Someone please tell me I'm not the only one who STILL can't log in. >_>

I can log on.

I can log on just fine. O.o

Oh. *awkward cough* Sorry 'bout that, then.

Emotionally tired, then? If so, then that's exactly what I've been going through the past five months. It comes and goes for me, lately, but I find that's just because I've been able to retreat into some quiet days. >_>

Hope you feel better, Tredom...<:^/ Actual rest helps, too, you know.

You aren't.

Tenchar

this is amazing...........

It's okay. c:

Yeah. *hugs* If you ever need to vent, I'm here.

i doubt i will, and i know going to sleep won't help.

shh

you mean everything to us.
you are perfect.
please don't feel this way

okay I'm going to church now

for Pascha

excuse me while i flail my arms and scream

i don't know what happened or if i ever will but i wish i did

What's wrong? D:

Well well well.
I'M HAPPY.
YAAAAAAY. :'D

i'm confused, i don't know what happened, i don't if i was something along the lines of betrayed. though really it's not that important, what happened exactly, i guess, because of the results, but still.
and yeah *gestures at pretty much every recent vent of mine*

yay
good for you!

my abs hurt

weeeeell


I survived.



I actually passed out right after the service



but I eventually survived without a total emotional breakdown.

:D That's great!

Good job, AA! :D

AND THAT IS REALLY REALLY AWESOME PLUZZLE! *Glomps*

Pluzzle!

huggiehuggiehuggiehuggiehug

Awesome!
Glad to hear that.
:3

It was just an afternoon. I was just lying in bed. But I thought about school tomorrow and things swirled around my head, I went deaf to the music, and it went bad quickly. I couldn't make it one day clean. It's getting out of hand. I just need to remember to turn to music instead of blades, but when it's late and no one's up, I can't do anything. I guess I really do need an IPod. (Or at school, that's dangerous too.)

I really am trying, and I'm afraid of myself. There's something wrong with me.

.-.
Well. Things were looking up.
And then they went back down :c

My best friend is pretty much ignoring me, for what reasons I have no idea. I think she's mad at me. And then I'm messing up life with a lot of my other friends by letting them get to close. I can't let anyone close. Distance..... I need distance.

BLARGH. so many small things that really add up .-.

i feel you.

Yap.....
and then the awkward moment when your brother's old best friend is a better friend then your best friend and you realize it's been like that for a while .-.

hey, i don't like you
you don't like me either
but we're in the same class
deal with it please.
NOW TURN AROUND AND SHUT UP.
thanks!

Why did you pass out? What was in the service?

YAY!

Do you have an MP3 or something? A lot of things work, even an old phone.
Don't think about school. Unless you have something to deal with on that day.
And you're going to high school, right? You'll be leaving them soon.

Am I the only one who hates it when a certain person wants you to come over or to come over to your house EVERY SINGLE DAY?

Just wondering.

Yes. I have experienced that several times.

idk, just something i felt like saying (P.S. The Game)
 

it's been like a week since my mom mentioned therapy
when she was told that i cut and starve myself, the conversation lasted like a minute and was never mentioned again
when she asked if i was suicidal, also never mentioned
the day after she made me eat dinner (shortly after i threatened to stop eating), she told me/possibly joked about how i eat too much—also not mentioned
when i did 'go' to 'therapy' that one time, when the therapist asked my parents what they wanted out of therapy, my dad said, like, "i guess, i just want him to be happy." my mom said, "i want him to be less angry and more a part of the family."
wtf
ugh
i think the next time she tells me i eat too much maybe i should stop what i'm doing, throw my food away, tell her to fuck off, then audibly make myself vomit hahaha. (and then when/if she stops bugging me make food \o/)

i'm all for rebellion against your shitty parents as long as it doesn't involve harming yourself.
*huggles* are you going to therapy again?

I think i'd probs make brownies afterward so c:
I have no idea. >.>

also your mom is a shitty fuck like
to your mom:
your child is starving himself
telling him he eats too much is just going to trigger him into eating less

this pisses me off

but still, making yourself vomit can't be healthy.

Exactly.

There should be a meme for that: Scumbag Mom- with that caption Lily.

Your dad is okay, but your mum is a bitch.
Seconded.

Hey guys?
Just--
I haven't been on here for more than a month.
4-7-13.
All right, this is weird.
But just, hang in there. It will get better. Things will change. You will, too. Forgive yourselves. Start over. Whatever needs to be done will fall into place, okay?
You know what my favorite teacher told me right after my class had hiked a section of the Appalachian Trail for three days?
"You are stronger than you know. And hiking this proves it. You thought at the beginning that it would be hard, impossible, and you wanted to give up before you even started. The great thing about hiking is that you learn about yourself. That you have limits, but you very often underestimate yourself and end up not working to your best ability. In the wild, you have to work to your best ability whether you like it or not. You're pushing yourself, but only as far as you can go. You can stop any time, and rest. But to get out of the trail, and out of the woods, you have to keep going no matter how long it takes and how hard it is."
That's my paraphrasing, but yeah. Hiking is like life (actually, if you think about it, everything is like life). You are, indeed, stronger than you know. And living this, this hell that you guys go through, it proves it. You will always think at some point that it's too hard and too impossible but the way out will still be there--you just have to push yourself and go through it. You can stop, but you can't quit. Not when you're out there in the middle of the woods or your life and you're lost. You can't give up, especially then. Because once you're out, you realize that it made you better and stronger. And civilization, overrated as it is, sure beats getting eaten alive in nature.
I guess what I'm trying to say, as everyone on here is trying to do, don't give up. It will, it will, it will be worth it. I promise you. Everyone goes through hard times. Sometimes they seem petty in comparison to others' problems, but you know why? That's because your life is not other people's lives, no matter how similar they seem. You have been through what you've been through, and that affects how you're going to tackle the problems brought upon you today. If you're not used to a problem, it's going to seem really difficult. If you are, it's going to seem easier. That's just the way things are. But life is learned by experience. And if you're not experiencing anything at all, you're not living right.
Okay, my mom's yelling at me to get off the computer, but I think you get the point.
Love you all lots,
Heather

Do NOT hurt yourself to prove a point. Especially not a point like that to someone who is hurting you. It is not worth it. The stop what you're doing and telling her to fuck off sounds good, though. And maybe the throwing away food if you eat properly afterwards.
*hugs*
Eat however much you want if it makes you happy (in both the long and short run) and healthy. Hell, if being angry makes you happy, then be angry.

*hugs* Thank you so much. This made my day.

I can't guarantee to myself that I can even make it through these next two weeks of school, but at least I know I can try.



the screaming came back today. ._. I hate it when we just have to do, like, nothing in choir so my mind is free to go psycho on me.

I am a very confused individual at the moment, but I'm doing well. You?

I've taken up writing poetry. Most of it is kind of crappy, but I enjoy it. It's a good outlet.