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HannahChen2009 03-17-2014 10:13 AM

guys. guys guys guys.
i'm so freaking depressed right now
what do i do
the only place it'll actually go away is kp and my church group
and the problem is my mom thinks kp is a sort of refuge (which it is, but) she says to balance my time between the real world and kp
so now my time is cut down by like 80%
and when i need you guys most too
cause i think i might have freaking depression
and my mother doesn't even get it
and she thinks it's the lack of sleep that's getting to me
so now i have to go to bed at 10 each evening
with only 30 minutes of kp time
and she's also restricting the use of my phone
and i'm so hella depressed why does she shut me off from my real actual friends when i need them the most
and i just wanna punch her
or someone
or me
not to mention that i tried to cut but then i didn't cause i am a coward
and cough anyways is it just me or do i have depression
i've been pulling cs in school
though i'm a straight a student usually
and turning assignments in late
and the most freaking frustrating thing is that
i don't even know what the hell is causing this depression
i only know i don't go a day without hating my life
and school, though i used to like school
or at least i used to think it was okay
but now i just want the summer vacation to come soon
but i still have a good 3 months to go before i'm going anywhere
and did i mention i am so freaking depressed
help

HeatherB 03-17-2014 05:12 PM

FUCK
shes gonna find out i took the scissors back
fuckf uckf ufck fukcuf fuck fuckf uckfu ck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
she can't know i relapsed she already worries too much i can't have this please don't find them please

Arwren 03-17-2014 05:38 PM

I feel like throwing a book across the room and then running away. My parents don't understand one word i say, and force me to do my homework, when they told me to take a break.

Read_Write 03-17-2014 08:19 PM

oh jill
i dont know what to say
ima miss you you know
now you cant come to my bday party :(
(well okay kind of unrealistic but who cares)
i really dont know what to say
because its not okay
im like,
trying to figure out how you can sneak on
bc we need you here <3
and i cant tell you to please stay
bc you have no say in the matter
and i cant say goodbye either
bc thats way to depressing and
im determined to figure out how to make you stay
bc youre like epyk
yeah i dont know
but im gonna miss you
im positive of that

SilverMoon 03-17-2014 08:34 PM

you literally have no idea how much fucking envy there is in my soul

Arwren 03-17-2014 08:56 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SilverMoon (Post 522873)
you literally have no idea how much fucking envy there is in my soul

Envy? Why envy?

HeatherB 03-17-2014 09:20 PM

ok so i dont think she noticed that the scissors are missing which is really really good

and now there are cuts all over my forearms. let's hope she doesn't notice those, either

pluzzle 03-17-2014 10:29 PM

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heather
qwjiaskziheaksdn i wish there were something i could say to make you feel better
but i know there's not, because i am useless with words
i
i dont know
i just want everyone to get better, i just want all of us to feel happy




good news i got onto the kids helpline thing last night bc stress and i was so ready to just end it but i didn't and those people are so nice
the only thing i dont like is the whole duty of care thing so they have to contact police if you're seriously ready to kill yourself/kill someone else (sitting there with a note in one hand and the method in the other) but it's never gotten to that stage when i'm with them

my cat came in last time and i just hugged him for like 3 hours

avbhabra 03-17-2014 10:57 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 522889)
heather
qwjiaskziheaksdn i wish there were something i could say to make you feel better
but i know there's not, because i am useless with words
i
i dont know
i just want everyone to get better, i just want all of us to feel happy




good news i got onto the kids helpline thing last night bc stress and i was so ready to just end it but i didn't and those people are so nice
the only thing i dont like is the whole duty of care thing so they have to contact police if you're seriously ready to kill yourself/kill someone else (sitting there with a note in one hand and the method in the other) but it's never gotten to that stage when i'm with them

my cat came in last time and i just hugged him for like 3 hours

I'm really glad you managed to find some nice people to help you!! Our emotional state is just as important as our physical state it's good to know that you're not doing too bad, pluzzle. :p

I'm not just talking to pluzzle when I say this but I've come to realize that there are so many kids/teenagers who feels helpless and alone. But just think about it. If all of us feel really alone, is anyone really? We all feel the same thing. Sure once in a while, we feel like we've had enough and that's OK. But the important think is to THINK RATIONALLY. Because when we don't, we do stupid things. No one's denying it. Everyone knows it.

Kids take their lives because they've felt like they just don't belong but that is definitely not true. "A land that only sees sunshine becomes a desert." And its true. We all have horrible days. Sometimes they're necessary to "keep the balance" as they say (bear with my cheesiness xD) God knows I try my best to act calmly and treat other kindly but there's always a day where you just feel horrible.

So I'm addressing you guys, random people that I don't really know. It's OK to feel bad once in a while but never forget that there's always someone else out there, suffering just as much as you. You might not feel like there is. You might feel like nobody understands you and you might feel like you hate yourself. Maybe you think you're useless or that everyone hates you, that you're not worth it. You might even feel like harming yourself. BUT DON'T. Please don't. Take this from a complete stranger, someone you don't know and someone who doesn't know you. You deserve to live. You deserve to be happy. Because every human being on this planet has that right, no matter where they live.

So if you're down, read this. Because you should know that you're not alone when you feel emotional pain so strong, it almost feels physical. Our darkest thoughts come when we're mad and frustrated, but DON'T LET IT GET TO YOUR HEAD. Because you all know the outcome if you do.

Everyone is important. No matter who you are. No matter where you live. No matter how smart you are. No matter what you look like. Heck, I don't even look that great but I've come to ACCEPT and RESPECT who I am. Not for the people around me, but for me. Not because I'm selfish, because I want to be OK with how I am.

Wherever you live, know that you are loved. By me. By others. I don't know you but I know that YOU ARE WORTH IT. Harming yourself will bring you nothing but more pain. Life feels like a joke sometimes but it isn't. Don't take this precious gift for granted. "Life is only precious because it's short" and that is very true.

There are too many kids who feel alone and I hate that. I hate that you feel like you're useless because you're not. It frustrates me when I see people who just hate themselves and who they are because you are awesome. You've always been awesome. And you always will be awesome. No matter what anyone says, YOU ARE AWESOME. You are most definitely a great person, even though I don't know you. I know you are a human being and you are capable of making the right choices for yourself.

People bully for reasons I can't quite understand but it is important to understand that no matter what anyone says, you deserve to live and awesome life. Don't let anyone get in your way. Anyone. But at the same time, respect others.

So please, please feel like you are important. Don't get cocky though. xD I just want you guys to feel like you belong. Because everyone has been there. BE STRONG and love yourself.

And if you take nothing else away from this post, remember this:

YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

YOU ARE LOVED.

MOST IMPORTANTLY, YOU ARE NEEDED IN THIS WORLD, NOT FOR OTHERS, BUT FOR YOU.

Love yourself. Respect yourself.

And never, ever forget to do the same for others. You may feel alone but you could be the next person you put a smile on someone else's face. And nothing feels better than making someone smile. :D

So go out there and make a difference. Because there are many children in the future who will benefit from it.

Go out there are love others. And don't forget to love yourself. ;)

Sorry for the whole... speech. xD But I really felt like putting this out there.

L.S.Trendom 03-17-2014 11:07 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 522878)
ok so i dont think she noticed that the scissors are missing which is really really good

and now there are cuts all over my forearms. let's hope she doesn't notice those, either

fuck man
*hugs you really really tightly*
please please don't hurt yourself. i love you so much i'll do p much anything i can to help ok
*hugs again*
we should start snapchatting/talking in more tbh ok


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