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TheAshWolf 12-01-2012 05:55 AM

8D So, I have a buttload of important stuff I have to do tomorrow/oncethesunrises. And it's nearly 4 A.M., and I can't sleep.

I'm in for another lovely sluggish tired day. ^_^

What I'm going to look like tomorrow/oncethesunrises:
http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mak78bwTYe1r3n85p.gif

What I seriously wish I could do right now:
http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m46jqj0FyB1rp6gwm.gif

maxi 12-01-2012 06:01 AM

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 370739)
8D So, I have a buttload of important stuff I have to do tomorrow/oncethesunrises. And it's nearly 4 A.M., and I can't sleep.

I'm in for another lovely sluggish tired day. ^_^

What I'm going to look like tomorrow/oncethesunrises:
http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mak78bwTYe1r3n85p.gif

What I seriously wish I could do right now:
http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m46jqj0FyB1rp6gwm.gif

That last GIF is a win. XD

bookworm1999 12-01-2012 06:56 AM

Everyone. Here. Must. Really. Be. Annoyed. With. Me.... -_-

bookworm1999 12-01-2012 06:58 AM

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Originally Posted by bookworm1999 (Post 370741)
Everyone. Here. Must. Really. Be. Annoyed. With. Me.... -_-

And no one cares... about me, or anything involving me O_O

cheezemziez 12-01-2012 07:03 AM

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Originally Posted by bookworm1999 (Post 370742)
And no one cares... about me, or anything involving me O_O

Hey, what happened?

bookworm1999 12-01-2012 07:05 AM

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Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 370743)
Hey, what happened?

I feel like everyone hates me on here. Like i'll say hi to friends on AN start a conversation and be nice, but then they slowly drift off, talking to someone else, who apparently is more interesting than me D:

LaurenM 12-01-2012 07:07 AM

I once posted thrice on Forum Game and no one even acknowledged my presence.

bookworm1999 12-01-2012 07:07 AM

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Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 370745)
I sometimes post three posts on Forum Game and no one even acknowledges my presence.

Exactly O_O

cheezemziez 12-01-2012 07:19 AM

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Originally Posted by bookworm1999 (Post 370744)

I feel like everyone hates me on here. Like i'll say hi to friends on AN start a conversation and be nice, but then they slowly drift off, talking to someone else, who apparently is more interesting than me D:

We don't hate you. Or at least I don't, and nor does DR. (Sorry, not helping much, but I can't really guarantee other people, but I'm really pretty sure that they don't hate you) I'm sure they're still your friends, even if they don't always talk to you.

bookworm1999 12-01-2012 07:21 AM

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Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 370748)
We don't hate you. Or at least I don't, and nor does DR. (Sorry, not helping much, but I can't really guarantee other people, but I'm really pretty sure that they don't hate you) I'm sure they're still your friends, even if they don't always talk to you.

That's because they don't like talking to me

Sandy 12-01-2012 07:32 AM

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Originally Posted by lvhamsters (Post 370515)
"Oh, remember when I was on crutches with a broken leg? That was because I banged a rock against my knee repeatedly because of my parents. I just go so sick of them."
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I'm pretty sure I should not have laughed at that... I lost it at the word "repeatedly"... and then "I just get so sick of them."

It's like "I bought some bath salts and ate all my kids. They're always eating my food."
o_O Sorry, that was probably offensive somehow... sorry... I'll escort myself out...

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Originally Posted by wildwolf (Post 370559)
Why don't I have any talents?
I can't draw or write or play sports or an instrument. What's the point of even living if I'm useless?

