Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 341075)

Wow... o_O High school is seriously, seriously... wow. Just the concept.

It... (*sigh*)... it really sets the course for the rest of your life, guys. Don't forget that. (I don't mean for homeschoolers... I mean public high school, where you're exposed to every little thing...)
...the most perfect girl...
I remember we would hate each other--we were jealous of each other's intellect. We were both at the top of all our classes.
She was like me, but a million times better.
A whiz at math.
A creative writer genius.
She was a mastermind.
Her mind was on hyper drive, all the time. Constantly analyzing, processing, and her teachers loved her.
In the recent years, we stopped hating each other and became friends. At the end of grade eight... she started to fall apart, and I could see what she really was inside. All this perfection, this illusion of divine sublimity that she always had... it crumbled. And at the root of all this perfection was a burning, hungering desire to please, to be approved of, for once.
Already, high school has worked its magic on her.
Now, she's into drugs; she abuses the sleeping pills and pain medication she was given; and she self harms. She's hopeless.
I couldn't believe this--I'm so disappointed in her. She's overflowing with potential... but she seemed to take on the role of a god when I was friends with her, and it started to crack her. Her ego was pretty much pouring out her ears... I could barely stand to listen to her because she had become so enveloped in delusions of herself and her grandeur and nonexistent superiority.
Everyone is falling apart around me. It's so strange...

Time to add her name to the list of my friends who are being utterly annihilated by real life.

I don't understand why they're all being cut down, it's almost like they're being smited by some kind of divine force... No, that's not what I don't understand.
I don't understand why my turn hasn't come yet.
Is it just a matter of time?
Is it just a matter of time until something crashed down around me too? Or has it already happened?
This is so unsettling.
It's like a building is collapsing around me, but I'm not getting anything. I'm just standing there, in the eye of the hurricane.

Am I in the clear? Or am I just on the waiting list?

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 341247)

I feel like my best friend kind of overreacts all the time and makes things unnecessary and it annoys me:
Overreacting:
Me: It looks like I self-harmed. My rats need their nails trimmed!
Her: Oh no! She could do serious damage!
YES. I KNOW RIGHT, BECAUSE MY NAILS CAN ALSO SCRATCH ME AND IM GOING TO DIE FROM THEM HAHA YEAH.

I know, she's probably caring and I'm overreacting also, but this bothers me how she thinks every little problem about me is going to kill me.
And yeah, the cuts could be serious if I don't wash them, but I wash them with soap and water. :P

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 341075)

Wow... o_O High school is seriously, seriously... wow. Just the concept.

It... (*sigh*)... it really sets the course for the rest of your life, guys. Don't forget that. (I don't mean for homeschoolers... I mean public high school, where you're exposed to every little thing...)
...the most perfect girl...
I remember we would hate each other--we were jealous of each other's intellect. We were both at the top of all our classes.
She was like me, but a million times better.
A whiz at math.
A creative writer genius.
She was a mastermind.
Her mind was on hyper drive, all the time. Constantly analyzing, processing, and her teachers loved her.
In the recent years, we stopped hating each other and became friends. At the end of grade eight... she started to fall apart, and I could see what she really was inside. All this perfection, this illusion of divine sublimity that she always had... it crumbled. And at the root of all this perfection was a burning, hungering desire to please, to be approved of, for once.
Already, high school has worked its magic on her.
Now, she's into drugs; she abuses the sleeping pills and pain medication she was given; and she self harms. She's hopeless.
I couldn't believe this--I'm so disappointed in her. She's overflowing with potential... but she seemed to take on the role of a god when I was friends with her, and it started to crack her. Her ego was pretty much pouring out her ears... I could barely stand to listen to her because she had become so enveloped in delusions of herself and her grandeur and nonexistent superiority.
Everyone is falling apart around me. It's so strange...

Time to add her name to the list of my friends who are being utterly annihilated by real life.

I don't understand why they're all being cut down, it's almost like they're being smited by some kind of divine force... No, that's not what I don't understand.
I don't understand why my turn hasn't come yet.
Is it just a matter of time?
Is it just a matter of time until something crashed down around me too? Or has it already happened?
This is so unsettling.
It's like a building is collapsing around me, but I'm not getting anything. I'm just standing there, in the eye of the hurricane.

Am I in the clear? Or am I just on the waiting list?

Originally Posted by GabiDi (Post 341099)

...I don't know if you were talking to Sandy or Lvhamsters, but uh, cutting and drug abuse is not HORMONES.
I'm sick of everyone blaming their hormones for everything when it can be more serious.

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 341433)

Talking to Lvhamsters. I just read the first sentance, and then I left and then I came back. Now I feel stupid. XD

Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 341514)

Feet are very, very, very tired.
Just finished running a 4800 m run.