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hey pluzzle

don't

okay

just don't

I've tried to kill myself before and trust me

1. you rarely succeed
2. you regret it
3. a lot
4. and it's relaly messy for your friends and family or whatever
5. also getting your stomach pumped is no fun (although that never happened to me, thank god)

look when I woke up

and I realized I was alive

and hadn't actually swallowed all of those pills

I was happy

Just relaly happy

To be alive

I'm not going to tell you you're loved and all that because you already know that
killing yourself is the most selfish thing anyone could ever do

so don't

just

don't
okay living is some badass stuff and iknow that sounds ridiculous when you're depressed and suicidal, but being alive is a really fucking awesome thing to be

you will never hear another good joke that will make you pee your pants with laughter

you will never go on the titan roller coaster in texas

you will never smoke your first cigarette (although that's nto a bad thing)

you will never finish your book

John green will release a new book

Finding Dory is coming out soon

So is the second avengers

You will never taste another freezerburned pizza

You will never feel the sunlight on your face when you wake up and try to blink it off

You will never freak out again because there's a spider

You will never find your soulmate (platonic or otherwise)

You will never try weed

You will never unlock everything in crossy road

You will never find a really cool steampunk halloween costme

You will never grow your hair out and put it in cute twists

You will never find the perfect sundress

You will never feel happy

Ever again

But if you stay alive

You will

I promise

@pluzzle
please don't
seriously, please please please don't suicides never end happy for anyone i can guarantee
i had a friend hospitalized in an attempt once and to this day it remains my worst memory and hers' as well
you have so much talent and so much goodness i really don't want you to throw that away please
i am begging you

@pluzzle
clearly you've been through a rough time and still are going through one and i don't know if anything i say will change that especially since I'm not that best at advice but can i just
look at these amazing people who have already commented trying to tell you that life is worth it. you are a wonderful, beautiful person, just seeing your name on here makes me happy. We all love you. We want you to get through this part of your life and you will okay one day you'll look back and realize how far you've come from feeling like you wanted to end it all and one day you'll be happier i promise. Honestly what AA said kind of hit home for all the times i have felt awful. This world is made up of so many little things that you've slowly grown to love even if you don't realize it and they'll all be gone if you die. Please please just don't kill yourself while you still have even those little things to live for.
Wishing you love and strength <3 know that we're here for you and are desperately hoping that you will stay here, alive for us too

hey milo
just.... try to survive just one more day.
and then one more.
keep counting the days. make it past one hundred. then two hundred. then five hundred, then a thousand.
i can guarantee you that you won't regret living. it might seem hard now, but it does get better. the first time i attempted suicide was in fifth grade. now i'm not suicidal at all in the least bit, four years later. recovery is slow but it happens. it really does. and by going so soon, you'll never experience it.
please don't go.

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wait no no no no no please
think about what you are doing.
imagine if your best friend (let's just say she's a girl) in the world died and you walk into her room and everything smells of her and everything is still left the way she left it. every single small connection shoots anxiety and sadness through your body. you'll never want to watch her favourite tv programmes because it will make you cry. food that she used to love will make you cry. you'll strip down half your room because it reminds you of her. you can't concentrate in lessons because you're mourning and breaking under the regret that you didn't do anything to save her.
all the pain that she had experienced was doubled up and put onto your shoulders. the pain is unbearable.
please don't give up. so many people love you endlessly. so many people would lose a part of themselves without you. if you used to be happy, why can't you be in the future?? you can figure this out, this is just a small part of your life and IT GETS BETTER even though that sounds bullshitty af and fake and cliche honestly don't.
this is a temporary solution to a problem and there are so many beautiful things and experiences that we all want you to experience. please stay

hhhhhii everyone i am Begrudgingly Alive lol thanks for ur kind words and support.. bad desicions have been made again... im still mad Tho Lol... im still kinda confused??
mmmbut thank u so much for taking the time out of ur lives to reply to my shitty ass ;; i cant thank u enough honestly it means a lot ;; im srry idk what to say its kinda. intimidating. idk

A SERIOUS EPILOGUE dont take four aspirin at once b4 a test!!! please!!! i just did that and ive finished the test but ?? holy shit im so sick??? dont do it its bad... p sure i failed that test #fire

AYYY MILO i'm so so so sorry i couldn't help out today. I had to go to a funeral and then get some pics taken for dance and overall i'm exhausted but I FEEL SO BAD FOR NOT SENDING U AN E-MAIL OR ANYTHING BUT BLESS EVERYONE ONE WHO HELPED OUT AND

DAMN MILO I'M SO GLAD UR ALIVE. MAYBE I CAN MEET U IRL SOMEDAY BUT FOR NOW DONT WORRY BOUT NOTHING. U DID FINE ON THE TEST AND I LUV U, OKAY. ALRIGHT cool...i'm terrible at supporting others but U PULLED THROUGH. GOOD JOB. REMEMBER UR DAILY "GOOD JOB ME" PAT ON THE BACK BECAUSE U DESERVE IT!

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i hope ur feeling okay funerals can be pretty harsh :c i hope the pics went well tho.. dont worry abt it mang

i luv u aaaa ;; im not. so glad but i ;; mmmmm thank u :;

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thank you so much for staying!! i'm not even lying/kidding/saying this just bc but you are one of my favourite people ever ngl and i'm super happy that you are still alive!! i was worrying a lot. if you ever need someone to stay stuff to, even if it's stupid stuff, then i'll happily listen/give advice/both <33

@milo good to see you alive and kicking :)

oh hi so my mother has been forgetting to give me my antidepressants and so I'm basically a hot depressed mess and basically during the daytime I'm okay and then come night I'm punching and cutting myself and wishing I was dead and stuff so yeah that's a pain in the ass

ughhh whydo i fucking exist