Writing, art, sports, and musical instruments do not determine a person's worth. O_O The majority of people that I know do not have any of these talents but they are still very talented; friend A is a whiz at math, friend B is talkative and can be friends with anyone, friend C can do a killer Scottish accent. Talents come in many shapes--not just the same old art, writing, musical talent, or sports--and there are at least twenty careers to each talent.
And everyone else seems to have gotten there before me: you are an exceptional debater. Your logic is effective, your points are clear and valid, and HECK OF COURSE YOU'RE SMART ENOUGH. I would have thought you were TOO smart. o_o

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 370568)
You are wrong; what is with you and body parts? 0_o

Just ignore them. :P They're very hormonal at this age; they can't help it. Trust me, the sexual explicitness is only going to get more and more abundant and worse as you get older--try and find some humour in it so you can at least tolerate it. <:^j

Sandy 12-01-2012 07:58 AM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 370680)
Okay, maxi:
Not all of them are "stupid" kids. Yeah, I've got a slightly wrong/dirty mind and I'm in seventh grade. Yes, I joke about dirty things with my friends once in a while. It doesn't make me "stupid". I know perfectly well what is joking and what isn't. I know what crosses the line. I still can be mature. A lot of them are "stupid" but not all of them are.

Seconded. I have an extremely dirty mind. I used to find it hilarious, and I'll find myself laughing quietly to myself for an entire bus ride. o____o But now, I dunno. Right at this moment it's starting to disgust me and I feel really disgusting but there's not much I can do, I'm fourteen, and it's all to do with hormones... I'll probably be over the disgusted phase soon and start laughing again. :l



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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 370704)
._. There goes four hours and one more marble of my sanity. I wonder how many I have left before I lose all of my marbles...

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 370706)
In all honesty, Tredom, I'm totally emotionally drained right now. I can't muster up enough strength to even attempt to make any sort of brief facial expression.

@LST: There are some people who keep their sanity by giving themselves a daily dose of insanity or pain. :/ I don't consider myself one of them, I might be, I don't know, but I know my dad is and it's quite normal. :/ I do the same things, like not eat, but obviously for different reasons. (They're just echoes of an eating disorder... I'm recovered but I know that sometimes I'll just get an instinct to turn away food.)

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 370711)
*shakes head sadly* It's not worth talking about. It would only scare and confuse you. I appreciate the offer, though... ;w; You're too kind.

Besides, I've been talking about it for FOUR HOURS STRAIGHT. x_x (Or, rather, I've been hearing about it for four hours straight. I didn't say much.)

I highly doubt that it would scare/confuse me, if you ever want to rant about it. :/ (*hugs*) <--- THAT CYBER HUG BETTER MEAN SOMETHING. o_o I swear, I even have trouble typing out cyber hugs, never mind real life hugs. o_o

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 370713)
...............What's it like to have a mother...? ;w;

I don't...I can't even...I can't even COMPREHEND the concept.

I can make my own planet, plan out and understand every little detail of it, and actually make it jell with some scientific facts, I can ace most of the tests I take, I can tell you all about nearly every kind of animal you can name, I understand stuff most people don't learn until they're in their 30s...and yet, I can't even understand the basic concept of a mother. How do you cling to someone who's just not there? How do you take solace in their memory when you can't even remember their voice without someone playing a recording for you? This usually doesn't bother me at all...you can't miss what you never had.....and yet.......here are the tears. Here is the pain.

I don't know if it was a rhetorical question, but I'll try to answer it. :I Mother-child relationships are, as I'm sure you're aware, based off of hormones and instincts. Mother shields child, comforts child, etc etc, and child begins to see Mother as an entire world of comfort and happiness. Should the mother be absent, the child will develop differently. Perhaps Father will take over for Mother? Will the child decide it doesn't need the protection of a Mother?

(... o_o HOLY CRAP GOD I JUST REALIZED THIS ENTIRE THING IS DIRECTLY RELEVANT TO RAMMSTEIN'S "MUTTER" = "MOTHER"...)

I am still not very familiar with JW beliefs... but if you believe that she is still with you in spirit... perhaps that can offer some relief from pain?

