(*bear hug*) I'm glad you're eating, but, man, PLEASE CONTINUE TO FIGHT THE NEED TO CUT! We're all rooting for you, and we want you to be happy. Please. Cutting won't solve anything. Just try to keep your mind occupied. Maybe text/email someone or read or write or watch TV. Anything to keep your mind busy and maybe change your mood.

im fucking done and empty and alone why did that have to happen why am i so fucked up whywhywh y

Heyyyy, Maggie, talk to me! <:^c (*hugs and gives hot chocolate*) I'm sure you're not really as messed up as you may think. And, even if you are, that doesn't matter! You're still beautiful and talented and worth a LOT to many, many people. <:^)

What happened, exactly?

You know how you have those embarrassing yet funny moments?










Yeah.



Definition? Me! 8D

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*Agrees*
Yes. This.

The beginning part sounds a lot like one of my BFF's. She's always texting a guy we both like. I mean liked. She told me....Really mean things he said on the text. :(

As for your problem, well, in summer, all kinds of things can happen, like you said. He could have lost it, he could have gone on vacation and then forgotten his charger or he could just be taking a break from social life all together. I don't think I'm the only one who takes breaks from KP, right? He could have just done that with his phone.

I'm sorry he's not answering, but don't take it personally. Does he like you? If he didn't already maybe during break he discovered he did, and hes nervous to text you. The possibilities are endless. But just know that all of us are here for you.

I'm sorry if you didn't want an answer to your post but it just reminded me so much of my friend, I just had to say something.

For all of you who are feeling depressed/whatever,

As a reader, I suggest reading/re-reading Wonder by R.J Palacio. It kinds of deals with similar topics, but it makes you feel motivational and happy. :)

If any of you are interested, heres the worst thing thats currently happening in my life:

OK, so every year my class and another class (each class is grades 4-6) goes to a sleep away camp for a week. I was in a cabin with my friend, my other friend (who happens to love gossip, as well as is a close friend to the monster I used to call a crush) and some other people who aren't important to the story.

One night, I, as usual, wanted to get some shut eye, but my two friends decided to talk about the gossip that had recently sprung up. (a 4th and a 6th grade like thing) Somehow, they got to the topic of my friend, lets call her N's, texting with a boy who at the time, both N and I liked. N said, "Are you sure you want to hear it? Are you sure?" My other friend Z agreed happily and I think I moan "be quiet" or something, but I think N took that as a yes.

"So, I was texting P (the guy) and I asked him which of the fifth grade girl he liked. I asked him, do you like Panda?" His answer? "NO," N said "why not" P said. "She looks like a pig." I'm sensitive about my nose, OK? And that hurt me a lot. Maybe my freind heard my crying in the bunk beneath hers but she quickly added that he had texted "JK" after what he said. That doesn't help, OK?

ANd the worst part of it all? I have no one to turn to, no sympathy WHAT SO EVER! My friends think I'm jealous of N for being able to text him and they think that I'm being stupid for caring about his message, because he added "just kidding" to the end of it, my parents think I'm to young to like someone, so they're not an option, I can;t even say something that would normally work with bullying because he said it in a fudging TEXT behind my BACK. I just... I don't know what to do anymore!

I thought I was over it, but apparently I'm not. I thought I was writing this just so everyone would see it's easy getting over these things but I'm not anymore! I thought that after crying myself to sleep for a month would erase the memory, but it didn't.

I'm glad I have a break from seeing him in class, but next year we're in the same class and my friends have an obsession with a certain table we sit at EVERYDAY which just happens to be a few steps from P's table. I don't know how I'm going to survive with having to face someone who hates me everyday.

And all during 5th grade, sometimes I would glance at him, and see that he's looking at me. It was all just a BIG JOKE! I'm sorry for wasting anyones time, I just had to tell someone the whole story.

That's horrible!!! Someone who treats you like that don't deserve a girl as epik as you, Panda.