it does. it rlly does.

i'm not sure..

So I don't know what this is about, but I can't just see you worried without trying to help, right? Here goes. (warning: this is typed from my phone so I'll probably make a million typos)

You may live a gazillion miles away but to me, you're one of the smartest and most capable people I could ever have hoped to meet. And I have no idea what's holding you back now but I can assure you, it'll pass. It might not seem like it now but soon you'll get past this and realize it's not as bad as you made it out to be. And if you need help with anything, or just a person to talk to, I'm here. Remember that. Now keep being an amazing and intelligent and functional human being, alright? This will seem small in hindsight. Everything does.

Okay this probably didn't help xp

also i may or may not be staying up worrying for you. because that's just what i do.

http://www.kidpub.com/story/pencil-s...rap-1857153856


wow so I actually wrote about my feelings and it's a terrible poem but still

12384225345312% sure my mom hates me now like does she know the meaning of "respect my boundaries and don't force career paths on me"

my mental health really is linked to my grades. excuse me as i cry over the fact that im such a pathetic human being that these stupid numbers affect me so much. also i am at risk of getting b's in three freaking classes this is not okay. i am not okay. i need perfect grades so bad you don't even know. this is basically my current life purpose and i am failing. at least i never cry.

tbh if someone tried to end my life i wouldn't protest but i also wouldn't initiate it myself. i am pathetic and i don't know how to bring these grades up.

since when was a c average
i am going to cry now for real i can't do this anymore i am a failed attempt at a person i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself and my grades which basically are me

thankfully i didn't cry
but ill never be happy until my grades are perfect

i am in an endless loop.
bad grades => bad mental health => even worse grades => even worse mental health
i can't break out

no one does tbh. counsellors usually don't help me at all just talk to me like i'm five but i've had a shrink for a while and bc she's medically trained, at least i'm being treated my age and given suggestions. idk how you've been handling it but there are definitely people to help