TheAshWolf 12-01-2012 08:13 AM

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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 370755)
I highly doubt that it would scare/confuse me, if you ever want to rant about it. :/ (*hugs*) <--- THAT CYBER HUG BETTER MEAN SOMETHING. o_o I swear, I even have trouble typing out cyber hugs, never mind real life hugs. o_o


I don't know if it was a rhetorical question, but I'll try to answer it. :I Mother-child relationships are, as I'm sure you're aware, based off of hormones and instincts. Mother shields child, comforts child, etc etc, and child begins to see Mother as an entire world of comfort and happiness. Should the mother be absent, the child will develop differently. Perhaps Father will take over for Mother? Will the child decide it doesn't need the protection of a Mother?

(... o_o HOLY CRAP GOD I JUST REALIZED THIS ENTIRE THING IS DIRECTLY RELEVANT TO RAMMSTEIN'S "MUTTER" = "MOTHER"...)

I am still not very familiar with JW beliefs... but if you believe that she is still with you in spirit... perhaps that can offer some relief from pain?

Ohohohohohhhhh, you don't know my family. owo If it doesn't at least confuse you, then you're not human. (Thanks, though...I might end up taking you up on that. >_<) <:'^J Yeah, that cuber hug meant a lot!!! *hugs back* Especially since you pointed it out. XD (So it's not just me, then?! O_e I always have to just sit there for a second before I can actually type it...I'm fine with in-person hugs...but...kjabfdjkbskjbf........and don't even get me STARTED on when people I'm not related to say "love you!" in emails and my brain just goes, "O__O I, er, umumuhhhum....^///_///^.....x___x.....errrr....how do I word this?" BUT THAT'S ANOTHER TOPIC I'll shut up now. >w<)

I know what it IS, technically speaking, but......what...I just...my brain....it just can't....why..... OTL I have no words. Thanks for trying, anyway.

No...we believe that when you die...you die. o_o That's it. You don't feel anything, you don't think anything, you don't do anything. It's like you're asleep. Thus the term "fall asleep in death." My only solace is that one day, if I just work hard enough for it, and do what's right, I might just meet her in Paradise, when she comes back... ^_^

lvhamsters 12-01-2012 01:23 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 370751)
I'm pretty sure I should not have laughed at that... I lost it at the word "repeatedly"... and then "I just get so sick of them."

It's like "I bought some bath salts and ate all my kids. They're always eating my food."
o_O Sorry, that was probably offensive somehow... sorry... I'll escort myself out...

No it wasn't :) It's true XD

AlgebraAddict 12-01-2012 03:56 PM

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Originally Posted by bookworm1999 (Post 370744)
I feel like everyone hates me on here. Like i'll say hi to friends on AN start a conversation and be nice, but then they slowly drift off, talking to someone else, who apparently is more interesting than me D:


I know the feeling. Mreh.

AlgebraAddict 12-01-2012 04:01 PM

I can't f*cking do it anymore.

I hate choir. I hate those stupid girls who chit chat and gossip and are the best of friends. I hate people who have no problems in their lives. I hate music that is all really depressing and good and then they start blurting out JESUS LOVES ME AND IT'S ALL OKAY or something like that. I hate my friends. My friends hate me. It's messed up.

CACrools 12-01-2012 04:30 PM

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 370996)
I can't f*cking do it anymore.

I hate choir. I hate those stupid girls who chit chat and gossip and are the best of friends. I hate people who have no problems in their lives. I hate music that is all really depressing and good and then they start blurting out JESUS LOVES ME AND IT'S ALL OKAY or something like that. I hate my friends. My friends hate me. It's messed up.

Awww, Esther. I'm sorry, I know, it sucks, but you can get through it. I have the same problem (in Choir). If you hate your friends, and vice virsa, then stop being friends with them. You are all bubbly and nice, and just a wonderful person. I know you can make friends *hugs*. It's gonna be alright!

