I'm just really scared because I'm incredibly self doubting and I'm not lying in saying that she's better than me at least partially academically like she's at a way higher level of math and her grades are statistically better than mine even though we try the same or harder (hella frustrating) but like I know that there are so many more people out there than me and I'm just scared because I haven't heard back in the amount of time I was supposed to. And I'd really actually like to go here just like the people and the vibe and the programs ahdjdjd
Thanks so much. I got much hopes up today but I was just another financial aid thing sogh

hey i know how you feel. i wish i could help but all i can do is relate. *sad pat on the back*

i haven't even finished an application and im so stressed and terrified of the future. i don't want to graduate and leave. at this point, i don't think i can handle college; i can't do the simplest things because of anxiety and i don't even know if where i go will be good. but at the same time, i don't want to stay while all my friends leave. it'll feel empty and ill feel like a failure and it feels like a lose-lose situation. im so terrified and burned out.

let me just say that your alternate option may not be as bad as it seems. in comparison to the school you want to get into, it might, but hey, the fact that you applied there itself is an achievement and congrats for getting through the application process at least! i don't know what to say for support but im rooting for you! good luck and i hope that things work out! if you need to vent about college stuff you can always email me through my contact tab and i can scream about the future with you ^.^

This is kinda like me and my (brief girlfriend), actually. Unfortunately. I'm definitely not saying this will go that way at all. It might turn out completely different.
But my girlfriend was in your place, and she asked me and w e hooked up and then I realized I fucked up because I wasn't attracted to her sexually and just in a romantic way and she wanted that other aspect as well.
Which was unfortunate
And now we're not really friends anymore which hurts
But I don't know that what you what could go anything like that. I did think I should warn you though. However much being unrequited means, it hurts a whole damn lot to break up on somebody...

I unfortunately do not have much advice, having had only one fiasco of a relationship. So thing to consider: is he out already? Only to certain people? Does he seem interested in others aside for simple things /which are understandably frustrating incrushed on my BFF for a year and a half/? Is he questioning something/having problems of any large Ish variety? Idk if any apply but they might be why he doesn't want to do much more

It doesn't matter anymore
He just texted me
He doesn't ever want to be friends again

Wow wtf
I'm so fuckin sorry man
That's a shit move wow are you okay?

Yeah I'm okay but
I'm not just gonna ignore him or even seem desperate I'm still gonna say hi as I walk by and acknowledge him
Fkn hell

All right. Well, I'm sorry he pulled that shit.
Wow. I'm just gonna string shit together in my head that I won't say about thisdick y I know so little about but I'm glad you're okay.

FUCK YOU AND YOUR FUCKING LIES
YoU SAID IT WOULDNT BE LIKE THIS LAST TIME
AND THAT YOU WOULDNT HOLD A GRUDGE AGAIN AGAINST ME
AND WHAT DO YOU FUCKING DO
YOU DO IT ALL AGAIN FUCKWIT
I WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOU BUT OBVIOUSLY YOU DON'T WANT THAT BECAUSE YOU KEEP ON DEMANDING ARGUMENTS FROM ME AND I HAVE TO GIVE YOU WHAT YOU FUCKING WANT DON'T I YOU PIECE OF SHIT????
I'M SO FUCKING DONE

hey, max, while i don't know what you're going through, and i know you'll probably ignore this, and that's okay, but

i know you deserve so much better. that kind of person doesn't deserve you if they're going to treat you like that. please don't beat yourself up over this. honestly, it's their loss.