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Doing drugs is a really bad decision like really really really bad. It's a waste of life, honestly. Just please really think it through before actually doing it :c all it takes is one try for you to get addicted, and while you're still in school is the worst time possible for you to try it. It could ruin your life. Just please take all of the precautions you can if you do decide to do it :c
Sorry for so forcefully pushing my opinion on you, its just my friend's brother got addicted and then he had somebody inject him, and either he was given too much or something was wrong, but he went unconscious and never woke up again. She's really torn up about it. You may think it will help you somehow, help you get away from it all, but it will just make everything worse. Please please please be careful :c

haha oops so like a lot of my friends have at least tried weed and i've sorta considered it. but like only 'cause it's not addictive or very harmful (however i think maybe doing it long term may be dubious but idk)
just ya be uber careful about your source and do NOT do synthetic weed or anything more hardcore

haha so funnily enough my journal is no longer a completely safe place to vent (altho tbh in a way it kinda never was bc self-judgement but anyways)
'cause like i let sam read it sometimes now so like i can't express fear about us
nor can i text anyone about it really
mreh
and ugh i feel weird fuck fuck fuck

life is terrifying and like how someone who has been a huge part of another's life for almost two decades can just suddenly stop being part of their life
like not death although that's terrifying too
but like
just
after college idk if i'll really keep in contact with my family and like i have no emotional connction with them but ufck the thought is depressing

and i really hope there's an after life fuck

fuck i wish i could be with someone right now

hey no you're rad! both of the actions you discussed are not good and you shouldn't consider them good! no matter how unwanted you think you are, you are wanted and people care about you! i know i do!

whatever happened at your dad's, try as hard as you can to get somewhere safe. maybe an aunt or uncle, or if that can't happen, back to your mom's if that's your only other option?

there's Heaven and Hell, but you've most likely heard that right?

how old are you bro? just wondering

about the venting, if venting is something that makes you feel better you could use the notes section on your phone or ipod. however i don't want to condone the self judgement.

(and about the drugs, same thing goes--please don't. there's always a risk. and this may not mean much to you but personally i think it's wrong/maybe a sin. idk you're still chill and stuff but i just want you to not be involved with that bc it's still a bad idea.)



stay strong everyone!!!

Aww thanks guys.
I was just a little hurt because one of my friends who I was really close with at the beginning of the summer (texting every day, and love and hugs and such), is talking to me a lot less and she is on vacation and took her other friend. I know it sounds a little selfish, I'm just wondering if I did something to piss her off or something. I don't want to loose her.
Thanks a lot guys. I appreciate it. :)

Think I'm a nice person?
Ha, you're wrong.
Think I'm a good person?
Ha, you're wrong.
Know why?
I don't believe in "good."
What is a so-called good person?
Nice?
I guess it exists.
But I'm not.
Trust me.

how I've changed

loll yeah i'm joking c: i mean coldplay is amazing but that might be a lil' odd

plus i have too many religions to follow already c:

well today kind of sucked