HeatherB 12-01-2012 04:39 PM

I am so incredibly fucking happy.
It's amazing.
Just yesterday I felt like a whiny bitch (well, I WAS a whiny bitch, but beside the point) and the entire week was perfect until I realized that I'd basically been as emotionally charged as a non-haywire robot the entire time. And then Friday, the sadness came back and overwhelmed me.
But here I am.
Happy.
It's kind of weird to feel happy like this. I'm not really used to it.
But I sure as hell am enjoying it while it lasts. :'D

nngo 12-01-2012 04:53 PM

This cat is sitting on the fence between sanity and truth. He's not sitting like a cat, with its paws curled into its chest and its tail curled into his paws, he's sitting with one leg on each side of the fence, with his bleeding tail stump wriggling haphazardly because most of it got ripped to pieces by the thorns on the bush it had to jump on to get to the fence. It's not a comfortable position for a cat, but this cat doesn't care. Not because this cat wanted to get on the fence, but because this cat just doesn't feel anything. This cat is a zombie, living with no functioning brain, and this cat is just lumbering around trying to find one. But since he has no brain to think, he eats the brain he finds instead of screwing his head opening and popping it in. All the while, his bleeding tale is splashing the fence red like a garden hose left to its own devices. This cat watches everyone from his lonely post (but he doesn't know it's lonely, he's too brainless and stupid to know that) and sees people suffer and people laugh and people who suffer laugh and he doesn't know what to make of it. It's possible he can't make anything of it, and what he sees just flies out his other ear, but for Pete's sake, let's assume he can even though he can't. He sees people crying and screaming and kicking at the world on the grass beneath him on the dark side, their wrists sore and their parents angry, and he sees happy people. But the happy people are normal people, and he's not a normal person. And the thing is, he isn't even a person; he's a cat. He's sitting on the fence between sanity and the truth and he doesn't know what(how) to think. Because people are happy and people are sad - how happy is he, and how sad is he? How can he tell? He has a heart, but he doesn't feel anything. He wants to disappear, his lack of a brain is strained to ribbons and gore after centuries of frustrated thinking on his thinking post (he thinks he may be going insane.. but he doesn't think), he feels he can't cough up his carcass of a heart and it's making him choke, he knows there is no reason for him to feel him and every reason for him to be like the normal kids or the sad kids, but he does. And he does disappear in a sense, but it doesn't help him anything. Everyone can see him, flailing, stump spurting with color, but he doesn't see himself. He's Charlie Brown after Snoopy performed his phony magic tricks on him, and he needs to paint mud on him to be able to see himself temporarily. But then the mud dries and falls off and it's over and he's left even more invisible than before. And he doesn't know what to do he doesn't know what to do but just crawl further into the abysses of his throat and settle beside his nonfunctioning intestines and wait till his body drops dead on the fence and the centuries pass and the flesh rots off his bones and the meat rots away and the bones dissolve into cocaine and he's left alone in the apocalyptic setting of the fence, 1000 light years in the future. And he still doesn't know what to do, and he can't disappear anymore. He's just stuck and confused and brainless and tailless and stupid and his heart is still stuck in his throat and he keeps smiling, stop smiling, the story just got sad.

im so happy
cuz today i found my friends
in my head

nngo 12-01-2012 04:54 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 371020)
I am so incredibly fucking happy.
It's amazing.
Just yesterday I felt like a whiny bitch (well, I WAS a whiny bitch, but beside the point) and the entire week was perfect until I realized that I'd basically been as emotionally charged as a non-haywire robot the entire time. And then Friday, the sadness came back and overwhelmed me.
But here I am.
Happy.
It's kind of weird to feel happy like this. I'm not really used to it.
But I sure as hell am enjoying it while it lasts. :'D

Congrats. Feeling happy is a vast achievement.

HeatherB 12-01-2012 04:56 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by nngo (Post 371046)
Congrats. Feeling happy is a vast achievement.

It is, especially when you've been either emotionless or depressed all week. ^_^ My circus always cheers me up.

