Nince is one of Lauren and I's made up words.

On Skype, I mean. I found out one of my KP friends is a tomboy. :3

Well, it's an amazing word.

Well I was thinking about friends in real life though. I mean, if you were talking about gal friends on KP, then there's a whole bunch. xD

Not me though.
Friend isn't exactly my style.
I'm more an 'enemy' person.

Ahaha yes. You were more the closed off type, yes?

No no no, just the despising humanity type.
Although yes, closing myself off. Less so nowadays but it's creeping back.

wow i'm such a wuss i read one sad thing and now i'm close to tears it wAS A FANFICTION WHY AM I SO SENSITIVE RIGHT NOW DNOT TOUCHM E

Okay so my guy friend J, he's a year younger than me in school,
I gave him a dollar at an orchestra outing
AND HE FREAKING PAID ME BACK
That might not seem like such a big deal to any of you,
BUT HOLY HELL NO ONE'S THAT NICE ANYMORE
okay just
Level of faith/belief in life & humanity: +1
oh my gosh J
Thank you

I'm scared. It's immature of me, but I'm absolutely terrified.

I published my first novel, Storm, with KP. I wrote it when I was eleven. I think it sucks. I'm writing Shadow Realm right now, and I adore it. But I adored my first book, too. I'm so scared that I'll stop loving SR. My dad says I'll change again, because I'm at that fickle age, but hell... if changing means hating SR, I never want to change. I love SR. I love the characters. I love the plot. I love the world. I never want to let it go. I don't want to change.

Shadow Realm and Storm are different. You know you love them both.

The EXACT same thing happened to me the other day. Except my book wasn't published. I started to read a book I wrote only... 2 years ago? It was two or three years ago, and I absolutely loved it. And when I went back to read it a few days, I thought it sucked so bad. O_o It's true, our writing changes just like we do. So my suggestion is that you can let the characters live on like they are, and just keep on writing. And you can rewrite the same story, with maybe a few difference, and then you'll see the difference. We always changes, no matter what we want. We can't escape change and that's exactly what makes u progress further.

Without changes, you wouldn't be the author you are today. :p

Fall in love with your story. If you drift away, you drift away, but don't let it break your heart. :)

I left, and I came back but I feel no one has noticed. Oh well, I'll probably just leave again anyway.

Nikki, SR is different from Storm. I think it's your soul story. Just have faith in yourself, have faith in your story. They will live on in your heart, no matter what.

Confuzzled, I noticed. I did. Don't leave, please. Your writing is amazing and
Just don't leave
I'm using confuzzled instead of confused now. ;)

I miss them. And I can't ever see them again. My close family hates me for missing them but won't tell my why they hate them. I still miss them.

nobody cares no nobody cares so stop stinking whining because nobody cares what you think, autumn so just stop complaining and move on in your life forever alone because nobody wants to hear you complaining and stop feeling sorry for yourself because nobody is listening anyway.

Ello. You probably haven't heard of me, but my name is Garrett.
As I read this a strange idea popped up in my head. It would be extremely hard, but if you loved everything about it that much then you could write a NES (never ending saga) instead of a never ending story.
Then you would never have to give up the characters until they die of age. You could do backstories and then if you have more ideas that are too closely related to the ideas of SR you could add them onto the saga and have a bunch of books/books series in the end.
Just a thought.
And as your writing gets better and better, so will you stories in the NES, and then you will never have to give up the world and characters of SR and yeah …

this idea just sounded really stupid when I read it out loud to myself.
*facepalms*

:DDDDDDDD welcome back!!! And psch, I guess I'm nobody :c Cause I care! How have you been? :)

Yay I'm glad someone noticed and actually cares! And no, you are not a nobody, don't even let me get started on that. :) I am doing okayish... Working on some poetry and a new novel. How about you?

how do I know the most amazing people of all time


how is one of them my sister

one of them my best friend

one of them my personal romance

one of them the big sister I never had




I don't get it

I'm so fucking lucky

I don't deserve this

AUTUMN SMITH SHUT UP.
it is NOT OKAY for you to diss yourself like this and EVERYONE CARES. if everyone doesn't care, then I CARE, okay?
So now you've got that out of your system, quit dissing yourself and perk up.
Or I'm going to personally stalk down your whereabouts and give you a hug until you admit you're amazing and awesome and loved, okay?

