent has some free time at work on the internet, LIKE MINE DO, and decides to browse through KidPub to check out what their kid has written?


WHAT DO YOU THINK WOULD HAPPEN IF YOUR MOM OR DAD READS THIS STUFF?
If I were a parent, not only would my kid never be allowed on this site again, but I would probably email Perry about this as well! I know that my mom, being very protective, would go to all lengths to eliminate this!
Speaking of Perry, I'm a little curious as to what he thinks of all this.
He makes a site for young writers to discuss writing, and what does he get?
Suicide, suicide, cutting, depression, emo, emo, emo!
Please don't misinterpret this; I know that these things exist in all our lives, but come on, guys.
There are eight-year-olds on this site.
And the guests could be even younger.
I just want to ask... can we please try, just a LITTLE bit, to preserve them?
Because what we do to the children who read these things... we are doing to the world. And to me, the world is full of depressed people enough already.

Surely I'm not the only one who wants a break from all these bad coping habits and pent-up emotions on what was supposed to be a writing site? The Golden Days of KidPub... they were certainly not like this, were they?
I'm going to go to bed... please don't be offended by this.
But honestly... I would like frank feedback on this. I'm simply offering up an idea, a suggestion that may make KidPub not only better but SAFER.

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 288985)

Guys, guys... why don't we forget our woes, sit down and play "War"? I love that card game. :D



oh god I probably shouldn't have posted this

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 288979)

Yeah... <:^J I'm so glad I did.
After a while... the pain and desperation just went away and the need wasn't there anymore. Everything, life... it's so much sweeter now.
How are you doing now?

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 289027)

:'D



Oh my gosh, Sandy, you don't know how glad I am to hear that...I've been so worried about you!!! :'D
http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m4...ho1_r1_500.gif


(PLUS, y'know, when your life's totally messed up, it helps to hear that your friend's life is doing better. XD)



1.) You weren't being blunt! 0_0 You were being honest.
2.) ... o_o *blinks* *glances over my shoulder* Hm? You were talking about ME? O_O Wut? XD
3.) A good hugger? XD Never heard anyone say that before....what qualifies as a good hug? Not crushing the person? In that case, I'm a REALLY BAD hugger...>_> XDD Derp.
4.) ._. I couldn't agree more, Cass...couldn't agree more.

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 289199)

Aww... <:^J I smiled when I read that... and saw that amazing gif... 8D
It's the least I can do... I wish I could somehow help you. :^(
Yeah... I give really emotionless advice though... OTL
I've had a couple people tell me that... I guess it's just the way you hold the person.
That... sounds really weird... >_>
Thanks. :^/
It's just... darkness and mental illness is far too glorified on the internet. I'd say it's glorified at least two thousand times more than it is in real life, because a disturbed character with a dark mental outlook makes for a good story... but this is where the problem is. I know I for one subconsciously tried to adapt myself to that because I felt it would add value to me like it did to my characters. And at that time, my mind was already warped enough as it was... I know for certain that the severity of what happened to me could have been greatly reduced if there hadn't been so much glorification of mental illness in the media that was surrounding me.
We do NOT need this on KidPub.

Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 289216)

I'm afraid that someday, I'll end up like my siblings, shouting at my parents and getting them angry. I don't want to be like that.

Why do my siblings have to be such teenagers? They never listen to my parents, and they're always moping.

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 289236)

I'm 14, nearly 15, and I've never been like that with my father. ^_^Just keep reminding yourself you don't want to turn out like that. It's hard sometimes--hormones totally scramble your brain--but if you just keep at it, you don't have to be a typical teenage brat.

Originally Posted by camikat (Post 289250)

I. Hate. My. Brain.
I'm really sensative, often for no reason. I burst into hysterics at the littlest things, and often cry when I'm just slightly frustrated. It's REALLY embarrassing, because I do it in public a lot.
And it's not that I want to do it, sometimes - I try to force the tears back, but they just flow. Sometimes, they just come without warning, at the tinyest things.
Today I was sobbing because my dad was trying to give me math lesson...I was just frustrated at him, but my brain went emotional-mode and the waterworks started...yeeaahhh... ._.
I'm also emotional in other ways, too...I'm the grouchiest person in my friend group.
I'm wondering if you guys had any advice to not cry as much. I've tried convincing myself the little thing I'm crying over doesn't matter, and it works, but I still cry. >.> Help? Please? D:

Originally Posted by Rockshadow (Post 289252)

I have that problem too. But it started when i was 12, near 13. I think it's your hormones, because they make us teens over-emotional and moody. (not all, but most)

Originally Posted by camikat (Post 289250)

I. Hate. My. Brain.
I'm really sensative, often for no reason. I burst into hysterics at the littlest things, and often cry when I'm just slightly frustrated. It's REALLY embarrassing, because I do it in public a lot.
And it's not that I want to do it, sometimes - I try to force the tears back, but they just flow. Sometimes, they just come without warning, at the tinyest things.
Today I was sobbing because my dad was trying to give me math lesson...I was just frustrated at him, but my brain went emotional-mode and the waterworks started...yeeaahhh... ._.
I'm also emotional in other ways, too...I'm the grouchiest person in my friend group.
I'm wondering if you guys had any advice to not cry as much. I've tried convincing myself the little thing I'm crying over doesn't matter, and it works, but I still cry. >.> Help? Please? D:

Originally Posted by camikat (Post 289250)

I. Hate. My. Brain.
I'm really sensative, often for no reason. I burst into hysterics at the littlest things, and often cry when I'm just slightly frustrated. It's REALLY embarrassing, because I do it in public a lot.
And it's not that I want to do it, sometimes - I try to force the tears back, but they just flow. Sometimes, they just come without warning, at the tinyest things.
Today I was sobbing because my dad was trying to give me math lesson...I was just frustrated at him, but my brain went emotional-mode and the waterworks started...yeeaahhh... ._.
I'm also emotional in other ways, too...I'm the grouchiest person in my friend group.
I'm wondering if you guys had any advice to not cry as much. I've tried convincing myself the little thing I'm crying over doesn't matter, and it works, but I still cry. >.> Help? Please? D:

Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 289258)

I'm sensitive in another way. Like...I can't be in a fight with someone without apologizing, even if I don't agree with the person. I can't stand when someone doesn't like me, or when someone's mad at me, even though I know that's life and not everyone I meet will automatically like me. :/ Kinda a bad thing, but at least I'm not being rude to everyone and not caring about people's feelings like SOME people I know........okay, rant over. XD I just wanted you to know you're not alone, and while I get frustrated, I don't cry. It's probably just puberty and hormones, and when I get frustrated, throwing things that can't break easily helps. :D

Originally Posted by camikat (Post 289250)

I. Hate. My. Brain.
I'm really sensative, often for no reason. I burst into hysterics at the littlest things, and often cry when I'm just slightly frustrated. It's REALLY embarrassing, because I do it in public a lot.
And it's not that I want to do it, sometimes - I try to force the tears back, but they just flow. Sometimes, they just come without warning, at the tinyest things.
Today I was sobbing because my dad was trying to give me math lesson...I was just frustrated at him, but my brain went emotional-mode and the waterworks started...yeeaahhh... ._.
I'm also emotional in other ways, too...I'm the grouchiest person in my friend group.
I'm wondering if you guys had any advice to not cry as much. I've tried convincing myself the little thing I'm crying over doesn't matter, and it works, but I still cry. >.> Help? Please? D:

Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 289216)

I'm afraid that someday, I'll end up like my siblings, shouting at my parents and getting them angry. I don't want to be like that.

Why do my siblings have to be such teenagers? They never listen to my parents, and they're always moping.

Originally Posted by Leloo (Post 289270)

Meh. My sisters are like that. A lot. And it drives me nuts. :P I like Ash's advice; just keep reminding yourself how immature their attitudes make them look and how you don't want that for yourself. I think everyone runs through a rough patch with their parents once in a while, but learning from what your siblings display will keep you off the same track and on a healthier one. :^)

Originally Posted by Cherrybomb (Post 289260)

I used to cry a lot over the simplest things as well. XD Every time I would just think, "Well, it's better to let it all out instead of bottling the tears up." :P I kinda stopped overreacting after that.
I also bite my lip/tongue/cheek(anything that no one can notice me biting) to tell myself not to cry or theirs going to be pain ahead. XD Doesn't really work.
I cry with my moms math lessons all the time -_-

Originally Posted by rebecca (Post 289327)

I cry easily - but why worst point is melodrama. I have arguments just how you write them. Which is not good.

Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 289341)

YOU cry easily? That's pretty hard to believe.

Originally Posted by rebecca (Post 289362)

Oh I know. I don't cry often, but it's minor issues.