L.S.Trendom 12-01-2012 05:15 PM

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 370704)
._. There goes four hours and one more marble of my sanity. I wonder how many I have left before I lose all of my marbles...

*Hands you some marbles*
You won't lose all of them.
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 370706)
In all honesty, Tredom, I'm totally emotionally drained right now. I can't muster up enough strength to even attempt to make any sort of brief facial expression.

And yet...

Reading what you said actually made me feel something. I can identify with you totally. I don't care about many things anymore, and that terrifies me. And yet, at the same time...I don't care that it terrifies me. There just isn't a way to put it into words. I, too, can be self-destructive, mainly in ways I'd rather not say on the Internet. But you know what, Tredom? Through it all, I still really really really care about you, and a bunch of other KPers, too. All of them are special to me, but you...you have to be one of the most special to me. I remember the day you joined. I remember our first conversation. I remember how you misspelled your username, (Trendom). I wish I could do more to help you. You don't know how much it hurts me to see that you're having problems just like me. And this probably won't mean anything to you since it looks like nothing but text on a screen. But I have to say this. You don't deserve any of those negative thoughts. And no matter what happens to you, or what changes, you're an awesome person, and we'll always be here for you. <:^J

And you're not an attention-junkie. XD (Trust me; I know what they look like, you ain't one of 'em. ._.)

Yeah… I think I know exactly what you mean, about being terrified about not caring but at the same time not caring. Like… somewhere deep inside you, you know you should be terrified but it's only just barely echoing up to where you can notice it.
Thanks… And it really doesn't mean a lot. :'3 The same to you… you're an amazing person and a great friend, even if I've never met you. And I'm sorry you have the same problems, too.

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 370710)
Right now, I just want to dig a hole and live in it for the rest of my life; totally isolating myself from any kind of human contact. ._. I know I'll feel different an hour from now, but that's just where I'm at this moment.

*is prepared to do best to drag you out of hole and feeling like that*
*can also pretty much relate*

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 370711)
*shakes head sadly* It's not worth talking about. It would only scare and confuse you. I appreciate the offer, though... ;w; You're too kind.

Besides, I've been talking about it for FOUR HOURS STRAIGHT. x_x (Or, rather, I've been hearing about it for four hours straight. I didn't say much.)

*Breaks in* It might confuse me, but I don't think it would scare me…
If you ever need to talk to someone, you can email me, if you want.

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 370722)
Scramble the letters in "Santa" and you get "Satan"...
8D

Haha… earlier today I was thinking about like a punk/emo/rockstar Santa, and I hadn't read your post yet… xD

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Originally Posted by bookworm1999 (Post 370741)
Everyone. Here. Must. Really. Be. Annoyed. With. Me.... -_-

I'm not.

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 370733)
I'd make a HORRIBLE mother...o_e gosh, I don't even know what a mother is supposed to DO, let alone how to be good at it. I think I'm going to stick to raising puppies and birds and other animals and never ever have actual kids. XD

I don't think you would. Maybe things wouldn't work so good when you're depressed, but… other than that you seem like you'd be a pretty awesome parent. :P

bookworm1999 12-01-2012 05:22 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 371069)
*Hands you some marbles*
You won't lose all of them.

Yeah… I think I know exactly what you mean, about being terrified about not caring but at the same time not caring. Like… somewhere deep inside you, you know you should be terrified but it's only just barely echoing up to where you can notice it.
Thanks… And it really doesn't mean a lot. :'3 The same to you… you're an amazing person and a great friend, even if I've never met you. And I'm sorry you have the same problems, too.


*is prepared to do best to drag you out of hole and feeling like that*
*can also pretty much relate*


*Breaks in* It might confuse me, but I don't think it would scare me…
If you ever need to talk to someone, you can email me, if you want.


Haha… earlier today I was thinking about like a punk/emo/rockstar Santa, and I hadn't read your post yet… xD


I'm not.


