The Writer's Block - Your emotional venting thread. I'll explain.

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 530549)

(*hugs*) I'm sorry, man. <:^/ I hope that doesn't happen to you again. I'm really really glad you're feeling better, though! <:^3 Just try not to think about stuff like that, okay? Keep your mind occupied. Everything's alright, regardless of how everything seems.

thanks *hugs back* idk i feel like it's kinda bad i can't get by without ignoring everything?? and it feels like a dishonest way to live

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Originally Posted by Kiwara (Post 530554)

LST if you ever need anyone to vent at and you catch me on Skype, I don't mind lending an ear. I went through similar stuff(and still fighting it at times) so I'm here for you too. I'm sorry I don't talk much on there. I fail miserably at conversations.

thanks man *tackle hugs*

I just want to say you are all so bloody beautiful.
All of you.
You are fantastic and deserve the very best the world has to offer you.
If your friends treat you badly, leave them.
Because you are worth so much and you shouldn't waste your time on them.
If you feel upset or depressed or worried or stressed remember how amazing you are.
And I know that you can't be happy all the time but you must know this.
Everything about you is unique and excellent and wonderful.
I love you all. So much

Sorry for going on like this

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Originally Posted by Bridie (Post 530703)

Ohhh, you're amazing. You should have encouraging be your job.

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Originally Posted by Bridie (Post 530703)

Hey. thank you so much for that.

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 529715)

he's not gonna take a fuckin hint with this either
i mean come fucking on man every time you're like "i feel fat lol" or "i skipped a meal lol" i stop replying
isn't that pretty fuckin obvious
im sorry but i can't fuckin handle this you're so triggering

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 530225)

(*hugs*) thank you, dearie. really. it means a lot

maybe it is excessive and maybe it is annoying but you can't expect everyone to be a grown up right away
kidpub/the internet in general has a way of getting to people and aging them up pretty quickly, but let them enjoy childhood as long as they can
and if you don't like something, why don't you walk away from it? if people here are annoying you, there is absolutely nothing stopping you from shutting off the computer and doing something else, because complaining about it is just going to make you seem immature as well.

it may not mean anything, but as long as people are having fun, let them enjoy it. like i said before, if you don't like something here, nothing at all is tying you.

from what i've observed in general, people on KP want to teach "newbies" how to act and who to become and it makes me really sad, guys. these kids came to write and to make friends, not to be targeted by people who think they're better than them because they act more maturely. i, personally, feel like a fish out of water around most new members, so i get it, but there's no need to be judgmental.

i'm sorry if any of that came off as offensive, but i see a lot of this irl and i'm sick of being too shy to say anything about it. if you want to complain, do it in a place where people you're complaining about can't see, because it hurts to be talked about publicly. if you're frustrated with something here, take a break, because your personal feelings are not anyone's fault.

you're my fav

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 530227)

i love sam so much
and i'm so fuckin afraid that we'll fall apart too, it'll go the way of my other friendships
and i don't know if i could handle that
she said she'd be my anchor but…i don't know. promises are a broken so often like fuck how can i be sure of anything

and people say you always have your family but
i don't get the fuckin obligation to love your family. i care about them, but i don't feel any love for them. there's no emotional connection between us. and they might think they love me (my parents, at least, i dont even know if my brothers are capable of caring oh my god) but they don't know me.
so if i lose all my friends, i have nothing. i have no family to fall back on. i have no one.

hell tbh i'm probably gonna die alone and i'm so fucking afraid of that

and also p sure i still hate the fUCK out of myself.
just it's a shitton easier to not think about it with antidepressants

idk it was kinda a really bad night and i wanted to cut and i just wanted to start crying??
but then i drove around with sam and she made me feel a shitton better but
idk

you are not alone. i am here. i will always be your friend. all of us, though we may screw up sometimes and say the wrong thing and accidentally make things worse, we will be here for you. i love you so much, and i'm glad you're feeling better. being with sam is important to you, and you need to protect what is precious. i'm really glad she happened to you, ngl. with her you get into some of the best mood i've ever seen you in, and you feeling better makes me feel better too.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 530368)

im actually rly fuckin done with this website

i have everyone's contacts that i need to (except bwas. regret) or tumblrs or whatever

i had fun once, so thanks for that guys

i'll miss you. you have my tumblr, right?

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Originally Posted by Bridie (Post 530703)

don't apologize, really.
i needed that. thank you.

