|
Quote:
Yeah. Oh, ugh, I need to go to bed. :| |
Quote:
Quote:
|
So, hey, this is for all those who hurt :3
Hopefully this will cheer you up :) Excuse my voice, I sound real scratchy :/ http://vocaroo.com/i/s0ur9dmXjtH4 |
http://love-doesnt-bleed.weebly.com/
We have these things called Year End Projects at school. I did mine on Self Harm and Suicide through Adolescent Depression. This is my service project. Love you guys. You might hate me for doing something like this. Love you even more. |
Quote:
/hugs. (Probably not the suitable moment to run screaming with joy here) |
Quote:
Quote:
Lauren..o.O |
Quote:
:D I've finished my novel! |
Quote:
|
Quote:
Falling Maple Leaves? :O |
Quote:
Quote:
|
What's the fucking point anymore? I hate life. I hate coming home every day. My family hates me and I hate them back. Take this morning for an example: My brother was screaming at me, for a suckish reason because I wouldn't get out of the bathroom, and when I told him it was a suckish reason, he slammed the door on my ankle. Now it's swollen and bloody. See? That's the kind of thing I can't take anymore. I can't take any of it anymore. I can't take three more fricking years of this.
|
Quote:
And we feel there are so many reasons to give up. And I am not going to say you shouldn't be saying this, because there are other people with worse problems, because honestly, I think living in a disconnected family is more worse than not having one. I'll say that the people who pull themselves through this crap the world offers and fight past the pain, tears, and brokenness are the strongest. I believe you're of that strongest. Just hold on, okay? Promise me you will hold on. |
Quote:
Family doesn't mean much if you don't love them and vice versa. Your life can be wonderful when you leave them. Just stay strong, Calla. On another note, my parents are arguing again -_- About money. And what? I overheard them about sending me to an international school. What? whut I'm confused. |
Calla... I'm not saying what they are doing is right and I don't know the full story so I'm not even going to try and understand since I won't be able to, but they may not hate you. If you were gone, do you think they would be happy, really? No family can be. Even if they don't show it, I'll bet that they do love you... in some twisted way.
|
Quote:
You deserve better. :/ You're strong enough to survive, I promise. *hugs* |
I shouldn't have made that joke. It may have sounded a little cruel, but I didn't mean that way. Honestly, me and everyone around me could all tell that it was just a joke and not offensive. But you took it that way, and I'm sorry.
But you should have TOLD me that you were bothered by it. You didn't have to make it a big thing. You didn't have to tell everyone in math what a bitch I was. And you definitely didn't have to try to do it AGAIN, seventh period, when I was standing a foot away. And here's where it gets really unfair I guess, because when I called you out on it, in front of everyone, when I called you out on making a mild joke your reason to talk bad about me to EVERYBODY, you just told me not to be so mean to you. I've been such a good friend to you. I've talked you through your breakups and I've been friends with you when no one else would, when the girls you were talking about me to were calling you a whore behind your back. I helped you with your homework and I cheered you up when you were in a bad mood. I've never said anything mean to you before this. Ever. And you just took that and threw it away. And I'm so fucking ANGRY at you. |
sometimes/often i'm not sure if i want to laugh like hell and have an emotional breakdown, or crawl into a corner and cry and hurt myself and have an emotional breakdown, or both.
|
Quote:
*hugs* *gives candy* *hugs* I know what it's like. Just attempt to make it through each day, one day at a time. Of course, I haven't quite figured out the emotional breakdown part myself yet, so. |
you know when your friends makes a heavily triggering joke
and all you want you to do is scream but you grit your teeth and smile like its no big fucking deal and then you feel awful for the rest of the week |
Quote:
|
Quote:
oh my god yes. it's freaking horrible. Why is your arm bleeding, Esther? I pulled off a scab. ON PURPOSE? EEEEMMMMOOOO. |
See, I have the opposite of depression.
No, I'm not happy all the time. It's just that I feel a lot. Depression is numb, but I feel. I get happy. I get sad. But the most frustrating part is that I get really upset at things that shouldn't make me upset as they do. For example, I left a good camera (my dad's) at school the other day. My dad was totally chill about it, telling me that it's fine and he knows I tried and that we can just go back and get it. Me? I instantly kick myself (both literally and metaphorically) and cry and hate myself. And then I think about how stupid it is that I got so upset at myself and then I hate myself more. I start hating myself for hating myself, and it's really fugging frustrating because I CAN'T. STOP. I think I have stress and anxiety problems, but only directed at myself. I never get mad at other people, but I am my own worst bully. To me, there's no difference between a "little thing" and a "serious thing". I have an inability to pick my battles; I just fight and fight and fight and it's so tiring because I'm fighting myself so I have to do both sides of the fight, if that makes any sense. But I digress. Anxiety was what I was talking about, right? Yeah, anxiety. I get stressed really fast. Like, if there's a math problem I get stuck on, I'll have a mini panic attack, shut my notebook, and have to curl up in the fetal position on my bed with my hands clamped over my ears so I can hear my blood until I calm down. Then I might have to go to the bathroom or do something else for a while until I feel like it's "safe" to start up again. As far as I'm concerned, this isn't normal. So, yeah. There's my biannual sigh of emotions. Funny thing is that I didn't really feel anything while writing this. I think the only time I can vent is when I'm detached from the situation. |
Why is it every Friday you have to be there? I just want you out of the world, please. Or at least out of mine.
I don't want you to make fun of me. Please stop. I just want to be friends. That's all. Stop saying these rude comments. I don't appreciate them and I know that I cannot deal with it. So. It's better if you just stop. Please. |
Quote:
Alrighty. Who is this picking on you again? |
Quote:
It's just someone that was in my primary school that I don't like and he doesn't like me. I just don't know what to say to him. He keeps on calling me names and I want him to go away. GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY. Please? |
Quote:
All I can tell you to do is ignore him, from here buddy. If it continues, then go to an authority. Otherwise, seem indifferent about it. it won't be that much fun for him if his victim isn't responding. It's like trying to tickle someone, who isn't ticklish. It just DOESN'T WORK. |
Quote:
|
Quote:
But this is just another thing in life. It will pass, and you're strong enough to get through it. Because you're Max. Sooner or later he will realize there will come a day when the picking and pushing ends and it isn't funny anymore. |
Quote:
|
Quote:
You are strong enough. I have been picked on, for my beliefs, and I didn't care. In fact, I believe it made me stronger. I know you do. All you can do is tell him stop and from there, it's his decision. Whether he wants to be the jerk or not. |
Quote:
|
Quote:
|
Quote:
|
Quote:
|
NO GO AWAY SHUT UP GO AWAY AND YOU CAN PICK ON SOMEBODY THAT IS INTERESTING PLEASE SHUT THE HECK UP AND TURN AROUND.
Okay? |
Quote:
|
Quote:
Now I don't feel so alone :) |
Quote:
Scare him and see what happens >:) |
Quote:
You'll get through this, Max. I know you will. |
Quote:
|
| All times are GMT -4. The time now is 07:42 AM. |
Powered by vBulletin® Version 3.7.1
Copyright ©2000 - 2023, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.