I don't think you would. Maybe things wouldn't work so good when you're depressed, but… other than that you seem like you'd be a pretty awesome parent. :P

Some people are O_O

Lily09 12-01-2012 05:41 PM

no dad i can make friends for myself and think for myself. yes, i am atheist. im not buddhist, and never will be. atheist, you got that? A-T-H-E-I-S-T. nope, no religion. and also, i don't need your fkking lies. two years ago you said, "we aren't going to force you to be friends with anybody." but that is a straight-up lie. First grade-fifth grade, you pestered me to talk to C and E. You bothered me saying "talk to them! be their friend! why don't you be their friend!" Sixth grade, T and me stopped being friends. You yelled at me and told me i should just be her friend and continue talking to her. And now, seventh grade, you're screaming at me and trying to make me be friends with CJ. Why can't you see I don't want to be friends with CJ? i'm not going to be friends with CJ. yeah, we used to be best friends, not anymore. Why do you lie and say you won't force me to be friends with anyone? To make yourself look better? to install false trust? give up, i see right past through it.
this is why i don't trust you at all. this is why i never tell you anything. i wonder how you'd react if i told you i like a girl. yes, my own gender. you say you support gays, then laugh and joke and make fun of gays. how can i trust you to tell you about her? how would i know that you wont ridicule me?

Lily09 12-01-2012 05:45 PM

and i lie every single day, i say im happy but overall i'm not. i'm really only happy around her but other than that, i feel like shit and i rely on my music and you're threatening to take away my music because what? "they are loud and screaming and heavy and they are bad. i don't know what they are saying, but they are a bad influence!" these people that you call "bad" are the reason i'm still here. Sick Puppies, Three Days Grace, My Chemical Romance. I trust them more than I trust you. they are here to comfort me when nobody else is, and you're threatening to not let me listen to them? what, do you want me to relapse and start lying again about the cuts on my arms? because that is what will happen if you take away my music, i need them.

Stephiey 12-01-2012 06:42 PM

Okay, I know this sounds really childish and stupid and self-conscious and a lot of you are probably going to think "Jeez Stephanie, get over it! It doesn't even matter what you look like in high school!" but this is kind of important to me.

I just feel so... ugly.

I have acne, and even though I know it's not like terrible or anything, every time I talk to someone, I don't even want to look at them in the eye because I know that they're staring at me and judging me and I probably look really rude and stuff, but I'm NOT. This one time, my mom was talking to this girl and I said hi and went away because I was having a huge breakout and my mom was like "Stephanie, you seemed so cold" and I couldn't tell her the real reason.

I mean, I know I'm not ugly, I've had people tell me that I'm pretty before but... every time I just look in the mirror, it puts me down. it seems like all the girls at my school are more clear-faced, social, and better than me.

12-01-2012 06:47 PM

I'm part of a leadership program at my school...a secret leadership program. Our first mission was to make friends with the sixth graders at our school because they're new and don't really know what to do. About a month ago I met this sixth grader at quick recall practice named Luke, and how he's like my bestfriend. Actually, I treat him more like a little brother. I've always wanted a younger brother, and now it's like I have one. :) I am actually really happy. Today I went to his quick recall competition to work consessions and we hung out and him and all his friends said I was the Team Mom. XD So now he calls me Mom. Haha.

But yeah...today was a good day. :)

lvhamsters 12-01-2012 07:13 PM

I'm sick of everyone lying to me. My parents, my friends, the people I thought I could trust, but really, all they do is use me. They don't even seem to realize I'm a person and that I actually have this thing called feelings.

BlueMi 12-01-2012 07:20 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 371020)
I am so incredibly fucking happy.
It's amazing.
Just yesterday I felt like a whiny bitch (well, I WAS a whiny bitch, but beside the point) and the entire week was perfect until I realized that I'd basically been as emotionally charged as a non-haywire robot the entire time. And then Friday, the sadness came back and overwhelmed me.
But here I am.
Happy.
It's kind of weird to feel happy like this. I'm not really used to it.
But I sure as hell am enjoying it while it lasts. :'D

:'DD
i

maxi 12-01-2012 07:21 PM

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Originally Posted by BlueMi (Post 371191)
:'DD
i

Pokey, do you mind if you look at the cover thread you made and do the last one, please?

