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venika 07-13-2014 11:21 AM

Ugh. I just feel really moody and annoyed lately. Meh. -_-

HeatherB 07-13-2014 01:13 PM

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 547999)
you guys i wiggled my ass on the toilet and i physically moved the toilet across the floor and i am so scared right now

bro. is ur toilet ok


FUCK MY PARENTS ARE SO OVERPROTECTIVE AND OVERBEARING AND THEY NEED TO BE DIVORCED LIKE NOW BECAUSE THEY ARGUE SO MUCH BUT THEY DON' TEVE N 'B L EI V E ' IN D I V ORCE BU THeY JUST KEe P FIHGINTG?????????? why

blossom 07-13-2014 04:00 PM

bro im concerned for all of u

i want to give u guys fresh italian food and warm toasty blankets and a bunch of pillows and free netflix to watch whatever shows u want

just please be ok folks ily all <3

AlgebraAddict 07-13-2014 04:13 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 548102)
bro. is ur toilet ok


FUCK MY PARENTS ARE SO OVERPROTECTIVE AND OVERBEARING AND THEY NEED TO BE DIVORCED LIKE NOW BECAUSE THEY ARGUE SO MUCH BUT THEY DON' TEVE N 'B L EI V E ' IN D I V ORCE BU THeY JUST KEe P FIHGINTG?????????? why

no idk what is wrong with my bedroom toilet but i refuse to use it again

ack I know what parents like that are like. imao it's pointless to keep persisting in a marriage that obviously is not working out but idk what people do is their own business until it starts screwing up their kids' lives so yup





Ugh.


Okay.


I am thirteen years old. I am supposed to be enjoying life. Well, I'm not. I'm sorry, but I don't want to be like this. I don't want to be homeschooled because I need to work out my crap. I don't want to be in therapy. I don't want to be another screwy teenager. I have begun to hate my house so much. It's a prison cell, and I know I'm supposed to be cherishing the moments I have at home, but I have no freedom. I have no life. I can do nothing; I can't even take on a job or go abroad on a missions trip because I'm too fucking young. You know what sucks? Being a kid. Especially being a thirteen year old girl who is supposed to have besties and crushes and drama and instead has- nothing. I have a "best friend" who is a flaky little bitch and a crush who barely sees me anymore and is in love with another girl. It's supposed to be summer. I'm supposed to be happy. What's wrong with me?

you see I do not want to be thirteen. I want to be an age where I can actually do something that someone gives a shit about and not babysitting or lawnmowing. I want to travel abroad, tour the world, I do not want to be stuck doing nothing in the middle of fucking new mexico. I want to have a life outside of my parents and my home and my mental incapabilities. Is there something so wrong with wanting to be twenty one and in college and poor and independant and saying what i want and doing what i want and being who i want?

It's raining. Eh.

Lily09 07-13-2014 09:00 PM

i spent the week at a teen camp at a monastery and it was so peaceful and amazing. i thought meditating and practicing breathing mindfully would be boring but i actually felt so connected there. it wasnt just about meditation and buddhism and i genuinely think i will make it past 18.

pluzzle 07-13-2014 09:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 548177)
i spent the week at a teen camp at a monastery and it was so peaceful and amazing. i thought meditating and practicing breathing mindfully would be boring but i actually felt so connected there. it wasnt just about meditation and buddhism and i genuinely think i will make it past 18.

r u back???

that's so awesome!!! i'd wanna do that. you will make it past 18 yes

HeatherB 07-13-2014 10:11 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 548177)
i spent the week at a teen camp at a monastery and it was so peaceful and amazing. i thought meditating and practicing breathing mindfully would be boring but i actually felt so connected there. it wasnt just about meditation and buddhism and i genuinely think i will make it past 18.

im so happy for you eli!!!!! <3

LaurenM 07-14-2014 03:35 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 548131)
no idk what is wrong with my bedroom toilet but i refuse to use it again

ack I know what parents like that are like. imao it's pointless to keep persisting in a marriage that obviously is not working out but idk what people do is their own business until it starts screwing up their kids' lives so yup





Ugh.


Okay.


