i put this on an but
i just learned im my best friends FP (a bpd term) and aaaahhh
i kinda suspected it for a while but
im flattered but also i dont know everything about it so time to do Research

i will definitely try those things. thank you so much, it really means a lot. :)

I think I fucked up.
well actually I know I fucked up.
I'm arguing with my friend, and i'm so fucking stubborn about certain things and fuck I made her cry, and I don't even fucking know what to do because I don't want to push too hard and ruin our friendship but I also can't let this go because the thing we're arguing about is something that's not healthy or safe for her. What if i've already broken our friendship? Fuck fuck fuck, no, I don't know what to do.
I just...is it so bad that I don't want my best friend to lose her virginity until she's married?

/hugs/
I feel personally that that argument isn't worth destroying a friendship over. I know that it's tough when you have strong personal beliefs on those kinds of things, but if it really does come down to it, your friendship is more important than being stubborn about her virginity. If she wants to listen to you, that's great. I just wouldn't advise being too stubborn about it if it's going to ruin an amazing friendship.

https://www.kidpub.com/book-page-or-...ury-1857158462

everyone that deals with self-injury (cutting, etc) needs to visit this immediately

what if i... stopped?

ohhh my gosh please please please write it. even if it is never published but you share it with close friends, your friend's friends, writing websites... it can have soo much impact on other's choice to live. it would be so amazing if you wrote it! :) i would be a big fan, for sure.

hey so I just started writing bits and pieces of it but one part is here:
https://www.kidpub.com/book-page-or-...ury-1857158462

you know it's just hard when I'm being followed around by this fear that I'm not really good enough?? I have no idea why, but it seems like maybe I'm not good enough of a friend, and i know I can't "save" people per se but I wish I could at least help???? the other thing is that people like to assume that since I'm so busy loving on them and helping them out, I know what I'm doing. and that is such bullshit.

WHY am I so paranoid -___- (i say after checking under the bed to see if there is a person under there bc that's always a possibility. or behind the shower curtain. or in the covers. i left the closet in the corner alone and didn't go near it because i don't even want to know and it's probably safer in the event of someone hiding in the closet for me to pretend i don't know about it the logic just makes sense to me. this is prolly bc the room is technically outside the house and the door has to be unlocked so someone can come wake me up and my parents arent here at the moment so i am irrationally scared and i thought maybe voicing it will make me less scared and i will go read fanfiction now so I can maybe fall asleep not scared)