12-01-2012 07:23 PM

Luke, the sixth grade friend ^^, just texted me and said I <3 MY MOMMY! :D

BlueMi 12-01-2012 07:24 PM

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 371193)
Pokey, do you mind if you look at the cover thread you made and do the last one, please?

Okay, I'll get on it. Give me like a half hour.

maxi 12-01-2012 07:24 PM

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Originally Posted by BlueMi (Post 371199)
Okay, I'll get on it. Give me like a half hour.

Half hour to comment or to make it? :D

lvhamsters 12-01-2012 08:21 PM

Oh my gosh he's a freaking manipulative jerk. He lied in front of all my friends about what i said and im sick of him. I do not think he's attractive; i never said that, and frankly, i never will. What the f*** is with him.

HeatherB 12-01-2012 09:00 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 371094)
no dad i can make friends for myself and think for myself. yes, i am atheist. im not buddhist, and never will be. atheist, you got that? A-T-H-E-I-S-T. nope, no religion. and also, i don't need your fkking lies. two years ago you said, "we aren't going to force you to be friends with anybody." but that is a straight-up lie. First grade-fifth grade, you pestered me to talk to C and E. You bothered me saying "talk to them! be their friend! why don't you be their friend!" Sixth grade, T and me stopped being friends. You yelled at me and told me i should just be her friend and continue talking to her. And now, seventh grade, you're screaming at me and trying to make me be friends with CJ. Why can't you see I don't want to be friends with CJ? i'm not going to be friends with CJ. yeah, we used to be best friends, not anymore. Why do you lie and say you won't force me to be friends with anyone? To make yourself look better? to install false trust? give up, i see right past through it.
this is why i don't trust you at all. this is why i never tell you anything. i wonder how you'd react if i told you i like a girl. yes, my own gender. you say you support gays, then laugh and joke and make fun of gays. how can i trust you to tell you about her? how would i know that you wont ridicule me?

Shitty dad? Join the club. Sign up for the Shitty Dad Club tomorrow at 8. ._. I'm sorry, hon. My dad's not as bad as yours, but he's insecure and even when he's not yelling at me externally, he's yelling at me internally.
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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 371100)
and i lie every single day, i say im happy but overall i'm not. i'm really only happy around her but other than that, i feel like shit and i rely on my music and you're threatening to take away my music because what? "they are loud and screaming and heavy and they are bad. i don't know what they are saying, but they are a bad influence!" these people that you call "bad" are the reason i'm still here. Sick Puppies, Three Days Grace, My Chemical Romance. I trust them more than I trust you. they are here to comfort me when nobody else is, and you're threatening to not let me listen to them? what, do you want me to relapse and start lying again about the cuts on my arms? because that is what will happen if you take away my music, i need them.

My parents always threaten away my laptop and they don't realize it's literally my only source of solace, where I can be myself and rant and bitch and then talk people through their own rants and it's a place where I'm happy, online. I know it sounds stupid so I obviously can't tell them, they wouldn't understand. And sometimes I just NEED to listen to music, but I'm on my laptop under the premise of doing homework and my parents don't believe in my doing homework with music on... -_- Also, my mom criticizes my choice of music a lot and calls me... names. Which I do not appreciate in the slightest. Shmeh.
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Originally Posted by BlueMi (Post 371191)
:'DD
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^___^

Stephiey 12-01-2012 09:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Stephiey (Post 371146)
Okay, I know this sounds really childish and stupid and self-conscious and a lot of you are probably going to think "Jeez Stephanie, get over it! It doesn't even matter what you look like in high school!" but this is kind of important to me.

