YEEESSS YUUUSSS YIIIISSS
lauren!! yes

I could be texting or emailing you this but that feels a little out of place.
I really like talking to you. It doesn't even matter if you're just bored or need advice or you want to talk or you're replying to a text I sent while you were at school.
It makes me feel useful and it makes me feel okay and safe and like someone might actually want to talk to me.
I think you once said that I'll realize I'm good enough. Although I still dislike myself a lot, I feel a bit better about myself each day. Maybe because the "you're awesome"'s you slip in almost every convo that makes me think 'that annoying little shit' and 'that amazing little shit' at the same time.
I don't know if you know how much you mean to me. You mean a lot to me, though. The thing that gets me through my day is seeing a new message from you. And I constantly daydream about meeting you. Of course, I daydream of what it'd be like to meet G and Cheeze and other KPers, too, but you're the first on my long list. Thank you for being there when no one else is.
*huggles*
*sends you an army of cheerleading Jensen Ackles*
*and Mooses*
*and Mishas*

ahaha wow this sounds strangeish but you're just my best friend that's all and im scared of losing you and i just really like talking to you

*cries* I don't even know how you can hate yourself or how your parents can treat you like that or how you can say you hurt them. These things just belong in the ?????whut why????? section of my brain.

I slept for thirteen hours last night. From five to six. I got no homework done.

I'm going on a jackrabbit survey. To get away from my family, amongst other things.

And none of my goddamn friends are going, which is a good thing. A very good thing.

Yes: my symptoms will completely stop when I stop growing.

-.-

Oh, what have I done wrong?

For now, I have to stay in a leg boot and hobble around while my friends stare at me pitifully.

And as for gymnastics, I get to go for three hours four times a week and do JUST strength training.

X_X

Don't listen to them. If you like P!nk, then thats fine. Its none of their concern.

Yup. But. Okay.

That's my life, except with Rammstein.
Everyone gets freaked out by German metal.
:I


(*sits in corner of shame*)

BUT I LOVE THEM

Fun at first.
Not fun when you get tired and feel like a zombie.