I know what you mean. I wonder if purpose is purposeless, if that makes sense.

And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming
No one's listening anyway

Goo Goo Dolls, Acoustic #3

I just watched Cyber Bully. Not the best thing to watch when depressed but still.
I always cry at a certain part ;~; (Won't say the part in case you haven't seen it yet :D)

Why.
 

I've been meaning to post this for a long time, but. Haven't quite gotten around to it till now:
Does anybody else feel as though they rely on their parents like a dog on its owner? Like, really only for food and a place to stay and TLC? I think it's a pretty good analogy and I've been feeling that way a lot lately. Like I'm just their pet, and I keep rebelling because I feel trapped. Whoopdeedoo, I'm relating to animals now. /thishasbeenadepressionupdate /ciao

That's how teenagers usually feel, especially if they're not close to their parents. It's because there isn't a real bond between the parent and child, which means they have no desire to be with the parents otherwise. Younger children, however, feel too dependant on their parents (to drive to school, to get the cup out of the tallet cabinet, to change their clothes for them, etc.). /been reading psychology books/ I guess I understand how you feel sometimes, but I'm not the best person to give to the best advice.

Just looked up the Butterfly Project. ~draws butterfly on arm~

Mum:
You have no right to tell me to go and die. And I had enough of your bullshitting about how bad my Chinese is.
And what's more...they're talking about divorce. Apparently, Dad's been considering to sell the flat and split up. And because of how bad I am in Chinese he's considering to go to England and take me while leaving Mum.
I've always wanted to live in England. But when they're seriously considering to do so, I effing don't want to.

:( Lauren.... I wish I could tell you things will get better, but I can't. I hope they do. I really hope. You are a wonderful person, and none of that stuff- your parents considering divorce, splitting up- none of those things deserve to happen to you. I've had a lot of friends whose parents split, and I feel for you. I really do. You are wonderful person. Please stay strong. :'(

And now everyone's polite to each other, and it's really awkward.

My friend K, her parents didn't divorce officially, just separated, and now whenever I'm over at her house that she's usually at (her moms) if her dad comes, they just treat each-other like friends....new friends... awkward.

Even I'M polite. Which is unusual.

Here, I actually understand you. Whenever one of my family members or someone gets into an argument, I start my "statue" routine. This is where I turn into the well behaved young lady that most people expect me to be: Polite, responsible, quiet, studious- they all think that's my type. I'm actually more like: crazy, chocolate loving, messy, unorganized, curses (often-ish).

I killed my butterfly.

Oh no D:
I researched the butterfly project today after you posted it. So I knew what you meant.
Draw another. Do NOT kill it. Pretend it's a very good friend of yours.

Already drawn ~headesks~ I'm horrible.

Sometimes it's just hard to resist. /hugs Calla.

*Researched the Butterfly Project* Nu. Stay strong.

I now have about ten butterflies on my arms.

Yay butterflies! (for once)
It would probably be a narwhal project for me if I started since I don't know how to draw wolves.

Narwhal project? Tis awesome XD

Indeed xD
Ten char.

The Butterfly Project sounds cool.

Did you cut? Or scratch?

Draw your butterfly again. Have you seen the tumblr for it? So many people have improved.
http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ma...w9n5o1_400.jpg

Quote from the site:

:'( That's amazingly sad.

Here's another picture. The before picture was to grisly to post, but this was after.

https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/i...PEt-w6WOQ9TMaZ

Wow :O It's really . . . . ~cannot think of a strong enough word~

Stay strong.
I drew a butterfly to support you, and everyone else. <3
http://oi45.tinypic.com/6eis86.jpg

:') Thankiez :')

Honey, I know exactly how you feel. It's a ton of shit for sure, and I know your parents are just trying to look out for you. But remember that you can look out for yourself, and you are amazing, and even if you though you didn't have a good chance of getting in, well, you have an even worse chance if you don't apply. My parents are doing the same thing. Just breathe and stay calm and don't take out your stress on them, because it'll make it worse. I know. It'll be all right.
I'm sort of doing that. In my own way. Except for the tree washed off and now I want to... yeah. I don't know. It's not addicting, at least, not yet. It's just something to hold on to when I'm feeling absolutely emotionless, like I could just fade away from the emotional world and no one would ever know. I need another red pen, dammit. The ones at my house are out of ink.

I sometimes don't understand my mom. I was doing the dishes and she and I were joking around, she making up words and I criticising them with a chuckle, and all of a sudden she stopped and began to talk about how I shouldn't insult people. I was trying to apologize, saying that I didn't mean any harm and that I'm always obnoxiously sarcastic. She kept saying she was tired today, and....well, I just went back to washing dishes, mulling it over.

I know I'm blunt and irritating, but my mom and I always jab at each other like that. Maybe she really did just have a long day?

I sometimes wonder delusively if I have Aspergers. I make friends quickly, don't get me wrong, but I don't understand people sometimes. I also believe that my immense intellect could rival Rebecca's.

None of us can rival Rebecca. To do that, you have to have Aspergers and have sold your soul on E-bay.

^This is a true thing.

Immense intellect? I don't think so. Rebecca's a smart chica, smarter than you, I'm sure. Stop thinking you're all that.
I don't think there's a vanity disorder.

^Wait, no, never mind. MaryElizabeth, you might have this: http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001930/

Narcissism is a symptom of Bipolar Disorder, by the way.

At first I though you said narcolepsy. XP

Mr. Benedict!

Haha, I was just thinking that. XD I did a report for school on narcolepsy. Horrible decision. DX