I Want To Die

/hugs/ you'v gotta find some way to stop this because it will drive u insane so pls tell your therapist or your psychologist bc it will help

don't do that pls, I think you're great and that would upset me and a shitload of other people

this doesn't happen all the time though so idk whether it's actually important or not.. ;3;

hey, but if you die, you won't ever see how life will get better. i promise you it will. please stay alive. i love you so much. i don't know if this'll matter to you, but i'm keeping you in my prayers.

tomorrow's the last day of school and i know im going to cry already lol

cx debate camp. three weeks.
here's a helpful list of everything that could possibly go wrong.
1. i run out of money
2. I don't like anybody
3. Nobody likes me
4. My roomate and me don't get along
5. I lose/break my laptop/phone
6. I lose every single debate bc I'm horrible at debate oh my god
7. I get homesick
8. I get hopelessly bored
9. I get super depressed
10. I get abducted or murdered the first time I take a cab going to sravani's house

hey
1. come prepared
2. if u don't like anyone then they're probably not worth liking
3. that's their loss bc you're great
4. that would be awkward but on the bright side you'll never have to see them again afterwards (and also im sure you'll get along fine with the others c: )
5. eeee take good care of it ur electronic devices have my blessing they will be fine
6. from what i know you're awesome at debate and if you lose its a learning experience ^.^
7. /hug/ happens to everyone but occasionally talking to family if you have time/bringing stuff on the trip that reminds you of home can help
8. boredom sucks, bring stuff that'll entertain i guess. but also since it's a camp there probably won't be too much free time to get bored hopefully
9. text me!! ill talk to u/ try to help :^)
10. tbh if it were me id have the same fear without a doubt. just try to think about how unlikely that outcome is and how there are like a billion more people in the world and many in texas who will get a cab during that time that could get kidnapped so why you? just. idk. overthinking is a menace but probability is somewhat calming (like when i went on the really scary rollercoaster i was remembering how more people die on average on the way to an amusement park than on a rollercoaster) but yeah. u will be fine and it will be an uneventful ride and we will have loads of fun k? c:
idk if this list was for you to feel better about the trip or just your actual insecurities but regardless i hope it's a fun trip bc it seems like one and u deserve fun!! 8D

why does anything matter if i'm not perfect
i should be dead

no no no ily we all love you
no one's perfect, i know im not thats for sure, but you know what? everything would be so freaking boring if you were perfect.
we're all here for you meera! if you need to talk or something dont hesitate to click my contact tab :)

this is amazing thank u :') and yeah I plan to just chill and listen to music in the taxi and try not to think about how much I hate public transport xp