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 531006)

block him.
maybe you can't do that offline, but block him online at least. it's not your fault you're triggered by this and you shouldn't have to put up with it. if he asks you about it, if you feel comfortable discussing it with him, you can tell him about it. if you don't, just say that he was making some disturbing comments and that you didn't want to deal with them.
or maybe you should talk it out, if you're comfortable with that. this is all about making you more comfortable around him, so it's really your call on this.

you're my fav

you are not alone. i am here. i will always be your friend. all of us, though we may screw up sometimes and say the wrong thing and accidentally make things worse, we will be here for you. i love you so much, and i'm glad you're feeling better. being with sam is important to you, and you need to protect what is precious. i'm really glad she happened to you, ngl. with her you get into some of the best mood i've ever seen you in, and you feeling better makes me feel better too.

i'll miss you. you have my tumblr, right?

don't apologize, really.
i needed that. thank you.

i doubt. but yeah, i do.
i don't think im stable enough to be here anymore, too, tbh

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 531049)

i doubt. but yeah, i do.
i don't think im stable enough to be here anymore, too, tbh

i hope you decide not to leave in the end

omg i'm so late for all of this i haven't been on here in ages

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Originally Posted by lvhamsters (Post 529638)

So today I found out that one of my brother's best friends attempted suicide and is now being hospitalized for it. I don't know him that well but I've had enough conversations with him to know he's a really nice kid. We've given him a couple rides home and he's come over quite a few times. But I've also listened to the conversations him and my brother and their other friends have had. I've also heard other people talk to him. My brother and his friends were nice enough to him, occasionally giving out an insult, but that's pretty common. But other people were pretty mean to him and would always make fun of him. I don't know what for. It just really came as a shock. I guess I knew he wasn't the happiest kid. I only saw him smiling a couple times, and that's really sad. I should've gone to talk to him but I failed to do that. It's just.... so shocking. I've had to talk my best friend out of suicide before but.... it's just so different when they actually go through with it. He was so close to death. What if he had died? He had so many friends. So many people would've been affected. Hell, even I was affected and I don't know him very well. His family? I don't know much about his family. I'm fairly sure he has a good family though. I'm sorry. My thoughts are really muddled so this is going to be very muddled. I guess what I'm trying to say all connects back to what caused his depression. Fucking bullies. He's a perfectly nice kid and they push him down. They continue to add weight on his shoulders, adding more and more words, more and more insults, until he can't take it anymore and collapses. What kind of person would do that? An incompetent loser who has nothing better to do than kill people off with words. A low life, scum of the earth. I'm just so sick of bullying and bullies. Basically, think before you speak. It's so difficult to wrap my mind around. Just everything. How someone could do something so low as to push him so far, and how he was so close to death. Needless to say, I'm going with a group of friends and my brother to visit him in the hospital tomorrow. Please think about him or pray for him. Please?

<3 i really hope he survives and knows that things will get better

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 529715)

talk to him about him/block him

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 530233)

o
oops
am i becoming suicidal again
FUCK
ok im gonna like idk go to bed and then talk to sam tomorrow i guess

wait what happened don't

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 530368)

im actually rly fuckin done with this website

i have everyone's contacts that i need to (except bwas. regret) or tumblrs or whatever

i had fun once, so thanks for that guys

same but meh not officially leaving. don't really see the point of doing that. yet.

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 530603)

I understand all of this, but it was an emotional vent. I don't really care if you do it or not, it just gets on my nerves how much Kidpub has changed *shrugs*. I'm still getting used to it.

On a better (or possibly worse) note, imma teenager as of today so yeah :3

HAOPY BELATED BIRDAY

oops so i kinda relapsed again
while sam and thomas were in the back of the car
i was torn between wanting to cut a lot and get really drunk with a friend
except i didn't feel at all comfortable having an emotional breakdown around that friend
sooo thank god i ended up going to thomas's that made the night like five times better for me

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 531006)

block him.
maybe you can't do that offline, but block him online at least. it's not your fault you're triggered by this and you shouldn't have to put up with it. if he asks you about it, if you feel comfortable discussing it with him, you can tell him about it. if you don't, just say that he was making some disturbing comments and that you didn't want to deal with them.
or maybe you should talk it out, if you're comfortable with that. this is all about making you more comfortable around him, so it's really your call on this.

you are not alone. i am here. i will always be your friend. all of us, though we may screw up sometimes and say the wrong thing and accidentally make things worse, we will be here for you. i love you so much, and i'm glad you're feeling better. being with sam is important to you, and you need to protect what is precious. i'm really glad she happened to you, ngl. with her you get into some of the best mood i've ever seen you in, and you feeling better makes me feel better too.

hng ignoring him seems to work kinda well, he hasn't been bringing it up as much. but yeah fuck i should talk to him about it

thank you. but… fuck i just have a hard time believing anyone will actually stay with me. at the very least you guys will probably drift away. *shrugs*
thank you

D: it's okay. you can go even longer this time I know you can!!

commenting on the otp 'story' was the worst decision of my life. 1) should i leave kp or should i leave the world in general? 2) who is imnotalamo

i hate myself i should die GOODbYE