:c email? only if you want to tho <333

oh no, what's wrong?

I don't know you very well but don't feel that way. You're a good person and we can all be rude at times! you'll be okay.

you aren't pathetic! There's nothing wrong with being afraid of needles. And we all go through things like this. I've had mean friends too. I'm not sure what you mean by not fighting so i cant really address that. Feel better!



your daily reminder to smile, have some water, and feel good!

I consider myself a coward, not speaking up to my friends and family and fighting the fears, you that would be what I meant by 'fighting'.
Thanks.

i dont know what to do anymore
like i would talk to people about this but
i want them to talk to me first
bc otherwise im just another needy little shit in their life
and then theyll start to hate me
and talk about me behind my back
i know how taht ends
i dont want to lose her i odnt want ot lose her
but i dont know how i can keep thsi iup

I put a book on my desk as a reminder...
 

So, i was considering going back to the terrible ballet class for the rest of the week and I wanted to find one of my favorite books to encourage me. It's called "The Silver Slippers" and it's about a young ballet dancer who gets a necklace with Silver Slippers to help her do well in her first recital. For some reason, I couldn't find it and that was extremely disappointing. But in the process, I found "Harold and the Purple Crayon". I knew that I had seen this several places before (the characters, the crayon, the book itself) but I could never remember the story. So I sat down and read it. I feel like I'm about to cry because all I could think was "this is what I want to do". I want to use my imagination to create something innocent and inspiring like this; I wanted to be as creative of an artist as this man was; I didn't want to dance anymore. So I'm overwhelmed with this happy realization that this is what I would rather do and it makes me very relieved to be able to find something like this when I needed it most. Of course, if you're reading this, then you're probably bored and there's a good reason for that. I'm writing this for me. I'm putting this "story" out there so that, next time I feel like forcing myself into something, I can clearly see what it is I really want to do. Of course, if you feel you want to read the book now, go right ahead; it's a lovely book. And so very, very inspiring. I've also been feeling really crappy lately (freakin' hormones) but "relief" cannot even begin to describe how good I feel right now.

@blosom and Nikki
ehey thanks for the support guys I just wasn't having a great day I'll be fine tho c:

ya but that doesn't mean they sound believable.

seventeen.

just like ugh it sucks having to bottle it up.

eh yeah i'm p sure i'm not going to and it def wouldn't be a regular thing.

HAHAHAH Fuck my life so hard
i don't even know what i'm going to do if me and sam fall apart

ha no i'm not. i'm really not. i dont consider them good.

i pretty much hate all my family except my brother and sister and cousins and i can't go back to my mum's.

fuck ifeellikecuttingagain