I am thirteen years old. I am supposed to be enjoying life. Well, I'm not. I'm sorry, but I don't want to be like this. I don't want to be homeschooled because I need to work out my crap. I don't want to be in therapy. I don't want to be another screwy teenager. I have begun to hate my house so much. It's a prison cell, and I know I'm supposed to be cherishing the moments I have at home, but I have no freedom. I have no life. I can do nothing; I can't even take on a job or go abroad on a missions trip because I'm too fucking young. You know what sucks? Being a kid. Especially being a thirteen year old girl who is supposed to have besties and crushes and drama and instead has- nothing. I have a "best friend" who is a flaky little bitch and a crush who barely sees me anymore and is in love with another girl. It's supposed to be summer. I'm supposed to be happy. What's wrong with me?

you see I do not want to be thirteen. I want to be an age where I can actually do something that someone gives a shit about and not babysitting or lawnmowing. I want to travel abroad, tour the world, I do not want to be stuck doing nothing in the middle of fucking new mexico. I want to have a life outside of my parents and my home and my mental incapabilities. Is there something so wrong with wanting to be twenty one and in college and poor and independant and saying what i want and doing what i want and being who i want?

It's raining. Eh.

It's not.
I mean, it is raining, probably, or it was. It's not wrong about wanting to be twenty-one and etc.
I personally have a life that's 80% based on school and therefore I'm scared of leaving it because where the fuck will I go?
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 548177)
i spent the week at a teen camp at a monastery and it was so peaceful and amazing. i thought meditating and practicing breathing mindfully would be boring but i actually felt so connected there. it wasnt just about meditation and buddhism and i genuinely think i will make it past 18.

Good! That's awesome.

L.S.Trendom 07-14-2014 05:24 PM

SEXUALiTY IS CONFUSING AND I AM FRUSTRATED AND ANGRY ROOOOAAAAAR BUT OH WELL
i am also tired

arcticeli 07-15-2014 04:09 AM

My hand still hurts
Itís throbbing actually
And my limbs- - theyíre shaking
All I can ask myself is why
Why the fuck was that necessary
It wasnít necessary
It was an overreaction
Why why why why
I didnít mean to break the goddamn glass
And of all the things I could have broken
I broke a wedding gift
Because Iím such a fuck up
My voice can get so loud
So so so so so loud
And I yelled at my little brother
And I yelled at my mother
And why why why why
I love them
It was an overreaction I promise
I canít explain
I canít explain and so I get mad
Mad mad mad mad
Mad as fuck
I donít know why
I feel bad
I broke the glass
The glass was a wedding present
Fucking fuck
I broke a fucking wedding present
And all the glass looks sad and shattered now
In a little pile
I didnít use my fist because Iím a coward
I used a ball
I broke the remote too
Or at least all the batteries popped out and they
Scattered on the floor
My hand still hurts
Itís throbbing a little
And maybe thereís going to be a bruise
Iím all silent
And I have to write a letter that Iíve promised
Myself Iíd write every day
I canít explain myself
Or no one understands or something
And I donít want to be like every other fucking teenager
Whoís decided that no one cares about them
Because I know people care about me a lot
Whoís decided that no one understands them
Because I know there are people like my mother
Who understand as much as an external mind can
I canít even tell in my twisted-up thoughts whether
All of that breaking was drama
I feel shaky
Why why why why
I had no reason to break that glass
It was an overreaction
Why why why why what the hell
I canít convey what Iím trying to say
So I guess my emotions have decided
To just get angry
Because angry is so easy
I yelled at my little brother
I yelled at my mother
I didnít mean to
It just all came bloodying out
Iím not like this
Iím shaky
Because I didnít mean to break that glass
Or hit the wall with the palm of my hand
I donít want my little brother
Remembering his older brother as an angry
Person because I donít think I am
Oh god what was I thinking
I wasnít even thinking
I broke that glass
That mirror because it was the easiest thing to break
When I threw the ball a little bit of me
Thought that maybe it wouldnít even break
But it broke
I was mad
Iím not mad anymore
My hand hurts
And Iím shaky
Why why why why
I donít know what I doing
It was an argument again
I felt like my character was being attacked
I donít know
I just want it to stop
Weíve had the same goddamn conversation
Over and over and over and over again
And Iím tired of it
Itís useless
Storming out
I donít know Iím mad mad mad mad
But why why why why
Did I break that glass
That mirror
What the fuck was I thinking
Iím shaky shaky shaky shaky
I need to wake up tomorrow
So I can figure out how to balance myself
Gahgahgahgahgah
I didnít mean to break the glass
I want to scream and not in the good way
Wtfwtfwtfwtf
I didnít mean to break the glass
I broke my computer too
Break break break break
It wasnít necessary
It was an overreaction
They must all think Iím crazy
Or the fact that I was watching a tv show
My mom didnít approve of meant a lot to me
My hand hurts
Itís not throbbing as badly anymore
Iím still shaky
Shaky shaky shaky shaky
What the hell was that
That wasnít me
I was so mad
But what was I so mad at
Gahhhh
I didnít mean to break the glass
I feel like crying


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