i guess i'm okay at least for now. thanks.

i would definitely mention it to a doctor, even if its just to be sure!! as AA said, it doesnt seem like you were overweight, so you shouldnt really be losing.

So what does a panic attack feel like? I kind of think that I had a minor one yesterday but I'm not too sure. Help me out if you don't mind.
We were at the beach (it was actually my first time in the ocean because I have no life), and a huge wave knocked me under the water. I completely forgot that I had my glasses on, and they flew off. While my brother began looking for them, I was slowly starting to freak out more and more. I couldn't keep my hands away from my face and everything looked kind of darker. While by brother stayed and looked, I tried to find our umbrella in the huge crowd of them. I stumbled around for a few minutes thinking I would never find them, until very luckily my sister saw me and started calling my name (funny thing though, on my way back, my flip flop got caught in a puddle of wet sand and I taught a very bad word to a very little child). At this point, it felt as if the world was spinning around me and like there were a million people on that beach. I didn't feel like I was really there. When I got back to the towel, I collapsed on my knees. I felt very weak. I choked out some words in a very wobbly voice about my glasses, and my dad went and looked with my brother. I held my head in my lap and had to focus very hard on my breathing. Needless to say, there was no luck on finding the glasses. I finally did calm down and was able to stand up, but I was still very panicked.
I sound like such a dram queen, but listen to what I have to say. Thinking back on it, it really wasn't that big of a deal. I couldn't control it. I had absolutely no control over myself for a few minutes and it felt like the whole world was collapsing. Okay this post is terrible, but I'm just looking for someone to tell me their thoughts. What do panic attacks feel like?
....god I sound so dramatic...

no no I understand I went through that when I was thirteen? and put a lot of posts about it up here cause I was alone and wanted to believe in something. I think I started a prayer thread or something? I went back to being super agnostic but there are plenty of really inclusive churches around. I think you live in Texas? and there are plenty of branches of Christianity that are all over the U.S/the world, as well as different beliefs which, while they may not have a center god, can give you something to hold on to.

And some advice/word of wisdom/a text from my very queer yet also very Catholic friend: "The Bible says nothing negative about your gender identity or sexuality and that even if the community around you views it as a 'sin', know that there's a community of queers here to give you comfort. Best of luck to you." (thank you Pax for letting me put that up here and I only fixed your grammar slightly)

Hey so I actually get really frequent panic attacks (especially during times of high stress) and just know that everybody experiences different degrees of anxiety in different ways; everybody's panic attack is different. The fact that you had trouble controlling your breathing and calming down does show heightened levels of anxiety, especially when added to the fact that you couldn't control it. My worst panic attacks are usually similar, where I can't breathe steady and my heart rate is 20x faster than normal, but instead of darkening vision, I get a ringing in my ears, and it gets really bad from there because I'll usually end up putting my hands over my head because I'm already not thinking clearly. Anyways, you could have very likely experienced a panic attack, and I'm really sorry that you had to go through something like that, and even if it's less than what somebody else might deal with, it's still something to be concerned about, and I'd keep an eye on it in case it happens again. And feel free to contact me if you need any help or advice. Also the whole KP community is here for you.

Thank you so much. :)
I didn't know a lot of that so you really helped. If it happens again maybe I'll look in to it a little more.

@mom: if ur reading this then ur the reason i want to kill myself

hey meer I want you to know that I think you're great and amazing and yeah idk I can tell you haven't been doing too well recently and yeah you don't deserve this kind of crap