Quote:
Originally Posted by TheAshWolf
(Post 345607)
I hate how I can be on Cloud 9 for a whole day, and then have my joy unraveled in less than ten minutes.
Reasons I have to be happy about this October:
- Going to an amusement park soon,
- I'm making great strides in editing WOT,
- School is finally going well,
- It's cooling down earlier than normal! O_O WE'RE ACTUALLY GOING TO HAVE AN AUTUMN! :'3
- 2NE1's new album comes out this month, (they're my favorite singing group)
- I heard Jeff Lynn is going to remaster some of E.L.O. (Electric Light Orchestra)'s biggest hits, including Mr. Blue Sky, (which I saw a music video preview with the audio all cleaned up and amazing) PLUS he's putting out a new album! :'D (E.L.O. is my 2nd favorite group. Whovians? You should know their songs from that one totally random episode. XD Y'know, with that assimilater alien and the girl stuck in the brick.)
Reasons why I feel horrible right now:
- The Internet isn't safe, no matter what site you're on,
- I am forced to hide behind a pen name and most likely won't put a picture of myself on the back of WOT when I publish purely because the world isn't safe, even though I want to do that in the worst way,
- I hate Spanish in school to a degree incomprehensible by any teacher,
- The world is full of heartless morons--old farmer gets eaten alive by his own pigs, story gets into the news, and people think it's FUNNY. e_e
- Plus more stuff I'm not even going to mention. x_x
...I feel like I want to cry, but I can't make the tears surface. I feel like I want to just go sleep the day away, but I can't fall back asleep, plus I have schoolwork to do. I feel like I want to scream at someone, but I love everyone around me and I don't want to hurt their feelings or disrupt their day.
http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mag5oyC16F1rsaze3.gif
... Maybe watching Hetalia will cheer me up...
|
I saw Austria... sparkly Austria (I want to lick him...) **THIS IS A REFERENCE TO SOMETHING FRANCE SAYS IN SEASON FOUR... X'D**... and I just had to reply.
I've been feeling pretty badly lately too, that's true, plus I've been having a lot of growing pains in the muscles in my legs (more like growing floppiness... x_x My muscles are suddenly too busy "growing" to have any energy left over for running or working out...) so I haven't been able to do anything, I'm still paranoid about how I look, turns out I was getting a little on the malnourished side (by the way, I read your reply... thank you so much. <:^j I only have a limited amount of time on here so I didn't get to reply but I just want you to know how much your replies and support means to me. <:^J) judging by the craziness that started happening on my skin. x_x So... you're not alone on the whole general feeling-bad thing.
But the fact that you're not letting yourself put a picture on the back of your book, even though you want to, is bothering me. <:^C ASH!! Come on! There's no reason to be afraid like that; it's your book, for crying out loud, you deserve to be able to put your face on it! :< There's no reason to be afraid; all those other KidPubbers have done it, I've already done it tons of times and I'm not even published (I uploaded a butt ton of photos onto dA the other day, as you know :P)... the internet is full of faces. Now, if you didn't WANT to put your face on WOT, I wouldn't even be talking about this, but the fact that your paranoia is stopping you from doing something that every author dreams of--having their smiling face put proudly on the back of their work--makes me sad. <:^C I hope that, whatever your decision may be, you can reach it soon and be happy with it... I mean, aslhdhsjkad, of COURSE it's safe! x_x alsdlkakldjasl!
Um... about the farmer thing... I'm not sure what to say... o_O And I'm pretty sure that the other people feel the same, and that's why they're laughing.
I want to sleep too. I don't want to go to school, I don't want to face the life that is approaching fast--I'm turning fifteen next year... ugh, I REALLY don't want to think about it--I simply want to ditch school, ditch my life, ditch this human body that I just can't come to terms with, and simply wander the beautiful fall heaven that has become of my town, painted with reds and browns and yellows with the sweet smell of autumn, wander it forever... downstairs my parents are discussing my volunteer hours/CAS programme and my mind is still struggling to wrap around it.
About Spanish... I can't really relate... :< I love foreign language classes more than life itself, I adore French, I adore writing it, I adore speaking in it, even if I may never be good enough to actually understand a French/Quebecois person. XD I may even start German and... yeah. All of my schoolwork is going really well, I love my math class, I love algebra, I love English class and I love the Odyssey and studying it... so I can relate to almost nothing about school. x_x But I mean, I do know some tips... you have to tell yourself that you enjoy schoolwork. You have to convince yourself that you're not in the mood to write or do anything else, that you're in the mood to do schoolwork. You have to persuade yourself, trick yourself into believing that you love it. x_x XD That's what I do.
But... when you get the chance... just take a break from life. :< Take a nice walk in the autumn, take a long shower, have a nap outside, listen to pretty music and fall asleep to it... something that can slow everything down for you so you can understand it better. :<
Meanwhile... here's Russia doing a dance for you to make you feel better. <:^J
http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lhtvx6SkNu1qbr1yc.gif
http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m7...l82po1_400.gif