don't
if you become bulimic
i will kill myself
you know why
it's deeper than just being disgusted
i am seriously terrified
by even the mention
it's sad
if you go through with this
i swear
please
god please
heather
i love you
you have
to
keep
it
down
.

i'm trying to throw it up
but my body won't let me
i don't know whether it's right or wrong
to do that
but lately i haven't been liking my body very much
so i think
it's wrong
i think
i'll try
to throw up
some more

being bulimic doesn't give you a nice body
it's disgusting
and besides
do you want to be a nasty skeleton
i swear
you are already skinny as it is
and if you
go through with this
it's not your fault
if im afraid of you
(im sorry
but
just
emetophobia
is
my
only
real
fear
and
it's
so
much
more
than
just
being
disgusted
)

i don't care whether it does or not
my body is sh*t anyways
and doomed
and i don't care
about my health anymore
about my body anymore
about my mentality anymore
about me anymore
i don't care at all
there's no point
i am not skinny
i'm already afraid of me
why shouldn't you be?
no one should care about me
it would make
dying
easier
.

I hope that this won't be the best time of my life. So far, hell yeah, it is, but I don't want it to go downhill from here.

I shouldn't be afraid of you because I love you and you're not allowed to die because I will never stop.
You shouldn't put those fingers down your throat because I swear to god if you do I will..........
i don't know
i realize that at this point you're not really listening to what anyone says
in fact
you seem to be more motivated to do so whenever someone tries to talk you out
just please know
even if you don't care much either way
you're killing me inside

i used to love me, too. but i've been dead for a long time.
that is true
yes
that is very true
i doubt that
you can live without me.

who cares if you aren't skinny?
you are you, and you are beautiful

EDIT:

I think that feeling the way you do is just part of teenage hood. It is part of growing up.
You should learn to accept your body the way it is.

*QUOTES SCIENCE TEACHER*
It can also be part of your genes.
*END QUOTE*

So, yeah.
That's what Iz Thinkz

What.
Um.
I don't think.
All right then...