I just feel so... ugly.

I have acne, and even though I know it's not like terrible or anything, every time I talk to someone, I don't even want to look at them in the eye because I know that they're staring at me and judging me and I probably look really rude and stuff, but I'm NOT. This one time, my mom was talking to this girl and I said hi and went away because I was having a huge breakout and my mom was like "Stephanie, you seemed so cold" and I couldn't tell her the real reason.

I mean, I know I'm not ugly, I've had people tell me that I'm pretty before but... every time I just look in the mirror, it puts me down. it seems like all the girls at my school are more clear-faced, social, and better than me.




Can someone help? :(

LaurenM 12-01-2012 09:32 PM

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 370996)
I can't f*cking do it anymore.

I hate choir. I hate those stupid girls who chit chat and gossip and are the best of friends. I hate people who have no problems in their lives. I hate music that is all really depressing and good and then they start blurting out JESUS LOVES ME AND IT'S ALL OKAY or something like that. I hate my friends. My friends hate me. It's messed up.

And to think I wished to gone submitted into the choir just to go to Vienna.

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 371020)
I am so incredibly fucking happy.
It's amazing.
Just yesterday I felt like a whiny bitch (well, I WAS a whiny bitch, but beside the point) and the entire week was perfect until I realized that I'd basically been as emotionally charged as a non-haywire robot the entire time. And then Friday, the sadness came back and overwhelmed me.
But here I am.
Happy.
It's kind of weird to feel happy like this. I'm not really used to it.
But I sure as hell am enjoying it while it lasts. :'D

Yay!

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 371094)
no dad i can make friends for myself and think for myself. yes, i am atheist. im not buddhist, and never will be. atheist, you got that? A-T-H-E-I-S-T. nope, no religion. and also, i don't need your fkking lies. two years ago you said, "we aren't going to force you to be friends with anybody." but that is a straight-up lie. First grade-fifth grade, you pestered me to talk to C and E. You bothered me saying "talk to them! be their friend! why don't you be their friend!" Sixth grade, T and me stopped being friends. You yelled at me and told me i should just be her friend and continue talking to her. And now, seventh grade, you're screaming at me and trying to make me be friends with CJ. Why can't you see I don't want to be friends with CJ? i'm not going to be friends with CJ. yeah, we used to be best friends, not anymore. Why do you lie and say you won't force me to be friends with anyone? To make yourself look better? to install false trust? give up, i see right past through it.
this is why i don't trust you at all. this is why i never tell you anything. i wonder how you'd react if i told you i like a girl. yes, my own gender. you say you support gays, then laugh and joke and make fun of gays. how can i trust you to tell you about her? how would i know that you wont ridicule me?

I know that feeling. My parents don't care whether I'm atheist or deist or whatever, they are atheists too, but I had a teacher in primary school--she was luckily, a sub--who tried to make me believe in God -_-
We've both got lying, hypocritical dads, then. My dad lets me have my own beliefs, doesn't care about who my friends are, but he lies about the stupidest things that make me very het up for no reason.

lvhamsters 12-01-2012 09:32 PM

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Originally Posted by Stephiey (Post 371377)
Can someone help? :(

It's like that for most people in high school years, including me, but just know that you are pretty, just as those people said. And remember that mirrors are quite deceiving in your own eyes.
And don't be afraid to look them in the eyes! Don't be afraid of them judging you! I know, it's easier said then done, but you've got to be yourself. You are who you are and they should accept you for who you are :) And you say you have acne, but don't worry, you're probably not the only person they know who has acne. You aren't alone :)
Just remember to be yourself and don't let them judge you

HeatherB 12-01-2012 09:51 PM

I can't believe it.
I can't believe YOU.
I should've known this was too good to last.

lvhamsters 12-01-2012 09:58 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 371403)
I can't believe it.
I can't believe YOU.
I should've known this was too good to last.

D': What happened?!


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