Technically Asperger's isn't a mental illness it's a developmental disorder.
Because I'm sure as hell not mentally ill. Ik you didn't mean it like that but srsly.

shit, I'm so sorry, I'm very uneducated. :x I'll fix it.

I know the feeling. I've been there sometimes, years ago. I've hurt people I care about before. It happens, whether you're on the spectrum or not. Sometimes anxiety still crops up. Idk. Mostly it seems like I've got it all together. That I'm fine. Just the occasional misunderstanding or freak out because of change or something, but otherwise - fine.

The thing about spectrum disorders is that they affect everyone differently. I'm at a level where I can cope, I've figured out how to manage my shit. You aren't there yet. Yet being the word. Yet. You'll get there. It's not all hellfire and chaos like.

And the thing about having a diagnosis is sometimes you find yourself falling into the trap of thinking of it as your defining feature. You aren't just a label. If you're getting stressed, sometimes it's because of AS sure, but other times it's a human reaction. But if you think you're doomed to fail because of your condition, then you'll be a self-fulfilling prophecy. Sod that, thanks. Far better to defy the stars and write your own future. You can do whatever you choose. It's all a matter of being defiant enough and standing up against yourself. This is all very nice and metaphorical and doesn't make much sense but what I mean to say is you are your own person, what is happening to you and around you is not your fault nor your condition's.

You can do this. I know you can. Maybe my pep talks aren't the best since mostly they go along the lines of 'screw this' or you know 'bugger that for a laugh' or whatever, not the best way to live one's life. But hey, if it works. It'd be hypocritical of me to lie, and I can't say anything else. So the truth then. Life's not easy, especially when you're on a different wavelength to everyone else. Neurodevelopmental disorders club, not much fun sometimes.

But life isn't all that. There's great moments. Whether you're autistic or not. So go for it. We make our own prisons. And then - prison break.

Eh it's fine. I'm cool with it. Asperger's is, funnily enough, not the most interesting thing about me. It's not really my defining trait, you know, not that I would even know what my defining trait is. Yeah, I used to pull that card a lot in the past, I'd be like 'oh I'm sorry I'm special I can be rude to you and get away with it' but now I'm more chilled.

Neurodevelopmental disorder, technically, I googled.

My girlfriend has a daughter.
She had her when she was 12.
Why do I love her even more now?

oh no look who's so pissed she picked up her freaking chair and hurled it at the wall. oh yeah and then i kinda almost threw the bookcase at my desk again and i'm tryign to not break anything else in this stupid house and i've already almost worn myself out ad typing this is the only thing that isn't making me go punch the wall now

@asher: it's because she's strong enough to raise a child at such a young age, and you respect that. i respect that too. she sounds amazing from what i've heard of her from before as well. <3

i can definitely feel this w a mental illness and lds?? but this is such a good post v importanr
if you dont mind me askin:: what ever happened with you possibly being pregnant? i hope its all ok !
plz hang on you! trust me bruh you have so much to live for you are amazing

Yeah even if I wrote it for one audience it still applies to anyone else who finds it helpful. Idk I don't think I'm very good at being motivational but I do my best.

I'm not pregnant

And I'm trying.