thank you so much ily

i think im gonna tell my parents how i feel bc my sister has anxiety and depression and she'll be able to help me (she's a doctor too)

a girl told me that i should hang myself and i said probably and she just looked at me like !111?!? I SAID IT BY ACCIDEnt oops

im wearing a jumper and fuck it's hot. edit: i took the jumper off and bc so HOT and i was hiding my arm like ALL lesson (before i put it back on) and i accidentally put my hand up and i heard a whisper then i remembered ugh

laurel, i know im not going to need it but what's therapy like? for you i mean

edit 2: how do i tell them how does this work off 2 google i go!!!

edit 3: thanks google i 'just need 2 tell them' fuq u
edit 4: actually im super pissed right this is what happened. i was in drama with my best friend and a girl that bullies me occasionally in a group and we were working on performing tongue twister with pace and making it into a little scene and i messed up a line (tbh i got the hardest one.)
and im like 'ugh i should' (was about 2 say do that again)
and she just butts in and says hang yourself?
and im like hjhfkhjkghjkgfhkjdf just when i don't fukkin need this when im triggered most ugh so i said probably
I MEANT IT 2 BE A MUTTER FUCK
and then she says 'lol jokes'
and im like U DARE

should i go to my year level co ordinator about this bc that's really not on tbh

idk for me it's a lot of crying and emotional distress but thats just me i mean idk if thats how it's supposed to be or whatever
sorry this wasn't very helpful
i'm glad i was able to help you *hugs back*

no no it's ok sorry i shouldn't have asked u that's a rude question im sorry

So I re-read the chapters before Tris's death, at Tris's death, and after Tris's death to see if now after a while I would have a different reaction. I was so sad and devastated for her, for Tobias. She was only 16 guys! And she made the sacrifice for her older brother, she is such a good sibling, but now Caleb doesn't have her anymore, because she is dead. She was so young, but she is dead now and that is so stupid.

And I have a strong feeling now that I think about it that Jace will die in City of Heavenly fire, though think about it. If Sebastian were to turn good Clary could have a normal brother, mother, father, and even if Jocelyn and Luke were to have a child, another sibling. Plus she has Simon, Iz, and more people in her life to love her. I think that Jace will die. And I really don't want him to. THough I would rather Jace die then Iz or Simon. It already killed me when Max died. I don't care if Alec dies tho. But Jace, and Izzy. Jordan! Jordan probably will die! I don't like thinking about this! STOP IT! STOP IT!

no, it's fine. don't worry about it, kay? it was a perfectly reasonable question to ask--and i've been asked the same thing on here before multiple times, so it's not like you're the first.

ok ok ok im still sorry though

it's okay, hon. it's not a big deal.

what??
thank you c:
nO no ok if you're thinking like this it is perfectly ok to put yourself before others and have some time out ok

I have some things to say. Bare with me.
Okay so I just finished Divergent and I'm kind of dying and crying and I can't wait to start the next one tomorrow. Udjdnebdb mixed emotions.
Next topic. I started health class today. And in fifth grade, you learn all about the adventures of motherfking puberty and all that shit and it was going fine and stuff and I was like, maybe these bitches are actually mature enough to not laugh at this stuff and be bitchy, but they proved me wrong amd ugh I just hate fifth graders so much okay. So immature and rude and fjjfdndkx.
On another note about health class, it is so fricking stupid that they separate boys and girls in my class. Like I heard boys in my class having a debate today over whether vagina was a bad word. THEY HAVE NO CLUE OKAY THEY NEED TO KNOW ABOUT GIRLS STUFF AND WE NEED TO LEARN ABOUT BOYS STUFF M'KAY.
Last topic I promise you. There's this guy that is such a fking douche okay. Every time he opens his mouth he pisses me off. Talking about how girls are so "helpless, and stupid, and can't amount to anything" and making fun of gay people and just being such a dickhead. His locker is next to mine and a few days ago while I was getting my stuff he was talking to his friend at his locker but I wasn't listening and his friend goes "Camille you didn't hear what he just said did you?"
Me: "no. Why?"
Dicky McDickhead: "good. Imagine me explaining that one to the principal."
Me: "you know what? I don't even want to know what you said, k?"
Friend of Dicky McDickhead: "Man, Camille is so quiet. I've never heard her speak."
Me: *slams locker* *storms off* *hears laughing*
UGH I HATE THEM SO MUCH THE LITTLE ASSHOLES.

...okay looking over this post I sound incredibly bitchy and annoying so I apologize. Sorry sorry sorry.