Please stop, Isaac. I know it's difficult and not entirely in your control but stopping isn't going to get easier. Don't hate awesome. Don't hate amazing. Don't hate epyk. And you are all of these things. You don't deserve to die. You are a good person. At least, as far as anyone on here has experienced. And I'm sure people IRL know you're a good person, too.

Don't keep telling me that the word doesn't revolve around me. I think I know that. But you know what? I think everyone wishes it did sometimes. I wish people would stop judging me. But that's the last time, because guess what? I am actually very opinionated, and a lot of people know that about me, so that's it. You have no say in my life any more. I am my own person. Hmph.

Things have been pondering in my head... people are not... kids on here anymore. ;_; I feel bad that all I come to on this website is plain old ranting and venting and ranting and IT IS ON THE FREAKING NSP WHERE FREAKING STORIES ARE SUPPOSED TO BE so why don't we be KIDS for once? ...kids...

I'm sorry girl. I feel like that sometimes.
D:
I feel people judge me a lot. Especially since I have moved to another country. I'm a redhead, light skinned, freckles, American accent. I stand out! Often, I get looks. But who cares? If they want to judge, they well get what they want but they sadly won't get to understand the real me.
That's how it is. If they judge, let them. They are missing out while their imagination runs.

i do not mind at all
that is wonderful xD
I don't deserve to stop.
I don't feel at all amazing, awesome, epyk, or like a good person.
My family certainly doesn't think so.

isaac, i just really wish i knew how to phrase exactly what i want to say. parents don't seem to understand the kind of relationship their kids can build online-- they don't realize that sometimes, the people who they can't see the faces of are the ones who help them the most. because they think everyone's a creeper on the internet, they think close friendships are all but impossible. but y'know? they're incredibly wrong. we are all like family; although a pretty fucked up one, we'll make it. just let me point out two things here:

1) as your family, we care about you, and so we'll keep on saying this: please, please, please try to stay strong. eat when you can-- even if you only feel half-up to it. kick a wall, beat a pillow, smash a box of pencils-- whatever you have to do to keep your skin as scar-free as possible. you may think you're absolutely awful, but we don't, and so we're gonna keep pleading you to hang tough. we'll always be here for you, even when your parents aren't.

2) although your mother may be naive, just know that she does care about you. you may not care about her, but she doesn't want to see you do this to yourself. it's completely unfair, but life never is fair.

3) we love you. when you think of us, don't think of just a computer screen: think of that red string on our fingers, wrapping all the way from north america to europe to australia and all the way back. it's a better representation of what we all truly are. we're here. *hug because hugs make everything better*

Yeah, everyone has been posting vents, including you Max. :D
I know, we really need to stop making the NSP so depressing.

We aren't exactly venting on the NSP. We're just posting stories that revolve around depression. Those are still stories.
On the other hand, I'm feeling pretty happy tonight :D

Yeah, I know. But I can't just deal with crap when it's KP, something that I can fix.