sometimes i hate life

are you ever so frustrated that it gives you anxiety?
and ur like "not now shaky fingers it's time to be mad"
and your fingers are like "oops????????"

YES.
AND ALSo i am doing a duet with one of my bestest friends for a talent show and i am so excited bc platonic bae

ugh. i wish i wanted to live. i really do.

do I have too much faith in the human race, am I just clinging at straws to keep myself sane?

I've seen what I can have faith in. It can get as dark as it wants; no matter how many people in the world don't know what good is, no matter how many people don't want to know, I've seen, there are always those few who do. This world can be swallowed up in the darkness; there are going to be those few people who band together to keep looking for light and joy and love. Those people make the entire world worth preserving. Those few turn the night into a sunset, or a dawn.

We're all seekers. We only truly fail when we stop seeking.

Like in Silent's poem, "the wild are the remnant."

that sounds like a password.

if darkness swallows up the world in our lifetime, I will say to everyone I meet, "the wild are the remnant."

if someone says that to you, say back, "the remnant are the seekers."

i don't know what to do i don't know what to do it's between my friends and sharing an incredible experience with them at a new place and a little girl that i've fallen in love with a girl who cried so much when i left a girl i cried so much for when i left a girl i love to death and i might not have the opportunity to see again

last year i went to guatamala for a week on a school trip with none of my friends. i went with four girls a year above me who were really great and nice and open and let me join their friend group for a week but i kept on missing my friends at home and i had an amazing godchild who i love to pieces and i told her i would come back and i have other friends there too: a boy who doesn't like speaking spanish because it's his third language, after the native language of his village and after english and a boy who was semi fluent in english who the other girls said had a crush on me and a my godchild's little brother and one of the other girls's godchild who liked me more then her because she had a doll with blonde hair and i have blonde hair.

but i missed my friends and i kept on dreaming of going back with them and introducin them to my guatamalan friends. my guatamalan family at the orphanage. but the lists came out and i'm going to guatamala and ALL of my friends are going to honduras and i don't know what to do. the only other girls going to guatamala aren't my friends and never talk to me and i don't know them and i know i wanted to go back with my friends to see my goddaughter

i don't know i don't know i don't know

i think i could transfer to the honduras trip but i don't know my goddaughter. my parents say we might go back some other time, just my family or something, but i don't know.

i don't know i don't know.

i have an 89 in math it is Death Time and no college will accept me

if it makes you feel better I have two Cs rn
it's still September and your grades are gonna flop around so don't worry about it :]

i have 0 redeeming qualities other than my grades and i HAVE to get into a good school no question about it
thanks for trying though

aww that's a tough decision, im sorry :/
i'm sure whatever you choose will end up being the right decision in the end :) remember im here for you if you need me