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04-27-2016 02:02 PM |
i hate venting bc it feels like i am wallowing in self pity which i am not a fan of but i feel the need so,,,, i have been going to a new school since september so i suppose quite a while now thats 7 months whoopee. but i am so bad at communicating because i have a dissociative disorder which is a super fun time haha but no one really understands this?? which i get i mean it's kind of a 'you don't understand until you experience it' sort of thing but it gets so frustrating and i feel like i annoy the teachers who basically kick me out of school half the time because i keep having mental breakdowns,,, lol sik one 16 but consequently i am failing some subs e.g maths i am getting straight Es in that lovely waste of time. but i digress lmao. anyway i have literally no friends bc of my mental health. and not even in the tumblr way where they are all like 'lol i'm so edgy and depressed and i have no friends i just watch netflix' kind of way. no one hates me or anything i just kind of float around and stuff. i actually have 3 friends. everyone else has literally fucked off bc idk i must not be a fun time. and this disorder has literally arisen from antidepressants and so i am terrified of medication in case it properly fucks me up even more but i am also like aa bc therapy isnt working. so should i just wait it out or. also i have rly fucked up body perceptions and shit i crave being run over by a bus and not even in the suicide sort of way. i also have toffee for brains. i also miss the shit out of greer why tf did she have to get cancer and die
if there is anything you can learn from this mess is to get enough sleep because if you don't you will fuck up your life
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