It's obvious nobody wants me alive.

Heyheyhey. Don't think that!! There are definitely a lot of people who do want you alive, especially us. I know we're just online peeps but we still do care and will provide moral support. Just don't think that :( no one deserves to feel that way. Even if at times people act like that, on some level, they still do care about you. These rough patches will pass eventually, even if it may not seem like it. Just try to distract yourself in some way or talk to people to try to work it out. Just stay strong!

Thank you so much!
But it's hard...
Friends who barely care about your birthday. Your old, closest friends who wish you a mere two words or an early one and not even on the actual day. By email, in fact. Friends who never email you anymore.
Friends who criticize everything you do.
KP is the only place I can be myself without worrying.

No problem!! Oh jeez v.v i'm so sorry. It sounds like they are horrible friends :( you should try to talk to them about it. Either that or try to find a better group of friends. Making new friends is never an easy experience but it could prove to be beneficial. I really hope everything works out!!!
It's good that KP is like that to you c: i feel exactly the same way. But it's also kind of sad that we can't be ourselves elsewhere :c but it's great to have a place to go with such kind, caring people ^^

Yeah, I love KP.
But as I have said to other people, I'm not the type of person to suddenly confront someone or ditch people for others.
Thank you!

Ah :/ i guess you could continue being their friend bit at the same time reach out and talk to more people? /.\ i don't know

Ehh but I'm new to that school so it's gonna be awkward.

It'll be awkward but that's actually better with a new school c: more people!

Yay! I guess it's worth a try. Staying with the good kids, a little casually. They know me, and I know them, so she won't get weird.

My little brother just asked me what happiness is to me.

I wanted to say "talking to someone who cares and will be there for me even if they don't get it completely".

But then I'd have to explain. I'd have to explain how screwed up I am and I just....I can't let him know. He deserves to think he has a big sister who isn't broken.

So I said, "I dunno".

(*screams*)