sravani is this addressed to your dog (I almost typed god wow)
edit: i read the a/n thing oh my goodness but pupyyyyy I'm dying :O

yes it is
im overreacting i know but it literally affects me too much

why do i do this to myself

sooooo doubt thou is in the publishers hands

That's so exciting!! Keep us updated!

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second day in a row I've hurt myself and not felt even remotely guilty about it. Huh.

hon that's not good. please stay safe and healthy. if you need to vent, please do.

bleh okay.


so basically I've been really numb and kind of apathetic for the last like month and cutting pretty much makes it just more numb which is kind of nice and honestly I'm terrified people will find out because let's list them off shall we:

L: will freak tf out and tell me to stop and try to be inspirational and shit
J: told me he doesn't want to hear about it and asks me about it anyway so idk what he's going to do but it's not good for him
The school priest: Is going to try to help and end up just giving me the opportunity to disappoint more people
parents: YOU LITERALLY JUST GOT OUT OF THERAPY NOW IT'S TIME TO GET YO ASS BACK IN YAYAY

I just don't want to get people involved because I know that when I inevitably do hurt myself I'll just let down more people and they'll keep trying to help but tbh I don't think anything is going to stop it until I run out of room on my body and at the rate I'm going that's not a far off possibility

Esther, listen to me. Instead of cutting or hurting yourself, how about this: Put an ice cube in your hand and let it melt. It works. Please try it, okay? <3