THE LIGHT BEHIND YOUR EYES WAS LEAKED AND IM EXPLODING FROM FEELS
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yep freaking out so much

GUUUUIIIIIISEEE THE WORLD IS UGLY WAS ALSO LEAKED
I DONT KNOW
IDEK
IDEK
IM SO HAPPY
IM SO SAD
IM CRYING

WHY SO MANY FEELS
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I don't even know what I am feeling right now.

14. XD (*lols at being sixteen*)
Growing up?


NOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPE. (*runs away*)

So maybe he isn't that bad after all...
I was the same last night...I kept scrawling whatever I was thinking in a notebook and I wasn't sure whether I was happy or crying and I wished I could calm down and drain all the emotion from myself for a moment.

You're 14? So you aren't older than Ash.
;_; IMMA TROLLING.

HEY ME TOO.
The mood matches a story I'm writing.

... You're a trolling...? o_o And nah, I'm pretty sure Ash is almost a year older than me.

Anyone who has problems with their appearance like me
 

I feel a bit better now. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gnk3RX-wuxs
Thank you, Emilie Autumn. :)

That's SO how I feel about growing up. I look at it, laugh, and then run away crying.

im listening to The Light Behind Your Eyes and i can relate to it so much.

i miss you, m.
i miss you, c.

http://www.kidpub.com/book-page-or-c...ead-1917132149

That's all I gotta say. :(

..........So.

28 people are dead at an elementary school in Connecticut. 20 of those people were little children. It was a mass shooting. A 20-year-old man with multiple guns just waltzed in and started killing everyone. Then he committed suicide.

...

I can't remember the last time I actually cried after reading a news article. ;w;

Gosh, it's so sick how a person could kill 20 innocent children.

When you put it in that way, I feel terrible. Connecticut is so terrible whatnot with the person that had the gun and killed most of some kids lives. Crap. CRAPCRAPCRAP.

Yeah. D:

http://www.kidpub.com/story/together...rts-1843132135

It's not just sick; it's revolting, it's disgusting, it's everything I despise. Yet I feel sympathy for that man. There was something very, very wrong with him, with his mind, with his life for him to do such a thing. I feel sympathy for the families of those who will not have their children come home ever again.

But sympathy isn't enough.

you know, im kind of glad L doesn't check my tumblr because she doesn't need to worry about me.
at the same time, i wish she would so i could have some comfort.

gosh, im so selfish.

I've been wondering what it was all about today once I saw several pictures from pages on Facebook.

I asked my friend who's also called Lauren to join KP and I wonder what may happen if she saw my posts on this and the cutting thread.

Does maxi understand what trolling is?
Best way to deal with it, I think.

.... :^I *stares at calendar*
It's amazing how often you forget your age and your birth date when you don't actually celebrate your birthday. XD XD DX DX

Okay...........ASH. QUESTION: How old are you?

Ummm...let's see, I know I'm a bit older than Cass.......and I'm getting my learner's permit sometime next year....so, that makes me, what, 15? Few months past 15? Yeah, I think that's it.

XD DERP!

I need to think a bit that I am 12. x_x

ASH! :D You need to get Figment and friend me.
http://figment.com/users/224648-Max-S

I DO need to get a Figment account, don't I? o.o

I'll look into it over the weekend. ^_^

o.o This weekend or next?

You MUST show other people WOT, Ash. :D They will be freaking impressed. P:

Um......*noms on the candy bar I just snagged from the kitchen*....*looks at clock* XDD Yeahhhh, probably next weekend.

O_O OTHER PEOPLE? What other people? What? Huh? kjbwkfjb? *le self-conscious moment* No, you don't have to do that! >w< They won't be impressed. You're really sweet for saying that, though. <:^J

Me do what? You just need to sign up, post WOT and then wait for comments and CC to roll on by. <:^)

*le reading The Goodbye* You're such an amazing author. :^) I am hooked.

....jdjbhabfjhvad I meant to type "I" not "you". >_< It's past 3 A.M., typos are to be expected!!! XDD

D'aw. You're too kind. :o I can NOT write romance...at all....that excerpt took me FOREVER to write. x_x

I am writing the comment right now. :D It shall be up soon! :P

:o No, I'm not kind; I'm just reading epik stories, that's all!

x_x Must write soon. 8D XD asdfhjkl ASH POST MOAR BOOK THREE.

XD But I have to post Books One and Two first, silly.

Sorry, I was supposed to add excerpts at the end of that. ._.

Oh. o_o Well, that makes more sense then! ^_^

I WANT to post more Book Three excerpts...but 99% of the book depend on a few VERY VERY IMPORTANT scenes towards the beginning of it, thus making the entire book one huge spoiler. x_x (I COULD post an excerpt of the book's beginning, though (maybe Arra's death scene or funeral)...

Yesh! :D Book's beginning, please! P:

Are you there, Ash? o___o

You know how when you listen to a song, it just makes you want to cry because it reminds you of what happened?

On My Own(TDG), Drown(TDG) Wake Up(TDG), Chalk Outline(TDG), Disenchanted(MCR), I Don't Love You(MCR), Cubicles(MCR), and right now, The Light Behind Your Eyes by MCR.

I met so many people that left me/I left but the two that stick out the most are M and C.

M:
Chalk Outline by TDG
Drown by TDG
Disenchanted by MCR
I Don't Love You by MCR
Cubicles by MCR
and mostly... The Light Behind Your Eyes by MCR

I don't understand what the hell I did. Did I even do anything? Apart from trying to help you through your depression? Apart from trying to stop you from self harming? Apart from trying to keep your suicidal thoughts away? After everything that I've done, you just leave me. I thought we were actually friends, but I realize now that you just took my advice and then left me. You always used to ask for my help and when you got it, you left me. Then you came crawling back, until now. Now, you're better and here I am. I can't let go of you, because I really really really thought we were friends.
I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you.
I'm sorry.
Still, I'm happy that you got better. I'm happy that you found others. I'm hoping you'll be completely happy when you grow up. Even if I'm not a part of it anymore, I still hope you find people that make you happy.

C:
On My Own by TDG
Wake Up by TDG
Drown by TDG
Cubicles by MCR
and most importantly... The Light Behind Your Eyes by MCR

I'm sorry. It's 85% my fault, I effing screwed it up. I'm so effing sorry. I could have been a better friend, and I was so selfish. I feel so bad that I let this friendship get away, but now that I think of it, it's probably better we aren't friends anymore.
I just really miss you.


M and C:

If I could be with you tonight…
I would sing you to sleep,
Never let them take the light behind your eyes…
One day, I’ll lose this fight…
As we fade in the dark, just remember you will always burn as
Bright
Be strong, and hold my hand.
Time becomes for us, you’ll understand.
We’ll say goodbye today,
And we’re sorry how it all ends this way…
~The Light Behind Your Eyes by My Chemical Romance

i really want this song on repeat
at the same time i really dont

okay im done putting my heart through a blender.
thank you mcr, that was beautiful.
eff you mcr, that hurt.