My isolationist tendencies are creeping back.

I prefer to lock myself in my room than to speak.
I prefer to read at lunch and shut the world out than associating with my friends.
The other day I stayed in the school library until it closed, after my friends had gone, and in all that time I spoke about ten words.
And I don't see the point in leaving my room some days.
It's coming back.
I just want to be on my own and I don't see a problem with it.
I only come downstairs to eat, if my parents make me, and if there is something I like on television.

I'm cutting myself off from people. And I still don't care.

everything is just too difficult
i can't do it
not only can i not take anything, e.g living, i can't do it right when i have to.

i don't see the problem with that to be honest, Rebecca

wow?????? sorry????????? what do you expect me to say??????????

What's wrong?

Dear GOD my FATHER and his freaking MOOD SWINGS!

Idk I'm probably oversensitive right now because my happiness just took a dip below sea level but it seems like people are blowing up over everything.

Aww. *hugs* you'll be alright. We've all been through bad days. : )

Thanks *hugs back*

(It's been more like a bad week though hnnn).

Sure.

(Aww I know that feeling. :/ It's alright, though, itll pass soon. ^_^)

well

can i just

vent for a minute

okay so one there's family drama and my parents being the same as they always have (which is noT PLEASANT)

two there's my stress like first i fail a math test then i have 7000000000 midterms in one week like what and also i'm 900% sure i'm ocd because i have the fears that freak me out and the compulsions to try to be less stressed as well as other symptoms like being germophobic

three now there's friend drama added to the mix because i've been friends with these girls for at least three years and now one of them apparently just doesn't give an eff about me and i'm always the last person she thinks of if at all and the other is really manipulative and both of them tell me i'm faking freaking out and hnnnnnnnnnnn

okay. rant over.

haha im so fucking scared HAHAHAhahAH

Yes. Yes you can. I'm sorry all those things happen to you. I'm sorry that youre so stressed out.
It'll all come to pass. Do you want to email?

Okay so I just need to vent here because well, just because.

This past tuesday night my friend tried to kill herself. The event was very devastating to me and my friends because we never expected her of all people to do it. We did discover that she didn't REALLY want to die, but she did try. She took a whole bunch of tylenol at midnight and then told her mother in the morning. She had to have her stomach pumped and what not, and she's in a behavioral institute right now. She should be getting out tomorrow and she's doing better. This whole week I was really worried about her, but there were two things that were very personal to me that I didn't share to my friends about the whole situation because I didn't want to seem selfish.
To start, if she would have actually done it, this would have been my second funeral of someone very close to me just in the past year alone. The other one was my uncle, which was only in October. I, to this day, feel a lot of guilt for not saying anything to him when I visited him when he was still in the hospital. I don't know why, but I just feel a lot of guilt for not saying anything. My friend's death would have, and did, put even more guilt on me because there were a few girls being rude to her at school that day and I could tell something was off about her that day and I feel like I should have done something.
Another thing, I've never cut myself or done anything like that, but Tuesday night at around 12:00 I was up doing the dishes (I had just finished my homework and my dad required me to get the dishes done) and I grabbed a knife off of the counter to put in the dishwasher and for some reason I found myself centimeters from cutting my wrist. I don't know what drove me to get that close to doing it, I just kinda felt hopeless at the moment I guess and something felt wrong.

So yeah. I just needed to share because telling this to my friends just i don't even know anymore. I'm tired. Goodnight.

what happened


tori: don't start it is bad trust me kk ily

also I'm so sorry that your friend did that. i hope she's ok.



the only thing that's keeping me going right now is my best friend but were kind of lskndavlhkfsalkn ATM and im scared of myself and the power I hold over myself im scared of what I could do 2 myself

I just realized I've been using this thread less and less as I have actual real trusting friends that I can talk to


it's a nice feeling

you're lucky