I'll send this guy on their trail...
http://www.scenicreflections.com/fil...paper_JxHy.jpg

Thanks for the help. :3

And Transformers G1&Prime, Strawberry Shortcake, and Pound Puppies :)

See? Having a father who has eye problems and a missing finger is great. Yes, he actually does.

Amazing!!!!

Woah, sweet. XD

Why is it great?

Sauron, main antagonist of Mordor, lives in this tower

http://twistedthoughtentertainment.c...-of-sauron.jpg

And he got his finger cut off by the son of the king, Isildur.

o_o Feel free to ignore this.


-__- I don't know what's wrong with me.

I WANT to write. But...I just can't focus. At all. I write one sentence, and then my brain just gives up. And I hate it. I hate how I can't think of synonyms and can't organize my ideas and can't get the words to come out right and can't write dialogue.

This whole numbness thing has been hanging over my head for months, but it suddenly got worse about a month ago, right when all this stress piled up on me. I think that's it...this whole huge family issue has made doing anything feel like it's totally useless. I can't seem to cook food right anymore. I don't clean as much as I used to. I can't seem to enjoy my favorite songs. Nothing tastes good. Nothing sounds fun. All I want to do is curl up on the couch with someone I care about (though I don't know exactly who that person would be) and cry for a little bit, then go to sleep for a year. I KNOW if I can just cry it out, I'll feel better, but...I just...can't. I'm too steeled over. Too numb. Too apathetic of everything. And yet, I want it to stop. I've tried everything I can think of, but nothing works. I can't bring myself to be anything but numb or outraged or horribly lonely. And that means I can't write, because I can't describe the emotions my characters are feeling if I don't feel them myself.

...And you know what? Through it all, every time I feel lonely, there's only one person I seem to want to be with. And...it makes no sense to me at all. I want to be with my character Charlie when I'm feeling lonesome. Not my friends, not my family. They really haven't been able to help me. A lot of them just made it worse. All I want is to hang out with Char for a while...vent a little bit, then watch some movies together, maybe go on a bike ride or a walk, then curl up on the couch together and go on a YouTube music spree. I don't know why that's the first thing my brain comes up with when I'm feeling lonely, because I know all of that is totally impossible...but.....I don't know. I just don't know anything anymore...

NO. :^P

I don't know what you've been going through with your family, but it sounds like you're just really, really stressed. Don't try to write anymore — Just take a nice, long break. In fact, treat yourself to some relaxation time when it comes to cleaning and cooking as well. You're not useless or pathetic; you're just exhausted. And I think it will affect your writing (and everything else) if you try to force it. It could be hormones as well, though I don't know much about those, only that they drive you up a wall most of the time. X_x Or maybe it's just "one of those days." I've felt the same way before, and it comes and goes. Find something new and fun to do for yourself to keep your spirits up and keep you occupied. It'll pass, I'm sure. Hang in there. :^)